A Mistake (17)

3azeez: titzawijaynee?

my stomache started to ache I felt nautious my hands were shaking I was shocked! I never expected him to even bring up this topic ya3nii what would I tell him I've been lying to him the whole time!!!

'3alia: 3azeeez it's too soon mosta7eel my parents would let me get married at this age bas inshalla in the future laysh la2

3azeez: inshallaaa I cant waiiiit

3azeez came from a very different background than I did, He was from an average family while I was froom a good well known wealthy family, In my families point of view there is no way that I would marry him from the difference of the family names. ana moo ga3da agool ina fee farg o i hope ina matwa5thoonee bas feee farg bil 3awayil o hal ashya2 ma3ina ana mashoof lah da3ee cuz we're all humans o mafee farg bain ilnas bas ana mit2akda malyown bil imya ina ahaleee would not approve of him.

'3alia: :$

3azeez: o inyeeeeb yahaal yishbihooonich chthee 7ilweeen

'3alia: wishdaraaak ineee 7ilwaa yimkin akoon jaikaraaa!

3azeez: laaa laa ana mit2akid inich 7ilwaaaa

'3alia: baaas taraaa ga3daa asti7eeeee :$:$:$

3azeez: ya7ilooo ileee ysti7oon wallaaaa

'3alia: 3azeeezaan abeeeee bint o5ook yeebleeee iyahaaa

3azeez: ana wiyach nyeeb nafs,ha o a7laa minhaa

'3alia: laaa aanaa abee il7een a5th.haa dig 3ala o5oook o gooola ineee abeeha

3azeez: laaa adig hal 7aza may9eer!

'3alia: haw laysh may9eer 3adii o5ook

3azeez: laa ohwaaa mitzawij o matadreen hal 7aza my9eer adig

'3alia: :s madree shno ya3nii 3adii

3azeez: ya3nii hal 7azaa ohwa o mortaa iysawoon ashya2 t3arfeen what married couples doo!

I felt sooo stupid makinttt fahmaa o lamaa galeee 7asayt naffsee '3abiyaaa!

'3alia: bas now ilfayer!

3azeez: eeee 3adii kayfhom ay wagt 7ata il9ib7 itha yaboon kayfhom!

'3alia: olaa shnoo il9b777

3azeez: eee ya3nii ana wiyaach when we get married il9ib7 il'6her il3a9er bilayl 6oool ilwagttt

That was unexpected 7adiii ista7aytttt ya3nii matwa8a3t ina we'd be discussing this subject

'3alia: olaaaa olaaaaa olaaaa laaa:$

3azeez: imbalaa mortee o kayfeeeeeee

'3aliaa: o ham anaaa kayfeeee

3azeez: laaa moo kayfiichhh mitaa ma abee we'll doo itt

'3alia: okkk okkk kayffik bas plzz let's colseee the subject tara ast7ee atkalam 3an hal ashya2!

3azeez: walla I love how inoccent you are :*

'3alia: :$

3azeez: yallaa bass namaay 7abeebti bacher ra7 tit3ibeen

'3alia: 5ala9 inshalla t9ba7 3ala 5air :*

3azeez: wintay min ahlaaa :*

....................................................

a random convo I have with 3azeez saved on my phonee that I really love

I love calling him 3abdil3azeez bas ohwa may7ib iy7is inaaa lazim akoon serious wila m3a9ba 3ashan I call him that name walla iy'6a7ik

'3alia: yalla annaa laziiim anaaaam il7een cuzz wayyyeed t2a5ar ilwagt ooo adree mat7ib I call you 3abdil3azeez bas 7iloo walla a7laa min 3azeez fa think about it :p

3azeez: LOOOOOOOOL okk 7abeebtii ;**

'3alia: tadre ina awal mara tgole 7abeebti :$

3azeez: 9ijjjj?

'3alia: ee :$

3azeez: you like it?

