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Ok so listen up tawnee ray7a fat7a il laptop basha'3il il internet wilaa moo ra'6eee it connects so I find out ina il wirless im5arif o lazim inyeeb il dude 3ashan iyshoof what the hell is wrong with it :s o unforunateley I hate writing a post min my phone fa awal ma il internet yitsana3 I'm gonna write one I'm sorry o love u guys:**

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It was a 7 hour flight so half way through we slept
I woke up by the feeling of someone tapping on my shoulders

flight intendent: chicken or lamb?

Noor: no thank you I'm good

Flight intendent: Sir, SIIR

Noor: cant you see he's sleeping

Flight intendent: well I have to see if he'll like to eat something

Noor: no he's good thank you

Flight intendent: well fine

it was cold and the blanket that Ali had has slipped to the floor, so I bent down and got it I covered him up and laid down once again.

I looked at the watch and hmmm I've got 3 hours to spend, the head phones were packaged in a plastic bas I ripped it up and started changing through the channels waiiii3 makoo shay iywanis I unbuckeled my seat belt and got up timashayt shwaya everyone was doing there own thing some were eating and some were feeding their children's others were hushing their crying babies I smiled and kept on walking and this old lady smiled back at me

old lady: intee 3arabiya?

Noor: ee 5altee ana kuwaitiya

old lady: wil ni3im walla

Noor: yin3am ib 7alich

old lady: shismich?

Noor: noor

old lady: 3ashat lasameee ya Noor mashalla isim 3ala mosama

Noor: ma 8a9artay 5altee hatha min 6eebich walla

old lady: walla la3at chabdeee min hal 6ayara 9arleee arba3 sa3at ga3da 3ala hal kirsee il '6ayij walla tikasirat irwaylateee kila 3ashaaan ashooof iwlaydeeee walaht 3alayh 5anat 7ayleee yadris ihnaak ibroo7a

Noor: mashallla alla iywafga shino yadris

old lady: iyafig il jimee3 inshalla walla yadris dictora madree shiysamoona hatheee

Noor: hehehehhee 3adil kalamich dictora

old lady: walla madree ishyabee ib hal shiga wil '3orba shahada o 3indaa bas 5ala9 i6laba

Noor: walla hathee il dinya inzain 5alteee wain a'3ra'6ich?

old lady: kahom youma laysh?

Noor: 5altee ta3alay ma3ay

old lady: haw wain aroo7

I carried her stuff and helped her out of her seat she was sitting at the economy and I know how awful the chairs are and specially for an old women ra7 tit3ab I took her to where I was sitting in first class I sat her down buckled up her seat and layed the chair down

Noor: 5altee ileee yamich isma Ali itha gam sowlfay ma3ah tara wayed i7layw o 7aboob o itha ba'3aytay ay shay goolee 7ag il mo'6eefa itnadeenee ana bakoon ga3da wara

old lady: walla may9eer ilee ga3da itsaweena agawmich min mokanich 3ashan itroo7eeen titkasirayn wara o tit3ibeen

Noor: la walla ta3abich ra7aa o ana mirta7a wara intay 7isbat omeee o hatha 7ag il bint 3ala omha

old lady: 3asa alla iy7af'6ich wiy5aleelich omaymtich wala ya7rimich minha wiy5aleech laha yarabeeee o walla ya ba5at.ha feech itha hathee 3amaylich

Noor: ameeen walla da3witich hathee tiswa il dinya o mafeeha, ana a5aleech il7een irta7ay shway

I put the pillow behind her head and covered her well and went back to sit in her seat silent tears were rolling down my cheeks as I remembered my mom I missed her so bad

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This is dedicated to all the commenters ilee galaw yaboon a posst it's a long one i think ;*

Bacher I have a project due o ana ma bidayt feeee hmmmmm o I guess mara7 asawee seriously madree shino baragi3 7ag il teacher cuz we asked her a million times to postpone it o moo ra'6yaaa :'(

o yeah enjoooooy ;***

Noor's Point Of View :

I'm laying down on my bed trying to remember if I've forgot to pack anything oooooh aham shay nisayt la a7i6 my make up bag I double checked my bag everything was there fa I zipped it up o 7a6ayt,ha 3ind il door hmmm bagee 2 hours 3ala ma iymirnee Ali 5anag3ad ma3a il banat shway

Noor: ha banat shitsawooon

Fajer: walla ana o dalool ga3deen insaweee our assignment

Dalal: 8a9dich ur assignment

Fajer: ileee ohoo bas 5an5ali9 tikfaiiin la3at chabdeee min il tafkeer

Dalal; intay law ithideen ur phone shway chan i7na min ziman 5al9eeen

Fajer: ka 5ala9 bahida bas il mohim a5ali9

Noor: alla iy3eenkom, eee ta3alaw wain sandoo?

