the end of the road

NO post today :(

2012-01-07T12:42:00.000-08:00

Unfortunately I cant post today because I have an exam tommorow o I'm not done studying.... inshalla I'll be posting a long one tommorow or the day after!
;*

A Mistake (20)

2012-01-06T09:45:00.000-08:00

This one's dedicated to RR ;*

ادري انــــــــــك مـــــن نــصـــــيــــبــي بـل أحــلام وادري انــــــك لــغــيــري لا بــــغـــيت الـــحــقـــيــــــــــــــقه

Deep down I always knew that I would never belong to him but I kept convincing myself that there might be a chance a simple one or there even might be some hope....

3azeez never asked to talk to me on the phone gabil hal mara I think he was being considerate or is it because he knew that I would'nt approve of it well Im not really sure

3azeez: '3alooya

'3alya: 3yoonhaa

3azeez: tslamleee hal 3yoon

'3alya: :$

3azeez: abee as2lich

'3alya: is2al?

3azeez: lay mita bintim chthee?

That's the question that I've been avoiding all the time

'3alya: 3ala shno mafahamt?

3azeez: ya3nii lay mita bintim nitkalam 3al msn

'3alya: madree 3azeez ya3ni inta tadre ina min ilbidaya ana giltlik ina magdar akthar min chthee hatha 7adii mara7 afeeedik ib shay
- o anaa adree ina inta malayt witha matabee tkalmnee anymore ana ra7 atfaham ilmaw'6oo3

I know that what I said hurts but I cant give him more mabee yit2amal o bil nihaya adgira

3azeez: hah '3alooy sh.hal kalam bas la2na mino il7een yd5al msn! tara walla aana mad5al ilaa 3ashanich wila hal sowalif moo malat nas ib 3omerna wallaa tara i7na mo yahal

'3alya: adree ina i7na moo yahal o 3az alla shanik bas wallaa magdar wallaaaa

3azeez: 5ala9 3ala ra7tich ana bas kint bashoof yimkin t'3ayren rayich lana wala this is not fair Im doing all this for you wintay moo ga3da ta36eene wala shay bil mogabil

'3alya: 7aram 3alayk Im sacrificing everything just to talk to you winta tgol inee moo ga3da a36eek shay bil mo8abil!

3azeez: inzain 3ayal warene shaklich!

'3alya: 3azeez shfeek???

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HIM! kilmaraaa iysawee chtheee lama i give up o eventually do

3azeez: matgdreen tkalmeene bil phone o matabeenee ashofich bil9ij dzeelee 9ortich

'3alya: im sorry bas no

3azeez: shftay agoolich maga3da ta36ene shay bil mo8abil

When he does this he makes me feel bad about myself and he makes me seem unfair.... ilmoshkila inee ga3da a36ee akther minilazimm bas I always fall for what he's saying o I bil nihaya asawee ileee ohwa yabee

'3alya: 5ala9 okay bas 1 pic

3azeez: okkkkk :D basss abeeha wa'67a

'3alya: ok!

I picked one of the blurry pictures so that he wont really recognize my face
بسم الله الذي لا يضر مع اسمه شيء في الأرض ولا في السماء وهو السميع العليم

I kept repeating that in my head and pressed on the send button

A Mistake (19)

2011-12-20T12:06:00.000-08:00

يا حظ قلبي يوم يلقاك ادعي الهي لي يخليك

All I could think of is SHIT he found out he found out he found

I went running to my brother ashwana ohwa ilee a9'3ar minee fa he doesn't mind if I took his phone

"Saloom pleaaaseee give me your phone digeega" I was pleeding

"ni6raay 5alashoof wa7id msaweelee add o ga3d iysolif ma3inee ma3arfa" he replyed confused

I freaked out "MINO SHNOO SHGAAL WINTA SHGILT???"

"hah shfeech yanaytay"

'eeeee yalla gooolleeeee'

' sa2alnee hatha mino mobila o giltla ina malee o galee inzain o kan mala chan agola ina mal 7maid o5ooy.... 7ataa galeee oh a3arfaaa hathaa iy9eer rfeeej o5ooy'

I'm busted o ba3ad iy3arif o5oooy ri77tt feeeehhaaaaaa

" delete him"

"lesh masken masawale shay!"

" delete ishlik brabi3 7amood yalla delete"

" mara7 asaweela delete ilwalad ma'6arneee"

I grabbed the phone from his hand and deleted 3azeez quickly

" Shfeech intaaay mooo 9a7yaaa"

"shtabeee feeee waiii3 kilman hab o dab tsaweela add mooo 7ilwaa saloom"

I couldn't think of anything better to tell him

" hmmm 3adil kalamich"

I left sulaimans room and went back to mine.. tithakart inaaa layl7eeen maradayt 3ala 3azeez I kept thinking of a reply and the only thing that I came up with is that I should deny and act normal

ابيك وما ابيهم: hallaa 3azeez laaa a3tigid iniiik '3al6an la2na my phone is still with me o no one is using it yimkin you got mixed up with someone else

Abdulaziz Al x: wallaa bay3ita intay?

ابيك وما ابيهم: laa 3omree mabi3t telephone :p

Abudaziz Al x: '3areeba wallaa

ابيك وما ابيهم : eee 7adaa 7ataa anaa sta'3rabt :s

I think he bought it il7imdilla alla sitar 3alaaay

But the worse is yet to come

A Mistake (18)

2011-12-18T09:50:00.000-08:00

I know it has been forever since I last posted I wanted to continue the story but I had alot of things going on

I hope that by the end of this month I can end it and then go back to finishing the end of the road I hope that you're still interested

Im sorry again and here goes a long post

أصبر ياقلبي وانتظر خل الحزن مكتوم
كل المعاني تغيرت واتضحت الصوره
صار الصدق في هالزمن مثل الوفا معدوم
ونفوسنا تجرحت والفرحه مكسوره
كل المبدىء تنشرى واللي معاه يسوم
حتى المشاعر ارخصت والكلمه مهدوره

3azeez and I have never been this close it's insane talking to him was a must!!! If I don't then he knows that something must be wrong.

I've never been this happy my whole life even though it was just msn I knew that he cared about me!

Every time he talks to me I have this wide goofy smile on my face and my knees get numb that I cant stand up for a long time and I get this weird feeling in my stomache you know the feeling that ur deeply and madly in love?

I've abandoned everyone... everytime I go to our usual thursday gathering my focus is only on the phone and nothing but the phone my aunts and grandmother iyg6oon na'3zat bas wain ilee ysma3....

Whenever I'm out with my friends they keep on complaining because I dont pay them any attention
The problem is that its not just me 7ata 3azeez! ohwa magam iy7ib y6la3 o kilaa mjablnee wiysowlif ma3ay I cant help it

I know what I'm saying is nonsense because ana bas ga3da akalma 3al msn and to many people msn relationships don't count because its just a fling but to us it wasn't anything like that we were dead serious

I fell for this guy even though I regret it sometimes because I know that I'll end up hurting him and hurting myself but I just cant get enough of him

kil yom ykbar ib 3aini akthat min ilee gabla
He got to know me even more lately the only thing that I cant tell him is my name! I don't know why bas manee gadra agoola isme...

shay ib 3agle ga3d iygole latgolenla ya 3thob tara bt7asifayn o shay ib galbe iygole goolela tara mayistahil inich itchathbeen 3alayh

This time I followed my mind and not my heart lets see where would it lead me

I was up at night talking to zeez and lets see what happened

'3alia: laa yal na7eeees wallaa inta tadree inee magdar ashoofik

3azeez: eee lesh ana abeech ti8ni3eenee

'3alia: la2na anaa kila a6la3 wiya omee o shlown ashofik itha ana ma3aha

3azeez: shda3wa '3alooy ana shbasawee bas bashofich o bamshee manee maklich

'3alia: inshalla babe ashoof itha gdart wagoolik :*

3azeez: 7ayaty intaay inzain add me on bbm

shfeeeh ilyoom madreee laysh m3alig ilaaa yabeee asawee shay that he knows I cant do

'3alia: 3azzeeezaan ana shnoo gilt gabil magdar

3azeez: shnoo intay kil magiltlich shay tgolenle magdar yala add mee
-pin:*******

'3alia: 3azeez please walla magar law 5wanee wila omee iyshofonk tadre shiy9eer feenee

3azeez: lock your phone o change my name save me as nora 3aysha ay shay bas akoon 3indich o ana mara7 a7i6 9waree tara walla ma9a5naha o gazarnaha 3ala hal msn ma9arraat '3alooy

'3alia: inzain shlfarg bain msn o bbm mala da333ee ya3nii thnaynhom nafs ilshay

3azeez: laa '3aiir bbm agdar a7a9lich 6ol ilwagt moo nafs msn wayed t9eren offline yalla 3ad latrideenee

Madre laysh bas I was hesitant I had a very bad feeling about this bas I decided to not let him down once again

'3alia: okk 3ashanik bas

3azeez: 7aaaaaaaaaaayyyyaaaattyyyy intaaay yallaa na6er

'3alia: hehehehe okkk waiit

I had to change my bbm name 3ashan maystaw3ib...I changed it into a song adree halaga bas shasawee '3aliaa o 3ithoob were very different 7ata law ba7i6 nickname my friends and family byshikoon bilwa'63
I even removed my dp so that he couldnt get any idea about who I really am
My hands were shaking the whole time that I was typing his name chna eedee ga3da tgoolee latsaweenla add ya 3thoob taraa bt7asifayn bas samayt bilra7man o ta3awtht min iblees o I added him
He was the firt guy that I have added to bbm '3air 5wane o my cousins 6ab3an I always had this rule ina bbm was to be private and to the people that are really close and for now 3azeez is like the closest person to me fa ohwa kisar 8a3idat ina makoo shabab ib bbm

invite contact
invite by sending a PIN or email messages
to: *******
request sent

I checked my recent updates and
Abulaziz Al x is a new contact has appeared

Abdulaziz Al x: hallaaa o '3allaaa taww manawarr ba7laaa o a'3laaa '3alooyaa

ابيك وما ابيهم: mnaaweer feeek yal '3alyy

Abdulaziz Al x: ya3niii ana '3alyy?