'3alia: yup :$

3azeez: ok 7abebti

'3alia; hehehehe yalla ti9ba7 3ala 5air

3azeez: wenty min ahla 7bibti ;*******
-ba5aleech tizhigeen minha ;p

'3alia: looooooool matwa8a3 azhaag :$

3azeez: LOOOOOOOL
-yalla 7bibti namay warach ga3da ;*

'3alia: yalla bas ush 5alnee anaaam

3azeez: ok 7bibti ;****************

....................................

A Mistake (16)

I was pissed with him, He should'nt do this to me ya3nii ana I don't deserve to be treated this way.

One day 8arar iykalmneee 3ogob maybe 1 month or yimkin akthar he decided ina iykalmnee ib kayfa chthee 8arar

3azeez: hii

I ignored ga3da 3ala a39abee abbee I reply 3alayh bas mabee abee iy7is how it feels to be waiting for someone forever after 2 hours I replied

'3alia: hi

3azeez: ola tawich trideen

'3alia: e mobili makan yamii

3azeez: oh ok shlownich babe?

bas 5ala9 ana hneee wi9alt 7adiii iysawee nafsaa china wala shay 9ayeer as if everything's fine

'3alia: babe?

3azeez: ee layshh

'3alia: il7een ana 9irt your babe! wainik 3anee min sbo3 sbo3ayn wila shahar?

3azeez: omee wala 6a7at 3alayna maree'6a o mjabilha

I felt soo bad but at the same I felt that he was lying... 2 mins gabil laynam wila awal ma he wakes up wont effect him itha bas galii hi aw sa2alnee shlownich. A month is too much I was hurt and he didn't care. yabee iyeey barda imbarida chthee iykalmne china ana ma3ndee ay i7sas.

'3alia: matshoofon shar inshalla o alla iygawimha likom bil salama o wala ya7rimkm minha

abee kint a6la3 bil zaina o you guys want the truth I really missed him ya3nii galbee kan iy3awrnee min kither ma I missed him. I know you think I'm exaggerating but I cried thinking that he doesn't want me anymore that I was just like any other girl that he would talk to and throw her down the drain. I'm not that kind of girl and I will never be.

3azeezan: il shar mayech o ameen maga9rtay o walla I'm sorry it's all my fault inee masa2alt 3anich sam7eenee

'3alia: 3azeez digeegtayn mara7 iy2athroon 3alayk law bas tgoolee hi mo ila tsowlif ma3ay bas mat3alignee chthee madree shilsafa wala adree wainik wila shfeek

3azeez: I know Im sorry walla I am

I let it pass I was just tired and I wasn't in the mood for arguening anymore.

'3alia: lat3eedha plzz

3azeez: inshalla ma3eedha

We went back to normal after that conversation that we had.

Everyday he would make me send him a voice note singing to him I didn't like it but it made him happy and I wanted him to be happy.

One night we were chatting and I don't know what made brought up the conversation but he asked me this

3azeez: '3alooya

'3alia: halaa

3azeez: t7ibeenee?

'3alia: you know I do

3azeez: gooleeha leee

'3alia: laaa mabee :$

3azeez: alla iy5aleech 3ashanee goleelee bas hal mara

My face was turning to the darkest shade of red and my palms were sweating even though it was a simple question and I was all alone in my room I was too shy to tell him that I loved him ma3ina it was simple the first time...

'3alia: :$

3azeez: yallaa 7ayatyyy

'3alia: ee

3azeez: ee shnoo? gooleeha yalla

'3alia: eee a7ibik :$

3azeez: a55555aaiiiiiihhhhh 3aalaychh wana amoot feech

hearing that from his was the best thing everrr

3azeez: inzaiin '3alooya

'3alia: ameerneee

3azzeez: titzawijaynee?

A Mistake (15)

Dedicated to each and every person that commented thank u ;**

I sang to him the whole birthday song
'3alia: "happy birthday too youuu happy birthdaaay too youuu happyy birthdaaay tooo 3azeezaaan happy biirtthdaaaay tooo youuuu kil 3am winta ib alf 5aiir o 3ogbal il 1000000 sina ya rab o enjooy itt lovee youu "

Yes! I told him that I've loved him for the first time since I knew him I told him that I loved him I guess its the perfect timing to do so since I have felt this way towards him

Yalla its 12 I should send it

Ok sent :D

Once he heard it he replyed

3azeez: thankkk youu zayoonaaa 7ayatyy wallaa maga9artaay o mashallaaa 9owtichh iyaniiin

'3alia: hehehe i3jibak il voice note?