Reema: kahee bil 6ireeeej, zahabtay kil shi'3lich?

Noor: ee 5ala9t 9akayt jan6itee

lulu: ib nafgidich walla

Noor: walla haman ana bas inshala adig 3alaykom kil yowm wa6aminkom

Fajer: o you'll update us with kilshay iy9eer ma3a Ali

Noor: hehehehe wallaaa manee im9adga shlown bag3ad ma3a kil hal moda

Fajer: ma wa9eeech 9eeray thigeeeela haaa lat6ee7een min 3aiiina

Noor: hahahahhahaha wishchayfatneee fajer jidamich ;p

Fajer: heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey ana awareeech

Sindis: HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Reema: intay wa5ray wa5ray i7na 5ala9 7arabnach

Sindis: afaaa ana shthambeee

Dalal: laa witgool ba3ad shthambeee lahya wiya badooor o nasyatna

Sindis: la 7aram 3alaykom walla 3indee malyown shay asawee o ana adree itha ga3adt wiyakom mara7 a5ali9 ni9 shi'3lee min liz3aaaaaj

Lulu: inzain o inshalla mita hal shi'3il iy5ali9

Sindis: gireeb inshalla... haa nooroooo bitroo7een wiya 7abeeb il 2alb wit5aleena

Noor: abaiih alla yaster madree ishbasaweee

kil min laha wiya shi'3la fa I sat on the couch o I started wandering about Yousif shlown ya3nee faj2a safar? o laysh ma galeee? hmmmmmmm walla madree ishfee hal cham yowm bas maskeen yimkin 9ij 6ala3la shi'3il faj2a 3ad yadeee maskeen may5alee yirta7 shway kil il shi'3il 3ala Yousif

Dalal: i7na binwadeech il ma6ar?

Noor: la tikfowwn mabee itsawoonlee mana7a bil ma6aar

Reema: hahahahahaha 3adii ta3awiday

Noor: la a9lan Ali biyey iymirnee

Lulu: ee yalla zain ashwa

half an hour later the bell rang "DING DONG"

Sindis: ana baftaaaaaa7... oh hiii Aliiii 7ayak tifa'6al

Ali: dam fa'6lich... shlownich sindis sha5barich?

Sindis: walla ib 5air alla iysalmik inta shlownik?

Ali: tamam il7imdilla

Sindis: tfa'a6al ig3ad 5al anadeee il banat min il 9ala il thanya

sindis went to the other living room to call the girls

Sindis: NOOOROOOO yallaaaaaaa aliiii na6er bil 9allaaaa

Noor: SHIT shakleee zain!!!

Reem: shaklich iyanin bas yalla roo7ay fashla

the girls came to hug me 6ab3an all of us were in tears I know inee I'm going to miss them 7atan law it was for a couple of weeks

Lulu: deeree balich 3ala 3omrich o alla wiyach

Reema: take care 7abeebtee o 6amneena 3alaych awal ma tow9leen

Sindis: ee please 6amneena o have fun dont worry about anything

Fajer: bowlah 3alaych yal maleee8a

Dalal: I love you o istansay haaa!!!


Ali was waiting for me bil living room kil il banat ra7aw iysalmoon 3alayh 6ab3an ma 5alanee asheel my bag he carried it for me o maskeeen Lulu 3a6ita mo7a'6ara ina lazim iydeer bala 3alay o ina il deera it5ari3 walla I love her chinha omeee bas 3ala 9'3eera.

We arrived at the airport, checked in, then we shopped shwaya bil duty free sharayna 5arabee6 7ag il 6ayara china yahal, ashwa our seats were next to each other makint abee anga6 ib mokan broo7ee, it didn't feel quite weird sitting next to him it was actually comfortable being there with him and talking to him oh yeah and he's a good listener by the way o he actually listens to what I say surprising isnt it!

post or no post?

tabooon a post soon wila la2? 3ashan itha taboon i'll post ya ilyowm ya bacher ;D

Darliaaaaaam ;*****

Im fine il7imdillaa mafeeneee shay adreeee 7adeeee malee8a min zimaan moo katbaaa baas lahayt shwaya ma3a il senior trip o ba3dayn 9ar 7owsa ma3a school o il7eeeen inshalla im back thank u for asking walla ma ga9artaay o ana i missss u akthaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar o akthaaaaaaaaaaaaaar o I LOVE UUUU :*********

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Im trying my best to write more frequently ;D

O this post is dedicated toN thank u for all ur support o intay ilee shaja3teenee 3ala inee akamil ;***** o Nawarii o Darliam thank u 3ala ur comments love u ;*****

I stayed there just reading for hours the doctor came out his face wasn't reassuring

Sindis: what's wrong?