ابيك وما ابيهم: o min '3airiik '3alyy

Abdulaziz Al x: laaa intaaay chthee btithbi7eenee

ابيك وما ابيهم: smilaa 3alaykkk 5alaa9 magoolik chthee 3ayal

Abdulaziz Al x: laaa goolaaay gooolaaay a7laaa thab7aa hatheee

ابيك وما ابيهم: hehehehehe :$

We forgot about msn and we turned to bbm,
but the only problem was that bbm was even more distracting than msn

a month has passed and I talked to 3azeez on bbm bas faj2a my blackberry 5tarab o i decided to move to an iphone magdart amsa7 3azeez cuz kan lazim asawee format 7ag il blackberry bas radayt 3ala msn o ohwa tifaham ilmaw'6oo3

madree sh6aree 3layh bas o5ooy sa2lnee itha my BB works o giltla ina faj2a 5tarab 3alay o gal ohwa biysaweela format o ya5tha 7aga
I didnt mind because he had to format it so all the contacts will get deleted o ana mt2akda ina mara7 y6la3la 3azeez again because ana gayla 7ag 3azeez ina mobili 5tarab o chthee

after a few weeks

3azeez: '3alooooooyyy

'3alya: halaa 3azeezan

3azeez: ana bas2lich your blackberry intay m'3ayrta?

'3alya: la mast5dma ana m7awla iphone laysh?

3azeez: la2na tawnee kint da bc o 6ala3lee ur name o itha you want to re-invite so I did o 6ala3lee wa7id ga3d iykalmneee isma Sulaiman Alx t3arfeeenaa

SHHHIITTTTT!!!!!!!!!!

A Mistake (17)

2011-06-21T11:58:00.000-07:00

3azeez: titzawijaynee?

my stomache started to ache I felt nautious my hands were shaking I was shocked! I never expected him to even bring up this topic ya3nii what would I tell him I've been lying to him the whole time!!!

'3alia: 3azeeez it's too soon mosta7eel my parents would let me get married at this age bas inshalla in the future laysh la2

3azeez: inshallaaa I cant waiiiit

3azeez came from a very different background than I did, He was from an average family while I was froom a good well known wealthy family, In my families point of view there is no way that I would marry him from the difference of the family names. ana moo ga3da agool ina fee farg o i hope ina matwa5thoonee bas feee farg bil 3awayil o hal ashya2 ma3ina ana mashoof lah da3ee cuz we're all humans o mafee farg bain ilnas bas ana mit2akda malyown bil imya ina ahaleee would not approve of him.

'3alia: :$

3azeez: o inyeeeeb yahaal yishbihooonich chthee 7ilweeen

'3alia: wishdaraaak ineee 7ilwaa yimkin akoon jaikaraaa!

3azeez: laaa laa ana mit2akid inich 7ilwaaaa

'3alia: baaas taraaa ga3daa asti7eeeee :$:$:$

3azeez: ya7ilooo ileee ysti7oon wallaaaa

'3alia: 3azeeezaan abeeeee bint o5ook yeebleeee iyahaaa

3azeez: ana wiyach nyeeb nafs,ha o a7laa minhaa

'3alia: laaa aanaa abee il7een a5th.haa dig 3ala o5oook o gooola ineee abeeha

3azeez: laaa adig hal 7aza may9eer!

'3alia: haw laysh may9eer 3adii o5ook

3azeez: laa ohwaaa mitzawij o matadreen hal 7aza my9eer adig

'3alia: :s madree shno ya3nii 3adii

3azeez: ya3nii hal 7azaa ohwa o mortaa iysawoon ashya2 t3arfeen what married couples doo!

I felt sooo stupid makinttt fahmaa o lamaa galeee 7asayt naffsee '3abiyaaa!

'3alia: bas now ilfayer!

3azeez: eeee 3adii kayfhom ay wagt 7ata il9ib7 itha yaboon kayfhom!

'3alia: olaa shnoo il9b777

3azeez: eee ya3nii ana wiyaach when we get married il9ib7 il'6her il3a9er bilayl 6oool ilwagttt

That was unexpected 7adiii ista7aytttt ya3nii matwa8a3t ina we'd be discussing this subject

'3alia: olaaaa olaaaaa olaaaa laaa:$

3azeez: imbalaa mortee o kayfeeeeeee

'3aliaa: o ham anaaa kayfeeee

3azeez: laaa moo kayfiichhh mitaa ma abee we'll doo itt

'3alia: okkk okkk kayffik bas plzz let's colseee the subject tara ast7ee atkalam 3an hal ashya2!

3azeez: walla I love how inoccent you are :*

'3alia: :$

3azeez: yallaa bass namaay 7abeebti bacher ra7 tit3ibeen

'3alia: 5ala9 inshalla t9ba7 3ala 5air :*

3azeez: wintay min ahlaaa :*

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a random convo I have with 3azeez saved on my phonee that I really love

I love calling him 3abdil3azeez bas ohwa may7ib iy7is inaaa lazim akoon serious wila m3a9ba 3ashan I call him that name walla iy'6a7ik

'3alia: yalla annaa laziiim anaaaam il7een cuzz wayyyeed t2a5ar ilwagt ooo adree mat7ib I call you 3abdil3azeez bas 7iloo walla a7laa min 3azeez fa think about it :p

3azeez: LOOOOOOOOL okk 7abeebtii ;**

'3alia: tadre ina awal mara tgole 7abeebti :$

3azeez: 9ijjjj?

'3alia: ee :$

3azeez: you like it?

'3alia: yup :$

3azeez: ok 7abebti

'3alia; hehehehe yalla ti9ba7 3ala 5air

3azeez: wenty min ahla 7bibti ;*******
-ba5aleech tizhigeen minha ;p

'3alia: looooooool matwa8a3 azhaag :$

3azeez: LOOOOOOOL
-yalla 7bibti namay warach ga3da ;*

'3alia: yalla bas ush 5alnee anaaam

3azeez: ok 7bibti ;****************

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A Mistake (16)

2011-06-12T10:02:00.000-07:00

I was pissed with him, He should'nt do this to me ya3nii ana I don't deserve to be treated this way.

One day 8arar iykalmneee 3ogob maybe 1 month or yimkin akthar he decided ina iykalmnee ib kayfa chthee 8arar

3azeez: hii

I ignored ga3da 3ala a39abee abbee I reply 3alayh bas mabee abee iy7is how it feels to be waiting for someone forever after 2 hours I replied

'3alia: hi

3azeez: ola tawich trideen

'3alia: e mobili makan yamii

3azeez: oh ok shlownich babe?

bas 5ala9 ana hneee wi9alt 7adiii iysawee nafsaa china wala shay 9ayeer as if everything's fine

'3alia: babe?

3azeez: ee layshh

'3alia: il7een ana 9irt your babe! wainik 3anee min sbo3 sbo3ayn wila shahar?

3azeez: omee wala 6a7at 3alayna maree'6a o mjabilha

I felt soo bad but at the same I felt that he was lying... 2 mins gabil laynam wila awal ma he wakes up wont effect him itha bas galii hi aw sa2alnee shlownich. A month is too much I was hurt and he didn't care. yabee iyeey barda imbarida chthee iykalmne china ana ma3ndee ay i7sas.

'3alia: matshoofon shar inshalla o alla iygawimha likom bil salama o wala ya7rimkm minha

abee kint a6la3 bil zaina o you guys want the truth I really missed him ya3nii galbee kan iy3awrnee min kither ma I missed him. I know you think I'm exaggerating but I cried thinking that he doesn't want me anymore that I was just like any other girl that he would talk to and throw her down the drain. I'm not that kind of girl and I will never be.

3azeezan: il shar mayech o ameen maga9rtay o walla I'm sorry it's all my fault inee masa2alt 3anich sam7eenee

'3alia: 3azeez digeegtayn mara7 iy2athroon 3alayk law bas tgoolee hi mo ila tsowlif ma3ay bas mat3alignee chthee madree shilsafa wala adree wainik wila shfeek

3azeez: I know Im sorry walla I am

I let it pass I was just tired and I wasn't in the mood for arguening anymore.

'3alia: lat3eedha plzz

3azeez: inshalla ma3eedha

We went back to normal after that conversation that we had.

Everyday he would make me send him a voice note singing to him I didn't like it but it made him happy and I wanted him to be happy.

One night we were chatting and I don't know what made brought up the conversation but he asked me this

3azeez: '3alooya

'3alia: halaa

3azeez: t7ibeenee?

'3alia: you know I do

3azeez: gooleeha leee

'3alia: laaa mabee :$

3azeez: alla iy5aleech 3ashanee goleelee bas hal mara

My face was turning to the darkest shade of red and my palms were sweating even though it was a simple question and I was all alone in my room I was too shy to tell him that I loved him ma3ina it was simple the first time...

'3alia: :$

3azeez: yallaa 7ayatyyy

'3alia: ee

3azeez: ee shnoo? gooleeha yalla

'3alia: eee a7ibik :$

3azeez: a55555aaiiiiiihhhhh 3aalaychh wana amoot feech

hearing that from his was the best thing everrr

3azeez: inzaiin '3alooya

'3alia: ameerneee

3azzeez: titzawijaynee?

