Aziz was back from London, the shocking news was that I found out from twitter and not from him.
I sent him a text welcoming him back even though he doesn't deserve it
I received a reply from him telling me that he misses me and he's sorry for neglecting me.
This time I ignored him
My phone started flashing indicating a phone call but again i didn't answer him
miss call wara ilthani wana maska nafsii
9araw 6 chan ajawb
Aziz: ولهان ولهااان ويحقلي اوله
he sang this line to me and I started crying he heard my sobs through the phone and started to calm me down
Aziz: 3ithoob 7ayaty asif wallaa asif adri ini mga9er b7agch o nadman gad sha3ar rasi alla ykhalech bas
may9er ashof dam3a tanzil mnch tkfain latabchen tara ga3da tga63en galbi
I couldnt stop I don't know what has gotten into me but Aziz my Aziz was back I can feel it from his voice from the way he talked the words he used to calm me down, but why now what happened when he wasnt in kuwait.
3ithoob: laish Aziz ana shsawait 3ashan tsawi feni chithi
I told him in between my sobs
Aziz: Madrii shyani 3ithob bil coarse makint abi aklm a7ad kint karih kilshai adrii mali 7ag bs wala 7asait ib geemtch o magdar maklmch I know ini i hurt you bas walla hal shai makan beedi sam7eni o inshalla ba3awthch o btshofen
I swear after that phone call it was like I took someone and replaced him with someone else Aziz has become the perfect guy! you know the men you read in love novels and never think they exist Aziz has become a character from a love story he cared again he called me almost 3 times a day to ask about me , he was the first one I talked to when I wake up and the last when I wanted to sleep.
It was too good to be true..
His Birthday was coming up there is no way to wish him a happy birthday unless I call him, So it was 20/9 and aziz's birthday is on the 21st, I waited till the clock strinked 12 and called him immdiatly
I called once
And all I could hear was the machine repeating the same words that "the mobile is switched off or is out of the coverage area"
Now what? his bb was off as well so he couldn't receive anything on bbm or whatsapp. I got so frustrated how could he keep his phone shut the whole time he's there.
He would've atleast get an english sim card and connect the bbm, but who am I to tell him.
I decided to send him a whatsapp maybe he'll just connect his phone to the wifi تمنيت أكون أول من يهنيك وأكون فهاليوم منك قريب بس شاءت الأقداروكل واحد منافطريق مدري من السبب أنا ولاّ إنت بس اللي أعرفه كل واحد منا عن الثاني بعيد حبيبي أنامانسيت وبهاليوم الشمع ضويت ولما جا الوقت طيفك هنيت كل عام وانت بخيرترى والله لك حنيت
الله يحفظك ياأغلى من حبيت
kil 3am winta ib alf 5air ya a'3la aziz bil dinya 3ogbal il 10000 sina inshala o tkon hal sina sinat 5air o sa3ada o ayamik kilha fara7 mithil ma inta 5air 3alay 7awalt ati9il bas your phone is off all I can do is send you this ma3ina shwaya 3alayk bas shasawee mabede shay I hope your having fun and happy birthday 7ayaty, and just to let you know that I miss u :(
oo أَحبك لـو كل الَنَاسْ عـارضـونِــــي
There was no response from Aziz, Even though he read it, he didnt reply in other words aziz ignored me when I wished him all the best! I gave up on him i"m giving him my all and he's not willing to give me a couple of minutes from his time. How come he doesnt misss me when all I do is miss him? ma akser 5a6ra 7ata? ma3goola akoo nas yt'3ayirown chthee?
أكثر مآ يؤلمني هو آنك تعلم أني كل ما آكتبه يقصدك وآنت مآزلت تقرأ ﺑصمت
Days passed by so slowly I couldn't wait till he gets back here so that I get things cleared up with up. I am fed up this time I am not backing out I have to confront him! atleast I could move on I just need an answer to whats going on!
I know that I'm not a good blogger and it takes me forever to post but things keep coming up that distract me from the blog. madree itha layl7en feee nas tgra my blog, bas this to all of you waiting enjoy ;*
لا تعشمني بَ حبك ثم تروح يا تجيني عمر ولا لا تجي.. ما ٱخاف أعيش من بعدك جروح بس ٱخاف أحب غيرك ثم تجي
As I mentioned before things with 3azeez kept getting worse over time and I kept hanging on to him. He was the first guy that I fall in love with. I was so attached to him that the thought of losing him just breaks my heart! He used to be so good to me and I don't really know what happened? Is it possible that he replaced me with someone else? A girl that would keep her man satisfied and happy. I was never going to give him more than what he got because I'm better than this! t3arfooon laama 6ol 3omrkom masken roo7kom min inkom t7iboon witkalmoom o lama tyeen t7beenlich wa7id '6ameerich dayman iy2anbich and your pride keeps you from doing many things that other girls are willing to do?
That was how i felt back then I was hopeless I couldn't do anything about it because I cant mention this to anyone or Id be dead by now! I was young, stupid, and confused. I had no one to guide me and tell me that what I was doing is just meaningless. Iwanted to take and a risk and confront him about the way I felt which to be honest is miserable, I was sad and depressed most of the time unlike other girls who were insanely happy and madly inlove.
outgoing call: A
it kept ringing and ringing and he didn't pick up, typical
my phone buzzed indicating that I have received an sms
wya ilrb3 shfech
Awal matf'6a call me
I waited till midnight, he hasn't called so I drifted to sleep, at around 4am my phone was vibrating nonstop I knew that someone was calling so I instantly pressed on the green button
me: alo (I was so tired my voice could be barely heard)
Aziz: asif 7ayaty ga3adtich
that was it! hearing his voice got me stuttering it was so deep and sexy I missed it أبسط أسباب السّعاده صوت من تحب
me: umm la 3adii bs mnsd7a ta3bt
Aziz: shfech oboii intay shile mt3bch laykon ana? tara ayech 6ayer il7en
me: aziiiiz 3an ilshi6ana!
Aziz: intay ilee m5ch ray7 feha wila ana bare2 maglt shay
me: hehehehe inzain ya obo ilbara2a inta
Aziz: magiltele shfech 7abebte 5ar3tene 3lych
me: ahhhh la 7abebe mafene shay bas walaht 3alayk
Stupid! I was so Stupid! I gave up so easily
Aziz: ma7ad galch sotch shay ma9ar wntay tawch g3da mn ilnom
and off he went with the flirting and the sweet talk. He was so good at making me forget. a7la wagt wiya lma kint aklma 3l phone 7ta law mara bil sna bs hal mara t3aw'6ne 3an ilayam ile ra7aw kilaha iy7asisne chna mako bl dnya '3air 3thob o chne a7la ma bil kown o ine amlik ildnya kilaha, bas min a9akr mna il5a6 I start crying so hard I feel bad for myself mahma iysawe arja3 a7iba min yid o ydeed ma9art ya 3aziz wala ma9arat!
Aziz decided to travel with his friends to London during the summer break and I was done with Highschool going on to Uni, I didn't travel that summer because of the things that I had to do with registering and taking placement tests and all.
Aziz talked me into getting bbm back so I did in order for us to improve our relationship he told me that through bbm we could talk to each other 24/7 rather than signing in and out from msn.
At the beginning we were so good we would tallk to each other the whole day like old days, then slowly Aziz started to back off, I might send him a text and he'd reply after 4 or 5 hours not even minutes. It was crazy but I got the hang of it.
It was time for Aziz to leave
after and hour,
3ithoob: 7i6 balk 3la nafsk o please 6amne 3laik awl mato9l dont get me worried