Doc: well he's in a comma right now but he might get up in a couple of days


Sindis: ok thank u


that's it that's all I said "thank u" I went back to my seat fita7t il Quran o kamalt giraytee . Now what do I tell Noor? she's gonna leave to the states in a few days and her uncle is in a comma! I kept getting calls from the girls and all I said to them was that I'm busy wila 3indee homework wila I have something to do with Bader and each time bader calls I tell him that I'm busy with the girls ma kint abee agoola 3an Yousif la2na mabee yit3aab ma3ay.


I called Noor

Noor: hala sindis


Sindis: ahlain Noor kint bagoolich tara 5alich safar o galleee agoolich itroo7een wiya Ali 7ag listates 3ashan ohwa he can't come

Noor: o laish ohwa ma galee?


Sindis: madree 6ala3 3inda shi'3il '6arooree lazim iysawee o once he's back ra7 iykalmich

Noor: '3areeba Yousif mo 3adta iysawee chithee

Sindis: ee madree bas ohwa galee awa9ilich hal shay 3ashan ma tan6ireena

Noor: ee ok inzain sandoo?

Sindis: hala?

Noor: tara walhaneen 3alaych o fagdeenich

Sindis: wallah haman ana bas 5aloonee a5ali9 shi'3leee o inshallah bajabilkom kil yowm 9ib7 o layl

Noor: hahahhaha ok yalla take care 7abeebtee

Sindis: you too


ok hathee 3adat 3ala 5air allah yaster bas.


After a few days Noor left with Ali to Florida o I was back to my daily routine staying with Yousif. there are no improvement no nothing he's just in this stable position ilee wala shay yit'3ayar, the Doctors mayadroon shino fee exactly o that's what's killing me.

I've been told that a person in a comma could hear whatever you say, so I stay in Yousif's room o I talk to him about everything and anything even about my feelings I don't want him to feel lonely in the world that he's at. Each day at night I read him a part of the quran out loud so that he would enjoy god's wise words.


everyday I change the flower's that are beside his bed, and whenever the nurses get done with washing Yousif I spray him some perfume and comb his hair even though his hair is not that much but I want him to look good even when he's sick.

At night when its time me for to go home I cover him well, close the lights and leave. And when the morning comes I go to the Uni get everything I need to do from the professors and on my way to the hospital I get some fresh bouquet of flowers and head straight to Yousif's room.

Even though he doesn't speak to me I feel comfortable around him and it's just safe staying with him in the same room there's like a bond that's between us that if something happens to him I know I will get hurt and I wont handle all the pain alone.

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Days have passed and It was time for Yousif's chemo session I went with him and stayed with him the whole time. Kilyowm 3an yowm yafrig 3alay tabdee ti6la3 il symptoms malowt il chemo he started to lose balance his skin turned dry, he started to lose some hair he was in a mess.

I isolated myself from everyone even Bader I didn't realize that, but I was too involved with Yousif. I stayed with him the whole time just taking care of him seeing if he needs anything. He has no one but me to stand by him through all of this. everyday i apply some lotion onto his skin 3ashan maytigashar o iy3awra kil yowm aga9ba yishrab wayed may 3ashan his body doesn't get dehidrated.

One morning ana wiya ga3deen nitmasha around the hospital he had his arms around my shoulder in order to balance himself o I had one hand around his waste wila faj2a he collapsed on the ground I couldn't handle his weight

Sindis: PLLEEAASSEEE HEELLPPP ANYONEEE

Nurse: Jennifer go call the doctor Eric come help me lift him up

I was sitting on the ground not knowing what to do adrenalin has made me stay still I didn't cry I didn't freak out I was like a statue everything was balnk. The nurses rushed across the hallway the doctor came running they took him to a room and closed the door behind them. I stayed there on the ground for about 15 minutes and then everything sank in the way he collapsed and everything that's when I got up and ran to the room that they took him in I stood outside the door looking through the circular glass window all I could see was Yousif laying on white bed helpless and a bunch of doctors with white coats surrouning him and each doing their jobs.

Seeing him in that way broke my heart I turned around walked silently to his usual room tiyadadt o firasht il siyada o libast thowb il 9alat o 9alayt rak3itayn 9alat shoker ashkir rabeee 3ala kil shay 3a6anee iya o 3ala 9i7itee o 3afiyteee shikart rabee 3ala hal 3eesha ilee ana 3ayshat.ha 5ala9t min il 9alat o 5athayt il quraan o ri7t 3ind il '3orfa ilee Yousif feeha il7een i sat outside on the chairs facing the door o fita7t awal page min il mo97af o awal shay kanat 9oorat ilfat7a samayt bil ra7man o off I went with my reading there was no one in the hospital just me and god. In that moment he's the only one I need right now he's the one that could help me.

" هو على كل شيء قدير"