A Mistake (15)

2011-04-23T05:40:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to each and every person that commented thank u ;**

I sang to him the whole birthday song
'3alia: "happy birthday too youuu happy birthdaaay too youuu happyy birthdaaay tooo 3azeezaaan happy biirtthdaaaay tooo youuuu kil 3am winta ib alf 5aiir o 3ogbal il 1000000 sina ya rab o enjooy itt lovee youu "

Yes! I told him that I've loved him for the first time since I knew him I told him that I loved him I guess its the perfect timing to do so since I have felt this way towards him

Yalla its 12 I should send it

Ok sent :D

Once he heard it he replyed

3azeez: thankkk youu zayoonaaa 7ayatyy wallaa maga9artaay o mashallaaa 9owtichh iyaniiin

'3alia: hehehe i3jibak il voice note?

3azeez: 7adaa walla that made my dayy

'3alia: hehehehe zaiin ashwaa :**

3azeez: eee o ta3alaaay hathee awal mara tgooleelee I love u :$

'3alia: eee adree :$

3azeez: ya3nii you do?

'3alia: eee akeed I do

3azeez: waaaaaaaay '3alooooyyyyyyyy matadreeeeee shkitheer anaaa mistaniiissss il7eeeeeeen

'3alia: hehehehehe inshallaaa dooooom

3azeez: gooleelee a7ibik

'3alia: laaa maneee gaylaa :$

3azeez: yallaaa 3ad goolaaay

'3alia: laaaa a9laan hal kilma mara7 tsma3haa ilaaa min fatra lay fatraa

3azeez: shda3wwaaaa

'3alia: wallaa ana moo mt3awda inee agolha fa asti7ee wayed o ilyowm I told you la2naa its ur birthday o I wanted it to be special :$

3azeez: fedaiitich wallaaa 7aayatyy intay maga9artaay :***

'3alia: :$

Days past by o everything was going perfectly fine laman he changed again! Faj2aaa ta'3ayar magam iykalmnee o kila ya7girneee o makoo any contact wiyaa....

Makoo feedback :(

2011-04-22T12:37:00.000-07:00

Makoo feedback laysh :(
How do I knowww if people are reading 3ashan akamil wila la2..

A Mistake (14)

2011-04-21T05:32:00.000-07:00

Heeey ;** I'm sorry inee I'm not posting bas mashoof comments! The more I see them the more I inee ashta6 o I post soo please share ur thoughts o let me see what you think about what's going on soo far ;D
Ooo Enjoy ;*

I don't know if I should believe him ya3niii do I love him too? Ana 3adita as a friend nothing more nothing less! 9ij inee I got attached to him bas moo lay darajat inee I lOVE him! Madreee walla madreee this thing is confusing meee!

Onee timee kint ga3da asowlif ma3aah o ma adreee what was the convo about exactly bas inaa za3aaal! O ana ga3adt afaker ib a waaaay inee ara'6ee feeha fa fakart inee adizla a voice clip (that's like a voice not bas bil msn :p)

The voice clip said: laaa latiz3aal I didn't mean it wallaaa
( I still have it saved!)

Heeeeee weeentt craazyyyyyy!!!!!
Matwa8a3 ineee badizlaaaa my actuaaal voicee o to be honest I said it in a bit dala3 way not tthe halima boland kind of way bas madreee

3azeez: fdeeeeeeeeeeeeeet il dalaaa3 anaaaa
( Ooo madreee ma7ib lama kuwaitttii iygool fdaiit a7isaa hailigee ya3nii emaraty I would love to hear it cuz its there word bas kuwaiti madree ma7ibha!)

'3alia: :$

3azeez: abaaiih '3aloooy wallaa 9ootich 5ayal

'3alia: min 9ijiik waii3 ay 5ayal

3azeez: o rab il ka3ba 5ayaal

'3alia: mashkor I guess :$

This was the first time he has ever heard my voice o I never listened to his

'3alia: yallaa doorik dizle a voicce

3azeez: shagool feha

'3alia: ay shaay bas asma3 9owtik

Soo he did!

And guess what did he say in his voice clip!!!!!

Just guess!

Voice clip 3azeez: Ay shay!

Waiii3 ya3nii jad that's all he could've said ayshay

'3alia: maaaaleeeee888888

3azeez: looooooool wallaa madreee shagool bas hata ilee gidart agoola

7arneee 7arakta kanat malee8a ya3nii bas 6awaft,haa

Tadroon ina kan min the shy type! He told me oncee ina moo min il noww3 ileee wayed jaree2 sa3aaat yst7eeee iyshawiiig!!!! Ya3nii madree its cute ina a guy gets shy sometimes.

His birthday was coming up and I was thinking of doing him something I thought of sending him a gift with the driver to his house but that was tooo risky 5ift he asks the driver about me o he finds out that I was lying to him about many things!

O offcoarse I couldn't meet up with him or call him makan biydee asawee shay

Bas gilt I sing to him! I don't sing jidam many people so that would be special

I was having some feelings towards him I have started to likee him very much VERY much o I was falling fast for him! I think I'm in love I'm not sure but all the things that people say you feel when your in love I'm actually feeling them ya3nii whenever my phone vibrates indicating an msn message I jump from my seat excited to see what he's sent me o whenever he doesn't talk to me I miss him soo bad that my hear aches fearing that he's found someone else! Or whenever he tell's me I love you I scream through my pillow and my smile is so wide that my cheeks hurt! And I can't sleep at night unless I've talked to him and made sure that he's slept before me!

All the feeling that I've mentioned are the symptoms of love isn't it?

A Mistake (13 b)

2011-03-29T21:51:00.000-07:00

'3alia: ee?

3azeez: hal bint ihya intay...

I was shocked I was seriously shocked I blushed I felt goose bumps all over my body madree yimkin la2naa its the first time any guy has ever said that to me wila la2na the fact that he really liked me or even loved me I'm not sure what it was but I swear it was one hell of a feeling.

But he knows ana moo chthee o ana I know ina I can't take any futher steps all I kan do is talk to him on msn my morals don't allow me I wasn't raised in a community that allowed boys in my life, I know that even talking to him on msn was a mistake a big one bas ileee 9ar 9ar

Ya3nii bil bidaya kint a7asb ina il salfaa '6i7ik o wanasaa bas I think glibat jad il7eeen let's just wait and see I hope he's not serious..

'3alia: 3azeez bas i7na itifa8na ina we just stay friends!

3azeez: adree walla adree bas shasawee ya3nee I can't control my feelings

'3alia: bas ana magdar a36eek ilee tabee

3azeez: I know I'm not expecting anything '3alia

I felt so bad ya3niii 9ij how can he control his feelings bas waiit waiit he's a guy o most guys li3eeba fa la9adgaa a7sanleee for now la9adig alla yaster inshallaa it all turns out well

( Adreee my posts wayed g9aar bas ba7awil gad ma agdar I post now I posted gabil class o inshallaa I post il3a9er or bilayl :D)

A Mistake (13a)

2011-03-19T03:06:00.000-07:00

A month has passed and we were inseparable we talked all day and night he would sleep while talking to me I would get upset but he has his way into making up for what he did

Every night! Literally every night he sleeps while I'm talking to him I got thr hang of it so I stopped getting upset.

When he's at work he couldn't use his phone all the time I would be at school fa 3adii he would leave work at 1:30 I talk to him from then

3azeez: ilyowm guess minoo biyeeey iyzoorna???

'3alia: mino?

3azeez: intaay guess!

'3alia: dandoon!!!!

3azeez: EEEEEEE
( Dunaa is the cutest thing ever mashallaaa she's chubby o itshawiiig she's only 3 o walla a7la yahiiil shift,ha I'm so inlove with her!!)

'3alia: may9eeeeer :'( abeeee ayeeey azooorkoom

3azeez: ta3alaaay wallaaa 3adii agool 7ag omee inich rifeejat saroon
( Sara is his nephew he's very close wiyaha she's like his best friend cuz the age difference is only a year china )

'3alia: hehehehehe laaaa fashlaaa shakooo

3azeez: wallaaa 3adii

'3aliaa: laa 3azeezaan 7adaa fashlaa

3azeez: hehehehe madree kayfich

'3alia: anaa a9laan 3ala yowm ib tilga dunaa mabyooga min baitkom moo ilaa tdig 3al shr6aa tilgahaa 3indee

3azeez: laaaaa i5thaaay ay a7ad min il yahaaal ileee dandoon hathee il '3alyaa walla msawyaa jaww 3indinaa

'3alia: maleee shi'3iil wallaaa abeeeha :(

In the evening he talked to me

3azeez: '3alooya

'3alia: hallaaa

3azeez: '3alia tathkireen mara giltlich 3an bint wayed ib 5a6ree o a7ibha o widee agoolaha bas madree shlown agolaha?

'3alia: ee?

3azeez: '3alooya hal bint ........

A Mistake (12)

2011-03-16T11:54:00.001-07:00

I know its been a very long time since I've posted bas kaaa a post o inshallaaaaa itshofona long cuz 6awalt wana aktiba
Enjoyyy o sorry 3al ta25eer again :***
Most of the convos Ive copied and pasted so itha fee any spelling mistakes 6awfaw please ;p

I think he's trying to tell me something by being indirect

laa laa laaa matwa8a3 3aneee I don't want to keep my hopes up and he knows I would never be that type of girl

'3alia: ee goolaha

3azeez: agoolich mo now3ha a5af agolaaha she doesn't think of me nafs gabil

'3alia: wait for the right time 3ayal

3azeez: hatha ilee biy9eer

He didn't mention that girl again o ana mayibt 6aree il maw'6oo3

Something that 3azeez and I had in common and we both adored was swimming and the sea we both loved the sea we adored it both of us wouldnt mind living in the middle of it

It was around october I was at home and he was at work

'3alia: 3azeeeezaan

3azeez: 3yoona

'3alia: :$ hehehehe 3azeeez abeee arooo7 il ba7ar mayta abee asbaa7

3azeez: tabeeen americh awadeech

He knew what my answer would be but he wanted to try his luck this time

'3alia: wain twadene?