3azeez: 7adaa walla that made my dayy

'3alia: hehehehe zaiin ashwaa :**

3azeez: eee o ta3alaaay hathee awal mara tgooleelee I love u :$

'3alia: eee adree :$

3azeez: ya3nii you do?

'3alia: eee akeed I do

3azeez: waaaaaaaay '3alooooyyyyyyyy matadreeeeee shkitheer anaaa mistaniiissss il7eeeeeeen

'3alia: hehehehehe inshallaaa dooooom

3azeez: gooleelee a7ibik

'3alia: laaa maneee gaylaa :$

3azeez: yallaaa 3ad goolaaay

'3alia: laaaa a9laan hal kilma mara7 tsma3haa ilaaa min fatra lay fatraa

3azeez: shda3wwaaaa

'3alia: wallaa ana moo mt3awda inee agolha fa asti7ee wayed o ilyowm I told you la2naa its ur birthday o I wanted it to be special :$

3azeez: fedaiitich wallaaa 7aayatyy intay maga9artaay :***

'3alia: :$

Days past by o everything was going perfectly fine laman he changed again! Faj2aaa ta'3ayar magam iykalmnee o kila ya7girneee o makoo any contact wiyaa....

Makoo feedback :(

Makoo feedback laysh :(
How do I knowww if people are reading 3ashan akamil wila la2..

A Mistake (14)

Heeey ;** I'm sorry inee I'm not posting bas mashoof comments! The more I see them the more I inee ashta6 o I post soo please share ur thoughts o let me see what you think about what's going on soo far ;D
Ooo Enjoy ;*

I don't know if I should believe him ya3niii do I love him too? Ana 3adita as a friend nothing more nothing less! 9ij inee I got attached to him bas moo lay darajat inee I lOVE him! Madreee walla madreee this thing is confusing meee!

Onee timee kint ga3da asowlif ma3aah o ma adreee what was the convo about exactly bas inaa za3aaal! O ana ga3adt afaker ib a waaaay inee ara'6ee feeha fa fakart inee adizla a voice clip (that's like a voice not bas bil msn :p)

The voice clip said: laaa latiz3aal I didn't mean it wallaaa
( I still have it saved!)

Heeeeee weeentt craazyyyyyy!!!!!
Matwa8a3 ineee badizlaaaa my actuaaal voicee o to be honest I said it in a bit dala3 way not tthe halima boland kind of way bas madreee

3azeez: fdeeeeeeeeeeeeeet il dalaaa3 anaaaa
( Ooo madreee ma7ib lama kuwaitttii iygool fdaiit a7isaa hailigee ya3nii emaraty I would love to hear it cuz its there word bas kuwaiti madree ma7ibha!)

'3alia: :$

3azeez: abaaiih '3aloooy wallaa 9ootich 5ayal

'3alia: min 9ijiik waii3 ay 5ayal

3azeez: o rab il ka3ba 5ayaal

'3alia: mashkor I guess :$

This was the first time he has ever heard my voice o I never listened to his

'3alia: yallaa doorik dizle a voicce

3azeez: shagool feha

'3alia: ay shaay bas asma3 9owtik

Soo he did!

And guess what did he say in his voice clip!!!!!

Just guess!

Voice clip 3azeez: Ay shay!

Waiii3 ya3nii jad that's all he could've said ayshay

'3alia: maaaaleeeee888888

3azeez: looooooool wallaa madreee shagool bas hata ilee gidart agoola

7arneee 7arakta kanat malee8a ya3nii bas 6awaft,haa

Tadroon ina kan min the shy type! He told me oncee ina moo min il noww3 ileee wayed jaree2 sa3aaat yst7eeee iyshawiiig!!!! Ya3nii madree its cute ina a guy gets shy sometimes.

His birthday was coming up and I was thinking of doing him something I thought of sending him a gift with the driver to his house but that was tooo risky 5ift he asks the driver about me o he finds out that I was lying to him about many things!