3azeez: akoo mokan ana kila aro7la ma7ad iydila il ba7ar minaaak 5ayaal o bas fee ajanib ya3nee ta5theen ra7tich o ma7ad iyshoofich

He told me the name of the place but I dont want to mention it

'3alia: wadayt a7ad min gabil?

3azeez: ee my ex

Madree laysh bas i felt offended ya3nee madree gimt ma7ib lama he tells me things like that

'3alia: oohh o tsbi7oon ya3nee 3adii jdam il nas?

3azeez: eee 7ada 3adii o kanat talbis bikinii ba3ad

Hneee 3a9abt like seriously that's not something that you should've said

'3alia: mmmmm

3azeez: shino mmmm

'3alia: bas mmmm

3azeez: matabeen awadeech ?

'3alia: u know i cant

3azeez: ee adree adree

One time I was going to leave for lunch with my mom and cousins so I told him

'3alia: zeeez

3azeez: halaa

'3alia: ba3ad shway baroo7 at'3ada bara wiya my mom o cousins

3azeez: wain?

'3alia: 360

3azeez: bayey

'3alia: laysh?

3azeez: abee ashoofich

'3alia: laa 3azeez plzz magdar

3azeez: alla iy5aleech '3alia bas bashoofich mn b3eed walla magarib bas abee a3arif shaklich

'3alia: bas magdar ma3ay omee o I know my expressions ra7 yf'6i7oone ya3nee omee btla7i'6 o ana magdar tshoofnee inta tadree ina magdar

3azeez: ok 5ala9 many yay

'3alia: plz lat3a9ib walla magdar ya3nee law agdar chan 5alaytik tshoofne bas ana magdar plzz ifhamnee

3azeez: ok i get it mo m3a9ib

'3alia: lool 5owsh dagra

3azeez: shako

'3alia: madree radik yadger

3azeez: laa walla shakoo :*

He asked to see me a couple of times o each time I give excuses lets hope he doesnt ask again because im kind of running out of excuses.....

Hi ;D

2011-01-18T14:55:00.000-08:00

WOW its actually been a long time since iv'e written a post.
Ta5ayilaw ineee kint nasya my blogs pass o 9arlee sneeen a3abil just now 9ar feenee why dont i try this pass wila yishti'3illll
shilt.haa yibaab bil baiiit o 9afgaaaa
soo madam inee im writing this post ya3nee akeed I'll be finishing up the story
Missed You guys
love u :****

عيدكم مبارك :*

2010-11-15T06:40:00.000-08:00

عيدكم مبارك أو عساكم من العايدين والفايزين
Ok now baktib bil english cuz sa3a bas 3ashan I type sorry I didn't post cuz kan my b-day o ba3dayn lowya now shway 3ashan il 3eed bas wa3ad 3eediteee likom a post tonight :D
Love u :***
O 3eedkom imbarak

A Mistake (11)

2010-11-09T08:49:00.000-08:00

'3alia: laysh ya3neee bas 5 mins ya3nee kalimnee ma6alabt minik shay

3azeez: 6ool il yowm wana mo2tamaar o 7owsaa o awal ma arid il Hotel seeda a7i6 rasee wanam o ana gayilich min gabil ineee mara7 agdar akalmich 3ala6ool

'3aliaa: eee 3ala6ool moo kilish mara wa7daaa

3azeez: aseef walla asef

I was so pissed off ya3nee its not quite possible ina mara wa7da maykalimneee

'3alia: inzain shino sawaytaw?

3azeez: walla karf mayir7imoon alla iyhadahom bas

This went on for the rest of the month! Ya3nee il kalam ileee giltaaa mafad kil weekend iykalimneee o nafs il excuse iygooleee o ana mithil il hablaaa a3thiraa.

Ana I count the days fa kil mara I talk to him agoola yalla maboga shay 14 days ba3dayn 7 days ba3dayn the last weekend

'3alia: 3azeeeezaaaan wanasaaaaaa bacheer ib tirjaa3!!!! :D

3azeez: ee 7adaaaa offf 3ad malayt jad 6agat chabdeee!

'3alia: hehehehe yalla il7imdillaaa
- ooo eee tow9al bil salamaaa inshallaa ;*

3azeez: alla iysalmich babe :*

The next day kalamneee when he was in the airport o awal ma rikab il plane galee ina he had to switch off his phone faa 9aka o ana nimt cuz it was late

Gimt the next morning for school ri7t I washed and changed ba3dayn lama 5athayt my phone wilaa 3indee an msn msg bsir3a fita7t

3azeez: heeey babe tara ana wi9alt

'3alia: 7imdilaaa 3ala salamtiiiiik
- taw ma nawarit likuwaiiiit

3azeez: alla iysalmich walla imnawra biwjoodich

'3alia: how was ur flight?

3azeez: walla zaina il7imdilla

'3alia: ashwa il7imdilla

I went to school o radayt o makalmnee gilt 7aram akeed nayim maskeeen wila ham the whole day makalmneee sta'3rabt fa ana ham tamayt saktaaa laman I went to bed chan agool 3asa bas mafee shay

'3alia: 3azeeez?

3azeez: hey

'3alia: shfeek?

3azeez: mafeenee shay bas wiya il rabi3 akalmich ba3ad shway ok

'3alia: k

Hmmmmm awal mara he ditches me 7ag rab3aaa shilsafaa?

Ni6artaa 9arat 1 o 2 o 3 3ad ma9a5haa 3 am o ana layl7een na6rita

'3alia: atwa8a3 layl7een ma3a ur friends have fun bas ana ta3abt o banam il7eeen gn

Ta5ayilaw shrad 3alay! Ib kil ba9a6aaaaaa galeee

3azeez: gn

WTH! Ana il7eeen na6ritik 6ool il laiiiil o a5er shay bas hal 7arfayn 9ij ta3ab nafsaaa walla! 6anasht manee imta3ba nafsee 3ala shay mayiswaaaa

The next morning gimt o I didn't send him anything

Bas at around 10 when I was at arabic classs

My phone vibrated

Wila

3azeez: gm

Ga3adt chithee half an hour abee iy7is bileee ga3id iysawee feenee

'3alia: gm

3azeez: shda3wa makoo gm wala shay

'3alia: gilt akeed nayim mabee a2atheeek

3azeez: 3adii gm mara7 it2ather

'3alia: 5ala9 inshalla

3azeez: shfeech?

'3alia: wala shay

3azeez: 7ilfay!

'3alia: manee 7alfa

3azeez: 3ayal goolay shfeech

'3alia: il7eeen ana an6erik ams 6ool ilyowm o ba3dayn ta7ggirnee o tig3ad ma3a ur friends

3azeez:'3alooy shasawee kint wiya my friends o magidart asta3mil mobili

'3alia: ok

3azeez: walla sorry :*

Ya kither maygool sorry :@

'3alia: 3adiii

Radaynaa 3adii sowalif kilyowwm o kinaaa 7adnaa ok shoofaw i7na now3naa 3adii mathalan iygoolee ina wa7da hot wila shaf banat 7ilweeeen o chithee ya3nee 3ala bona we're friends fa thak ilyowm galeee

3azeez: '3aloooyaaa

'3alia: hala?

3azeez: '3alooy

'3alia: shinooo

3azeez: '3alooy akoo wa7da 7adha ib 5a6ree o ana ya3nee a7ibha o madree shlown agoolaha la2na ihya kilish moo now3haa la2na ihya gaylatlee ina ma3indaha 7ob o ma 7ob

Post Tonight!!!!!

2010-11-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

I missss thiiiissss :( and I missss writing wallaaa
ilyowwm baktiib a6waaal post ib 7ayatee 3ashankooom :D
I LOVE YOU ;****

I'm Backkkkkk :D

2010-09-15T13:21:00.001-07:00

I'm baaackkkkk tawnee ams wa9laaaaaaa o inshallaaaaa postttt sooooon

3eedkom Mbarak ;*

2010-09-09T19:09:00.000-07:00

3eedkooom imbaraak o 3asakom min il 3aydeeen wil fayzeeen o inshalla yin3ad 3alaykom hal sina o kil sina gilt may9eer iyey il 3eed o ma a3ayidkom
Love u :***

No Posts

2010-09-07T14:40:00.000-07:00

Heeey ana ilyowm basafeer ya3nee in a few hours fa no post for 7 days :p sam7ooneee bas ba7awil I post itha gidart I'll post wa7id ba3ad shway
Gonna miss u
Love u ;****

A Mistake (10)

2010-09-06T20:40:00.000-07:00

As promised a post :D bas itha makoo comments makoo post next time :p
Enjoy ;**

As I said a week passed o makoo shay min 3azeez

At least he could've signed in min il business room bil hotel just to say hi tara wi9alt bas la2 wala shay

O as usual I checked my phone to see if he signed in wila yi6la3 ina 3azeez "available sign" mastaw3abt faradayt my phone chan iy9eer feenee 3AZEEEZ IS AVAILABLE I checked my phone mara thanya 3ashan astwa3ib il maw'6oo3 wila he is actually online!!

It didn't take him 2 mins since he signed in chan iydizleee

3azeez: '3alooooy
-i missss uuuuu
- alooooo wayniichhhh
-adreee 6awalt 3alaych bas walla I was busy

7igartaaa mithil ma ohwa sawaleee for a whole weeek abee a7asisa inaa moo kil ma iysawee shay '3ala6 iyridleee wana asam7aa

Ni6art 5 mins bas magidart bas ana a3arif shlown a7ira

'3alia: hi

3azeez: shda3waa hi bas ;(

'3alia: ba3ad shino agool?

3azeez: shfeech m3a9ba?

'3alia: moo m3a9ba

3azeez: 7ilfay?

'3alia: walla

3azeez: good bas adreee 6awalt 3ala makalmtich bas walla magidart

'3alia: 3ala8al chan 6amantneee

3azeez: asef :(

'3alia: mmmmm

3azeez: yalla 3ad walla asef :( '3aloooy intay tadreen ina mamnoo3 asta3mil mobili fa walla I'm taking a risk cuz I miss u walla

Taboon Post?

2010-09-06T17:14:00.001-07:00

Ana mitfar8a il7eeen ma3indee shay tabooon post wilaaaa la2 :p

A Mistake (9)

2010-09-06T08:38:00.000-07:00

3azeez: ee wallaa :(

'3alia: o shlown ana I got used to u akalmik kil shway shlown ya3nee makalmik 7ag 2 months!

3azeez: ma3alayh iymiroon ibsir3a inshalla

(What the hell!!!! Ana za3lana ina mara7 akalma for 2 months o ohwa iygoolee iymiroon bsir3a walla biroood I'm going to act mithla 3ashan maygool inee 7ana o lazgaa!)

'3alia: inshalla

3azeez: kalaytay?

'3alia: ee kalayt my sandwich ib lunch :p

3azeez: 3awafeeeee ana mayit yoo3 il7een baroo7 akil

'3alia: eee go eat yalla 3alayk bil 3afiaaa

3azeez: alla iy3afeech ;**

Days passed o i7na chitheee kila sowalif 3adiya ba3dayn 9ar wagt il dawra o kan now biysafer

3azeez: yalla ana il7een barkab il 6ayaraaa

'3alia: :( troo7 witrid bil salama o 6aminee 3alayk plz o take care of yourself

3azeez: alla iysalmich o intay ba3ad deer balich 3ala 3omrich o inshalla bakalmich awal ma agdar

'3alia: inshalla o alla ma3ak iy7af'6ik

3azeez: ajma3een :* yalla ana lazim a9ik my phone byeee :**

'3aliaa: okk :'( byeeee :*

O he signed out

Yowm

Yowmain

Thalathaaaaa

Wala shay!

3azeeez didn't sign in wala kalamneeee

Its been a weeek!!!!! Wainiiik 3azeeez

Mahadayt my phone I didn't give up akeed he'll sign in ya3neee shinooo kil hatha o maykalimnee? Lay hal daraja ana mahima o he doesn't care :(

A Mistake (8)

2010-09-04T17:08:00.000-07:00

We played truth or dare unfortunately I can't remember the rest of the questions bas it was interesting 3ogobha we asked regualr stuff ya3nee I found out that his favorite colors where black blue and red :p

Let me tell you something about 3azeeeez kilyowm bilayl literally kilyowm! Iynam 3aneee wana asowlif wiyaaaa

At the beginning kint a3a9ib shino ya3nee asowlif wiya o iynam 3anee wiy5aleenee bas ba3dayn ta3awadt 9ar shay 3adiiii :p

I slept early cuz kan waray school o adree ina ohwa nam a9laan 7a6ayt my phone 3al charge o I slept

6:25 my maid came in to wake me up I ignored and went back to sleep bas awal ma kint banam my phone vibrated

Nigazt o 5ama6t my phone to seee wilaa off coarse

3azeez: gm ;*

I replieed 3ala 6oool

'3alia: gm ;*

3azeez: 9a7 il nowm ;*

'3alia 9a7 ibdiniiik

3azeez : iff wai3 malee 5ilg dawam

'3alia : wana malee 5ilg schoooool!

3azeez yallaa ana ba5ithleee a shower o abadil awal ma5ali9 akalmich ok

'3alia: ok mee too o na3eeeman

3azeez: yin3am 3alaych :**

I showered bsir3a o libast my school uniform o wana ga3da albis my shoes my phone vibrated again

3azeez: ana 5ala9t ;D o il7een ba6laa3

'3alia : ana ba3ad bas plzz take care bil 6ireej o don't use ur phone o 6amineee awal ma tow9aal

3azeez: inshallaa intay ba3ad ok ;*

'3alia: ok :D

Ri7t schoool o ohwa ra7 il dawaaam 6aminee 3alayh o ana 6amanta 3alay gal ina biykalimnee awal may5ali9 dawam cuz mayigdar yista3mil his phone giltla ok o ana ba3ad I attended my classes o everything was ok

At 1:30 3azeez dazlee ina 6ala3 min il dawam

'3alia: how was it?

3azeez: kaaarf o ta3aaab

'3alia: hehehe ya36eek il 3afiaaa ;**

3azeez: alla iy3afeeech bas '3alooooy akoo bad news!

'3alia: haw shino?

3azeez: baroo7 dawra 7ag il dawam for 2 months o matwa8a3 agdar akalmich all the time :(

'3alia: min9ijik!

A Mistake (7)

2010-09-02T17:24:00.000-07:00

Adree 6awalt 3alaykom sam7oonee bas I'm not getting any feedback ya3nee ana abee a3arif what u guys think fa plz readers comment ;**

3azeez: yalla truth

'3aliaa: laaaa laaa u go first ana ma3arif

3azeez: yalla 3ad si2aly ay shay tabeen it3arfeena

'3aliaa: hmmmmm ay shay abee a3arfa?

3azeez: ee ay shay tabeen it3arfeena

(Hmmmmm shlould I ask wila fashla ooh shda3wa fashla min 3azoooz yalla let me ask :p )

'3alia: did u kiss?

3azeez: eeeee waayyyyhh wayeed

'3alia: 9ij!

3azeez: eee o french ba3aad

'3alia: looooool

3azeez: yalla truth or dare?

'3alia: truth?

3azeez: minoo yadree 3anee?

'3alia: shino ya3nee

3azeez: ya3nee mino gaylatla 3aneee?

'3alia: bas my cousin

3azeez: 9ij? O shino gilteelaha 3anee?

'3alia: giltalaha inik wayed winees o ur so sweet o mashalla 3alayk wayed mo2adab o moree7

3azeez: 7ilfaaayy??

'3alia: walla

3azeez: yaaa ba3ad chabdeee wallaaaaaaa

( I only told my cousin ya3nee 7atan lamooy ma giltlahaaa nisat 3an il salfa 3abalaha ineee ma gimt akalma yimkin :p )

'3aliaa: yallaaa ana bas2lik nafs il so2aaal minoo yadree 3anee??

3azeez: ma7ad yadree 3anich '3air rab il 3alameeen (aawwwwwww cuute )

'3alia: ;*

A Rythm Of A Heartbeat

2010-08-31T19:59:00.000-07:00

Okkkk hatha ism blog om ya3goub o let me tell u guyssss 7ada 3AAAJJJEEEBB!! Walla I'm in love with it! Mashallaa she's an amazing writer fa an9a7 ina il kil yigraaa ;*
Hatha il link I hope u enjoy ;D
Myrythmofaheartbeat.blogspot.com

O I'm sorry 6awalt 3alaykom bas inshalla I'll post bacher
Love u ;**

No Post

2010-08-20T14:42:00.000-07:00

7abaybeeeee makooo post ilaa 3ogob 5 days sorrrrry bas cuz basaferr o inshalla awal marid I post
Tamrooneee 3ala shay min turkey? Layridkom ilaaa ilsankooom :p
Ttys ;******

A Mistake (6)

2010-08-18T16:20:00.000-07:00

Ga3daa an6er mita it9eer 11 3ashan inrid il bait o ag3ad asowlif wiya 3azeeez walla I already miss him!

Let me tell you about 3azeez awal shay he's a normal kuwaiti guy ya3neee malam7aa na3ma 3adiyaa bas his smile ya alla 3ala his smileee mashalla tabarak il ra7maan ityaniiiin, ana I've never seeen him face to face I've just seen his pictures o ya3neeee u know the kind of people ileee awal matshoofoonhom tirta7oonla that was 3azeez!

O now3aa he's a good listener he doesn't talk much ana I do almost all the talking bas ohwaaa yishta6 ma3ay ya3nee iy3alig o iygooleee his opinions o chitheee

Layl7eeen ga3deeeen bil zwara o ana ga3da asma3 il sowalif

Mama: yala ya mama 5al namsheee

Ana ba'3ayt,ha min allaaaaa seeda nigazt min mokaneeee o wigaft chan astaw3ib ineee bada3t shway looool fa mishayt 3adiii o ri7t 7abayt ras yaditeee o radayna il baaiiit.

Awalll ma omee fta7at bab il baiiit seeeda rika'6tt lay dareeee

Mama: haw haw shfeeeech shfeeech yanaytay!!

Me: LAAA 7ADDEEEE 7A9RRRRAAANNNAAA

Mama: hahhahaha moo 9a7ya binteeee

Ri7t il dar ligayt my phoneee 3al bed fita7t il convooo 3ala6oool wila

3azeez: 6ala3taay?
- alooo
-?????
-'3aliaaaa shfeeech
- feech shay!!!
-riday 3alay
-??????????????
-tikfayn tara ga3d a7ateech
-'3aliaaaa

Abaiiih 7ada kisar 5a6reeee kila min omee alla iyhadaha ma5alatnee a5ith my phonee
Seeda ga3adt I type

Me: 3azeeez soorrryyy walla I'm sorryy bas kint nasya my phoneee bil bait o tiwahagt asfaa

3azeez: laa 3adiii bas il7imdiila 3abalee feech shay 5tara3t

Me: la il7imdilla mafeenee shay

3azeez: stanastay babe? (Btw kila iygooleee babe :p)

Me: laaa waiii3 kan 7ada malal la3at chabdeee

3azeez: LOOOOOOOOOOOOL ;p

Me: eee i'67aaaak i'67aaaak inta mistaniiiis wiya il rabi3 o ana min7absa ib bait yaditeee

3azeez: laaa wallaaa kint a7ateeech o LOOOOOOOOOOOOL maskeeena

Me: :( kila tit6anaaz 3alay

3azeez: la mat6anaz bas '6a7akteeneee

Me: inshalla doom ti'67aaak

3azeez: wiyach inshalla

Me: magiltleee wain ri7t ilyowm

3azeez: walla makoo 6ala3t wiya bint i5teeee ri7na moviee ib 360 ta3ashayna o ri7t il duwaniya

Me: o 3asa istanastaw?