O offcoarse I couldn't meet up with him or call him makan biydee asawee shay

Bas gilt I sing to him! I don't sing jidam many people so that would be special

I was having some feelings towards him I have started to likee him very much VERY much o I was falling fast for him! I think I'm in love I'm not sure but all the things that people say you feel when your in love I'm actually feeling them ya3nii whenever my phone vibrates indicating an msn message I jump from my seat excited to see what he's sent me o whenever he doesn't talk to me I miss him soo bad that my hear aches fearing that he's found someone else! Or whenever he tell's me I love you I scream through my pillow and my smile is so wide that my cheeks hurt! And I can't sleep at night unless I've talked to him and made sure that he's slept before me!

All the feeling that I've mentioned are the symptoms of love isn't it?

A Mistake (13 b)

'3alia: ee?

3azeez: hal bint ihya intay...

I was shocked I was seriously shocked I blushed I felt goose bumps all over my body madree yimkin la2naa its the first time any guy has ever said that to me wila la2na the fact that he really liked me or even loved me I'm not sure what it was but I swear it was one hell of a feeling.

But he knows ana moo chthee o ana I know ina I can't take any futher steps all I kan do is talk to him on msn my morals don't allow me I wasn't raised in a community that allowed boys in my life, I know that even talking to him on msn was a mistake a big one bas ileee 9ar 9ar

Ya3nii bil bidaya kint a7asb ina il salfaa '6i7ik o wanasaa bas I think glibat jad il7eeen let's just wait and see I hope he's not serious..

'3alia: 3azeez bas i7na itifa8na ina we just stay friends!

3azeez: adree walla adree bas shasawee ya3nee I can't control my feelings

'3alia: bas ana magdar a36eek ilee tabee

3azeez: I know I'm not expecting anything '3alia

I felt so bad ya3niii 9ij how can he control his feelings bas waiit waiit he's a guy o most guys li3eeba fa la9adgaa a7sanleee for now la9adig alla yaster inshallaa it all turns out well


( Adreee my posts wayed g9aar bas ba7awil gad ma agdar I post now I posted gabil class o inshallaa I post il3a9er or bilayl :D)

A Mistake (13a)

A month has passed and we were inseparable we talked all day and night he would sleep while talking to me I would get upset but he has his way into making up for what he did

Every night! Literally every night he sleeps while I'm talking to him I got thr hang of it so I stopped getting upset.

When he's at work he couldn't use his phone all the time I would be at school fa 3adii he would leave work at 1:30 I talk to him from then

3azeez: ilyowm guess minoo biyeeey iyzoorna???

'3alia: mino?

3azeez: intaay guess!

'3alia: dandoon!!!!

3azeez: EEEEEEE
( Dunaa is the cutest thing ever mashallaaa she's chubby o itshawiiig she's only 3 o walla a7la yahiiil shift,ha I'm so inlove with her!!)

'3alia: may9eeeeer :'( abeeee ayeeey azooorkoom

3azeez: ta3alaaay wallaaa 3adii agool 7ag omee inich rifeejat saroon
( Sara is his nephew he's very close wiyaha she's like his best friend cuz the age difference is only a year china )

'3alia: hehehehehe laaaa fashlaaa shakooo

3azeez: wallaaa 3adii

'3aliaa: laa 3azeezaan 7adaa fashlaa

3azeez: hehehehe madree kayfich

'3alia: anaa a9laan 3ala yowm ib tilga dunaa mabyooga min baitkom moo ilaa tdig 3al shr6aa tilgahaa 3indee

3azeez: laaaaa i5thaaay ay a7ad min il yahaaal ileee dandoon hathee il '3alyaa walla msawyaa jaww 3indinaa

'3alia: maleee shi'3iil wallaaa abeeeha :(


In the evening he talked to me

3azeez: '3alooya

'3alia: hallaaa

3azeez: '3alia tathkireen mara giltlich 3an bint wayed ib 5a6ree o a7ibha o widee agoolaha bas madree shlown agolaha?

'3alia: ee?

3azeez: '3alooya hal bint ........