3azeez: ee il7imdillaa ;*

Me: il7imdilla ;*

3azeez: '3aloooy

Me: halaaa?

3azeez: til3ibeeen truth or dare?

Me: mmmmmm eee yalla

A mistake (5)

2010-08-16T19:49:00.000-07:00

Awal sboo3 kina insowlif 3adiiiii ya3neee shitsaweeen o shitsaweee o wain ri7tya o wain ri7t o soo on

It3arfooon shlown lama il yahil yifra7 bil li3ba il yideeda ana kint chitheee

I enjoyed the time I was spending with him I really did

Yimkin la2na all this is new to me? Walla madree bas all I know ineee mistansa 3ala 3azeeez

Shoofaw ana I come from a preservative family ya3neee matdoor 3indihom hal 5arabee6 o all this is wrong. 6ab3aaan I knew that o I knew ina law ay a7ad min my family members biychiknee kint baroo7 feeha bas ana moo ga3da asaweee shay wayed '3ala6.

You see 3azeez is just a friend to me I haven't thought of him as anything more than that and there's nothing going on between us.

After 2 or 3 weeks we became inseparable I know u'll think ineee I'm exagerating bas we were ya3neee matmer 5 mins ilaa ana wiya we're chatting wiya ba3a'6.

He hasn't seen me wala kalamneee wala mara cuz I refused that o ma atjara2 asawee akthar min ileee ga3da asawee

Me: 3azoooooz yallaaa brb babadiil o ba6lla3 il7een

3azeez: wain bitroo7een

Me: avenues :D

3azeez: inzaiiin abee ashoofich

Me: laaaa min9ijiiik ana ray7aaa wiyaaa omeeee

3azeez: shinoo ana 5ibiiil manee yaylich bas ashoofich min b3eed

Me: laaa 3azeeez inta tadree inik mara7 itshoofneee

3azeez: bas shwayaaa tikfayn widee a3arif shlown shakliich

Me: ana gaylatlik min il bidaya ineee mara7 awareeek shakleee

3azeez: eee adree :(

As much as I know ineee what I'm doing is right as much as I want to show him how I look and actually meeet him in persoon.

Bas maskeeen ma7an sikat 3ogobhaaa o rad 3adeee ya3nee maza3al wala 3a9aaab 6ala3t wana mista3yilaaa min il bait o awal marikabt il car staw3abt ina my phone moo ma3ay.

Me: mamaaaa la7'6aa la7'6aaaa nisayt mobiliiii

Mama: 3adiiii ana ma3aaach mala da3eee mobilich

Me: la mama plzzz digeega ayeeba raki'6

Mama: makoo broo7na mista3yileeen o a7saaan irta7aay min hal mobile bas imjableena 24 sa3aa imlaheeekom 3an il nas

Me: mama shda3waaaaa mara7 asta3mila bas mathalan ri7t mokan broo7eee ila ma3ay mobili

Mama: mintay ray7a mokaaan broo7ich irta7aay

O ta5ayilaw my mom ma5alatneee a5ith my phoneeee o ana 7adiii m3a9baaa ya3neee mathalan 3azeez dazlee shay o il moshkila binroo7 3ogobha zwaraaa fa minoo biywanisneee '3airaaaaa :(

Ri7naaa avenues o ana 7adii m3a9baaa kil shway achayik my bag yimkin 7a6ita bas mashiftaa o malgaaa ifff iffffffff sh,hal 7a'6

O 6ooool lizwaraaaaaa malaaaaal kila 7areeem yagrigrigooon biflana wiflana o 3irs madreee minooo o 3aisha bint mneera ma56ooba o 3aza o5oo sara o hatheee ana ga3da broo7eee saktaaa ma3indeee a7ad asowlif ma3ah :(

مبارك عليكم الشهر ;**

2010-08-09T18:27:00.000-07:00

Mbarak 3alaykooom il shahar o 3asakom it3oodoona hal sina o kil sina ya raaaab o inshalla yin3ad 3alaykom bil afra7 wil 5air wil sirooor 7abayt akooon the first blogger itbariklikom bil shahar bas madree itha a7ad sibagneee :p

I love u o kil 3am wintaw b5aair
;********

A Mistake (4)

2010-07-27T15:43:00.000-07:00

Awal ma shift what he sent nigazt o tiraba3t on the couch I got a bit excited

'3alia: Im watching TV

3azeez: ay 8anat?

'3alia: fox movies

3azeez: la7'6a 5an 7i6 3alayh

'3alia: ok :p

3azeez: allaa 3ad hatha 5owsh film 8aweey!

'3alia: ee wayed 7iloo

We chatted while were watching the movie sometimes in3ali8 3ala the actors o sometimes naskit shway nindimij bil film

madreeee shyab il 6areee bas he asked me

3azeez: intay ib 3ila8a?

in9damt shway ya3ne hathee awal mara ib 7ayateee ilee akalim walad 7atan law msn ya3nee wala mara tijara2t o sawayt hal shay it was something new to me

'3alia: la2 never was in a relation ship and never will be

3azeez: good

'3alia; laysh good?

3azeez: la2na a7sanlich chithee walla shlich bil relationships

'3alia: ee adree a7san a9lan ana I dont believe in them

3azeez: laysh?

'3alia: ya3nee there's no such thing as gf bf itha ana 9ij abee a7ib abee a7ib the guy that I'll marry

3azeez: 3adil kalamich

'3alia: inta 7abayt?

3azeez: ee martayn wilbajee kila al3ab 3alayhom

'3alia: ahaa

3azeez: awal wa7da 7abayt,ha 5anatnee o thanee wa7da 7abayt,ha galatlee ina in5a6abt o bitizawaj fa 8arart inee mara7 a7ib ba3adha

when I heard this I felt releived we could just be friends 9a7? eee 9a7! la2na la ana wala ohwa nabee in7ib fa faka a7sanlina chithee

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2010-07-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

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Part 3

2010-07-08T19:34:00.000-07:00

'3alia: hmmmmm '3areeba

3azeez: ee walla madree shfeee

Ba3dayn 3ad salfa gamat tis7ab salfaa sowlafna shway he found out that I was 16 at that time o ina I was still in high school I didn't lie about anything well except for my name 6ab3aaab magiltlaa il 9ij 3an my name wala giltla which school did I go to ;)

I found out that he was 3 years older than me bas he works o his father died a few years ago (alla yir7ima) o his mom means the world to him he has a big family 10 siblings kilhom akbar minaa ila wa7id a9'3ar o his mom mashalla took the responsibilty by her self.

Staw3abt inee sowlaft wayed fa I had to excuse myself giltla ina my mom tabeeneee o that was a lie bas makint abee asowlif ma3a akthar min chithee la2neee ma9alee cham sa3aa imsowlfa ma3a chinee a3arfa min 3asher sneeen

Madree laysh bas eedee gamat it7iknee I wanted to talk to him so bad I'm not sure if I was attracted to his personality wila I just had some time to spend.

I wanted to fight my urge and not to talk to him that night 3ashan ma9eer lazga o I did 5alayt my phone on the side o kint mindamja a6ali3 some random movie on the tv wila my phone vibrates

I opened it wila

3azeez: shino ga3da itsaween?

post or no post?

2010-07-02T03:30:00.000-07:00

Heey everyone adree 6awalt bas taboon I post? O eee tara I type min my phone fa 3ithroonee 3al badliyat :p

part 2

2010-06-27T14:53:00.000-07:00

I changed my name 3ashan mabee iy3arif minoo ana

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: loooool shakooo!

3azeez: madree chithee a7is

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: la walla a9lan ana 3abalee ur my cousin

3azeez: ahaa o intay shismich?

(Waaayh sha5ariflaa il7eeen hmmmm shino akoo isim 7iloo! Ee ok '3alia zain)

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: ismee '3aliaa

3azeez: aha ok bas sorry a9laan ma3arif mino mohammed ilee tabeena fa I can't help u

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: laa 3adii sorry 3al iz3aj

3azeez: moo mishkila bas please saweelee block delete cuz ana shbik min my phone

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: haman ana magdar

3azeez: 5ala9 moo mishkila ana lama aroo7 il bait ashbik min il lap o I block u

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: np bye

3azeez: bye

Matiwa8a3ta chitheee thigeeel at all ya3nee shakla iywanis o he's social bas madree 3ana walla fa gilt makoo ila I call lamooy :p

Outgoing call lamooya

Lama: haaaa sh9aaaar

3ithoob: halaa hahahahaa il a5 3ishtaw thigeeel iygoolee saweelee block please

Lama: ma9adig kilish moo layig

3ithoob: eee 7ada ista'3rabt tabeen il 9ara7a

Lama: waii3 7ada sa5eeef

3ithoob: abaiiih lamoooy kaaaaak iygoolee a7ad dazich 3alay

Lama: weeeee 5ayif min rifeejta hahahahaha

3ithoob: hahahahahah anaa agoool laysh ma3a6aneee wayh

Lama: eee ha 3ayal hathaylaaa iy5ar3oon

3ithoob: eeee hahahaha inzaiiin yallaa lazim aroo7

Lama: ok yalla take care bye

3ithoob: byeee

Days passed o kil ma I sign in alga he's online ma3arfla thak ilyowm gayileee saweelee block shfee hatha

3alamtnyy shloun a7iiiib. 3almnyy kaiif ansaak: inta moo imsaweelee block shlown 6ali3lee online?

3azeez; ee sawaytlich bas madree laysh kil ma I sign in ti6li3eenlee online

First part of the true story

2010-06-23T17:27:00.000-07:00

Ok 9ar 3indee 2 true stories babdee hatheee o il thanya 3ogob inshalla

This can happen to anyone of you or maybe it has I'm not sure but have u ever fallen in love without knowing what are the consequences to this love! Well here goes my story.

One day I was searching through facebook into random peoples profiles mako shay yideed bas I saw wa7id shakla 7ada 5ibil ya3nee iywanis o the way his comments are iybayinlich ina 7layw fa I was looking through his profile wila ashoof ina 7a6 his email 3ind his personal info I got this idea that I should add him on msn bas 9ar feenee hmmmm laaa laa mala da3eee il tahawer.

I actually thought about it a couple of times chan iy9eer feenee why don't I call lamooy washoof shino rayha!

Lama is one of my closest friends ya3neee ihya 3ala6oool fahamtneee she's fine looking mashalla 3alayha she takes good care of her hair o mashalla iyhabil its brownish bas shway 6iweel o na3im she's my age o we go to the same schoool

Lama: hey what's up! Machinich tawa daga 3alay

3ithoob: eee ya3neee walaht 3alaych may9eeer!

Lama: laaaa iy9eeer iy9eeer amraaaay tidalilay

3ithoob: lamoooy feee wa7id on faceboook shaklaaaa wineeees shrayich should I add him on msn?

Lama: add him sh5a9ranaa shisma 5alashooofa?

3ithoob: isma abdulaziz al X

Lama: eeeeeee 3araftaaa 3athoooob shaklaaaa 5ibil addd addddd 5aliywanisna

3ithoob: hahahaha ok yalla I'll add o I'll update u

Lama: yalla ok ttyl

3ithoob: inshalla bye

Lama: bye

Here goes there's nothing wrong 9a7!
Yalla add contact bla bla bla abdulaziz_al_X@hotmail.com
Oh he accepted ya7layla bsir3a
Ok mara7 abayinla ineee I know him basa3bi6 3ala rasa shway

3ithooob: 7amoooooooooood shlownik min ziman 3anik

Abdullaziz: ay 7amood?

3ithoob: 7amood yalla 3ad moo wagt '3ashmara sha5barik?

Abdullaziz: la shaklich '3al6ana

3ithoob: haw shino '3al6ana inta moo m7amad my cousin

Abdullaziz: la2 ana abdullaziz al X min wain yayba emailee?

3ithoob: 3abaleee ur my cousin fa ana yimkin I'm'6ay3a shway

Abdullaziz: ma7ad 3inda nafs emailee intay a7ad dazich?

(Hmmmmm shga3id iy5arbi6 loooool il a5 il'6aher imbadi3 ib7ayata)

3ithoob: shino ya3nee?

Abdullaziz: ya3neee a7ad dazich 3alay?

:(

2010-05-22T08:56:00.000-07:00

Ok so listen up tawnee ray7a fat7a il laptop basha'3il il internet wilaa moo ra'6eee it connects so I find out ina il wirless im5arif o lazim inyeeb il dude 3ashan iyshoof what the hell is wrong with it :s o unforunateley I hate writing a post min my phone fa awal ma il internet yitsana3 I'm gonna write one I'm sorry o love u guys:**

The End Of The Road (38)

2010-05-18T10:31:00.000-07:00

It was a 7 hour flight so half way through we slept
I woke up by the feeling of someone tapping on my shoulders

flight intendent: chicken or lamb?

Noor: no thank you I'm good

Flight intendent: Sir, SIIR

Noor: cant you see he's sleeping

Flight intendent: well I have to see if he'll like to eat something

Noor: no he's good thank you

Flight intendent: well fine

it was cold and the blanket that Ali had has slipped to the floor, so I bent down and got it I covered him up and laid down once again.

I looked at the watch and hmmm I've got 3 hours to spend, the head phones were packaged in a plastic bas I ripped it up and started changing through the channels waiiii3 makoo shay iywanis I unbuckeled my seat belt and got up timashayt shwaya everyone was doing there own thing some were eating and some were feeding their children's others were hushing their crying babies I smiled and kept on walking and this old lady smiled back at me

old lady: intee 3arabiya?

Noor: ee 5altee ana kuwaitiya

old lady: wil ni3im walla

Noor: yin3am ib 7alich

old lady: shismich?

Noor: noor

old lady: 3ashat lasameee ya Noor mashalla isim 3ala mosama

Noor: ma 8a9artay 5altee hatha min 6eebich walla

old lady: walla la3at chabdeee min hal 6ayara 9arleee arba3 sa3at ga3da 3ala hal kirsee il '6ayij walla tikasirat irwaylateee kila 3ashaaan ashooof iwlaydeeee walaht 3alayh 5anat 7ayleee yadris ihnaak ibroo7a

Noor: mashallla alla iywafga shino yadris

old lady: iyafig il jimee3 inshalla walla yadris dictora madree shiysamoona hatheee

Noor: hehehehhee 3adil kalamich dictora

old lady: walla madree ishyabee ib hal shiga wil '3orba shahada o 3indaa bas 5ala9 i6laba

Noor: walla hathee il dinya inzain 5alteee wain a'3ra'6ich?

old lady: kahom youma laysh?

Noor: 5altee ta3alay ma3ay

old lady: haw wain aroo7

I carried her stuff and helped her out of her seat she was sitting at the economy and I know how awful the chairs are and specially for an old women ra7 tit3ab I took her to where I was sitting in first class I sat her down buckled up her seat and layed the chair down

Noor: 5altee ileee yamich isma Ali itha gam sowlfay ma3ah tara wayed i7layw o 7aboob o itha ba'3aytay ay shay goolee 7ag il mo'6eefa itnadeenee ana bakoon ga3da wara

old lady: walla may9eer ilee ga3da itsaweena agawmich min mokanich 3ashan itroo7eeen titkasirayn wara o tit3ibeen

Noor: la walla ta3abich ra7aa o ana mirta7a wara intay 7isbat omeee o hatha 7ag il bint 3ala omha

old lady: 3asa alla iy7af'6ich wiy5aleelich omaymtich wala ya7rimich minha wiy5aleech laha yarabeeee o walla ya ba5at.ha feech itha hathee 3amaylich

Noor: ameeen walla da3witich hathee tiswa il dinya o mafeeha, ana a5aleech il7een irta7ay shway

I put the pillow behind her head and covered her well and went back to sit in her seat silent tears were rolling down my cheeks as I remembered my mom I missed her so bad

The End Of The Road (37)

2010-05-12T12:07:00.000-07:00

This is dedicated to all the commenters ilee galaw yaboon a posst it's a long one i think ;*

Bacher I have a project due o ana ma bidayt feeee hmmmmm o I guess mara7 asawee seriously madree shino baragi3 7ag il teacher cuz we asked her a million times to postpone it o moo ra'6yaaa :'(

o yeah enjoooooy ;***

Noor's Point Of View :

I'm laying down on my bed trying to remember if I've forgot to pack anything oooooh aham shay nisayt la a7i6 my make up bag I double checked my bag everything was there fa I zipped it up o 7a6ayt,ha 3ind il door hmmm bagee 2 hours 3ala ma iymirnee Ali 5anag3ad ma3a il banat shway

Noor: ha banat shitsawooon

Fajer: walla ana o dalool ga3deen insaweee our assignment

Dalal: 8a9dich ur assignment

Fajer: ileee ohoo bas 5an5ali9 tikfaiiin la3at chabdeee min il tafkeer

Dalal; intay law ithideen ur phone shway chan i7na min ziman 5al9eeen

Fajer: ka 5ala9 bahida bas il mohim a5ali9

Noor: alla iy3eenkom, eee ta3alaw wain sandoo?

Reema: kahee bil 6ireeeej, zahabtay kil shi'3lich?

Noor: ee 5ala9t 9akayt jan6itee

lulu: ib nafgidich walla

Noor: walla haman ana bas inshala adig 3alaykom kil yowm wa6aminkom

Fajer: o you'll update us with kilshay iy9eer ma3a Ali

Noor: hehehehe wallaaa manee im9adga shlown bag3ad ma3a kil hal moda

Fajer: ma wa9eeech 9eeray thigeeeela haaa lat6ee7een min 3aiiina

Noor: hahahahhahaha wishchayfatneee fajer jidamich ;p

Fajer: heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey ana awareeech

Sindis: HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Reema: intay wa5ray wa5ray i7na 5ala9 7arabnach

Sindis: afaaa ana shthambeee

Dalal: laa witgool ba3ad shthambeee lahya wiya badooor o nasyatna

Sindis: la 7aram 3alaykom walla 3indee malyown shay asawee o ana adree itha ga3adt wiyakom mara7 a5ali9 ni9 shi'3lee min liz3aaaaaj

Lulu: inzain o inshalla mita hal shi'3il iy5ali9

Sindis: gireeb inshalla... haa nooroooo bitroo7een wiya 7abeeb il 2alb wit5aleena

Noor: abaiih alla yaster madree ishbasaweee

kil min laha wiya shi'3la fa I sat on the couch o I started wandering about Yousif shlown ya3nee faj2a safar? o laysh ma galeee? hmmmmmmm walla madree ishfee hal cham yowm bas maskeen yimkin 9ij 6ala3la shi'3il faj2a 3ad yadeee maskeen may5alee yirta7 shway kil il shi'3il 3ala Yousif

Dalal: i7na binwadeech il ma6ar?

Noor: la tikfowwn mabee itsawoonlee mana7a bil ma6aar

Reema: hahahahahaha 3adii ta3awiday

Noor: la a9lan Ali biyey iymirnee

Lulu: ee yalla zain ashwa

half an hour later the bell rang "DING DONG"

Sindis: ana baftaaaaaa7... oh hiii Aliiii 7ayak tifa'6al

Ali: dam fa'6lich... shlownich sindis sha5barich?

Sindis: walla ib 5air alla iysalmik inta shlownik?

Ali: tamam il7imdilla

Sindis: tfa'a6al ig3ad 5al anadeee il banat min il 9ala il thanya

sindis went to the other living room to call the girls

Sindis: NOOOROOOO yallaaaaaaa aliiii na6er bil 9allaaaa

Noor: SHIT shakleee zain!!!

Reem: shaklich iyanin bas yalla roo7ay fashla

the girls came to hug me 6ab3an all of us were in tears I know inee I'm going to miss them 7atan law it was for a couple of weeks

Lulu: deeree balich 3ala 3omrich o alla wiyach

Reema: take care 7abeebtee o 6amneena 3alaych awal ma tow9leen

Sindis: ee please 6amneena o have fun dont worry about anything

Fajer: bowlah 3alaych yal maleee8a

Dalal: I love you o istansay haaa!!!

Ali was waiting for me bil living room kil il banat ra7aw iysalmoon 3alayh 6ab3an ma 5alanee asheel my bag he carried it for me o maskeeen Lulu 3a6ita mo7a'6ara ina lazim iydeer bala 3alay o ina il deera it5ari3 walla I love her chinha omeee bas 3ala 9'3eera.

We arrived at the airport, checked in, then we shopped shwaya bil duty free sharayna 5arabee6 7ag il 6ayara china yahal, ashwa our seats were next to each other makint abee anga6 ib mokan broo7ee, it didn't feel quite weird sitting next to him it was actually comfortable being there with him and talking to him oh yeah and he's a good listener by the way o he actually listens to what I say surprising isnt it!

post or no post?

2010-05-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

tabooon a post soon wila la2? 3ashan itha taboon i'll post ya ilyowm ya bacher ;D

Darliaaaaaam ;*****

2010-05-09T11:43:00.000-07:00

Im fine il7imdillaa mafeeneee shay adreeee 7adeeee malee8a min zimaan moo katbaaa baas lahayt shwaya ma3a il senior trip o ba3dayn 9ar 7owsa ma3a school o il7eeeen inshalla im back thank u for asking walla ma ga9artaay o ana i missss u akthaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar o akthaaaaaaaaaaaaaar o I LOVE UUUU :*********

The End Of The Road (36)

2010-03-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

Im trying my best to write more frequently ;D

O this post is dedicated toN thank u for all ur support o intay ilee shaja3teenee 3ala inee akamil ;***** o Nawarii o Darliam thank u 3ala ur comments love u ;*****

I stayed there just reading for hours the doctor came out his face wasn't reassuring

Sindis: what's wrong?

Doc: well he's in a comma right now but he might get up in a couple of days

Sindis: ok thank u

that's it that's all I said "thank u" I went back to my seat fita7t il Quran o kamalt giraytee . Now what do I tell Noor? she's gonna leave to the states in a few days and her uncle is in a comma! I kept getting calls from the girls and all I said to them was that I'm busy wila 3indee homework wila I have something to do with Bader and each time bader calls I tell him that I'm busy with the girls ma kint abee agoola 3an Yousif la2na mabee yit3aab ma3ay.

I called Noor

Noor: hala sindis

Sindis: ahlain Noor kint bagoolich tara 5alich safar o galleee agoolich itroo7een wiya Ali 7ag listates 3ashan ohwa he can't come

Noor: o laish ohwa ma galee?

Sindis: madree 6ala3 3inda shi'3il '6arooree lazim iysawee o once he's back ra7 iykalmich

Noor: '3areeba Yousif mo 3adta iysawee chithee

Sindis: ee madree bas ohwa galee awa9ilich hal shay 3ashan ma tan6ireena

Noor: ee ok inzain sandoo?

Sindis: hala?

Noor: tara walhaneen 3alaych o fagdeenich

Sindis: wallah haman ana bas 5aloonee a5ali9 shi'3leee o inshallah bajabilkom kil yowm 9ib7 o layl

Noor: hahahhaha ok yalla take care 7abeebtee

Sindis: you too

ok hathee 3adat 3ala 5air allah yaster bas.

After a few days Noor left with Ali to Florida o I was back to my daily routine staying with Yousif. there are no improvement no nothing he's just in this stable position ilee wala shay yit'3ayar, the Doctors mayadroon shino fee exactly o that's what's killing me.

I've been told that a person in a comma could hear whatever you say, so I stay in Yousif's room o I talk to him about everything and anything even about my feelings I don't want him to feel lonely in the world that he's at. Each day at night I read him a part of the quran out loud so that he would enjoy god's wise words.

everyday I change the flower's that are beside his bed, and whenever the nurses get done with washing Yousif I spray him some perfume and comb his hair even though his hair is not that much but I want him to look good even when he's sick.

At night when its time me for to go home I cover him well, close the lights and leave. And when the morning comes I go to the Uni get everything I need to do from the professors and on my way to the hospital I get some fresh bouquet of flowers and head straight to Yousif's room.

Even though he doesn't speak to me I feel comfortable around him and it's just safe staying with him in the same room there's like a bond that's between us that if something happens to him I know I will get hurt and I wont handle all the pain alone.

The End Of The Road (35)

2010-03-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

Days have passed and It was time for Yousif's chemo session I went with him and stayed with him the whole time. Kilyowm 3an yowm yafrig 3alay tabdee ti6la3 il symptoms malowt il chemo he started to lose balance his skin turned dry, he started to lose some hair he was in a mess.

I isolated myself from everyone even Bader I didn't realize that, but I was too involved with Yousif. I stayed with him the whole time just taking care of him seeing if he needs anything. He has no one but me to stand by him through all of this. everyday i apply some lotion onto his skin 3ashan maytigashar o iy3awra kil yowm aga9ba yishrab wayed may 3ashan his body doesn't get dehidrated.

One morning ana wiya ga3deen nitmasha around the hospital he had his arms around my shoulder in order to balance himself o I had one hand around his waste wila faj2a he collapsed on the ground I couldn't handle his weight

Sindis: PLLEEAASSEEE HEELLPPP ANYONEEE

Nurse: Jennifer go call the doctor Eric come help me lift him up

I was sitting on the ground not knowing what to do adrenalin has made me stay still I didn't cry I didn't freak out I was like a statue everything was balnk. The nurses rushed across the hallway the doctor came running they took him to a room and closed the door behind them. I stayed there on the ground for about 15 minutes and then everything sank in the way he collapsed and everything that's when I got up and ran to the room that they took him in I stood outside the door looking through the circular glass window all I could see was Yousif laying on white bed helpless and a bunch of doctors with white coats surrouning him and each doing their jobs.

Seeing him in that way broke my heart I turned around walked silently to his usual room tiyadadt o firasht il siyada o libast thowb il 9alat o 9alayt rak3itayn 9alat shoker ashkir rabeee 3ala kil shay 3a6anee iya o 3ala 9i7itee o 3afiyteee shikart rabee 3ala hal 3eesha ilee ana 3ayshat.ha 5ala9t min il 9alat o 5athayt il quraan o ri7t 3ind il '3orfa ilee Yousif feeha il7een i sat outside on the chairs facing the door o fita7t awal page min il mo97af o awal shay kanat 9oorat ilfat7a samayt bil ra7man o off I went with my reading there was no one in the hospital just me and god. In that moment he's the only one I need right now he's the one that could help me.

" هو على كل شيء قدير"

A NEW BLOG ;D

2010-03-17T11:58:00.000-07:00

HIIII i've missed each and everyone of u wallah likom wi7shaaa adreee ineee im the worst blogger ever bas ana mabee a5ali9 hal story ila lama I have the next one ready ;p

OK so tawnee ilyowm madree shlown I've discovered this amazing blog she's a biginner bas wayed 3ijabnee her writing u should all check it out

http://intensity-insanity.blogspot.com/

I think u'll like it ;D

Love u loads ;********

Missed the blogsphere :(

2010-02-28T12:33:00.000-08:00

Hiiiiiiiiii everyone adreee ineee ma9a5t.haaa o 7agkom 3alay bas ana I can't continue itha mako ila shwaya comments o ana I truely missed the blogsphere fa 3ala 7asab il comments ileee i get ra7 akamil

LOVE YOU ;***

The End Of The Road (34)

2010-02-01T11:16:00.000-08:00

Sindis: BAAANNNAAAATTT

Reema: YAL MALEE8A WALAHT 3ALAYYYCCH

Sindis: moo kithreee wallah

Noor: wayn kintay yal 5aynaa

Dalal: shfeech yaya it9ar5eeen

Lulu: ooh sandoo mistansa inshallah doom hal wanasa bas ish3indich

Sindis: gi3daw bagoolikom shay

Fajer: yallah goolay

Sindis: Bader galleeee ina he loves me

Noor: cuuuuttteeee nafs 3alawii

Fajer: zaiiiin ma ba8aa

Sindis: ee wallah

Dalal: ok and did you say it back?

Sindis: I whispered it bas he didnt hear me

Dalal: good

Sindis: haw laysh good?

Dalal: bas lazim you be 100% sure ina you love him

Sindis: I am!

Dalal: 3asallah iytamim 3alaykom inshallah

Reem: abeeee a7ad iygooleee I love you may9eer

Lulu: ishtabeeen ib 3awar il raas

Noor: oooh Yousif tawa kalamneee yabee he meets up with Ali bacher

Fajer: oh sha5bara Yousif in ziman mo shayfeena

Noor: ee kan mash'3ool wiya rab3a shway

The next morning Yousif met up with Ali alone they hang out together o 6ab3an Nooroo was freaking out the whole time, she was actually worried that Yousif wont like Ali bas we tried our best to calm her down ri7na il spa o we got ourselves some massages o we went shopping shwaya kina nabee inlaheeha kither ma nigdar.

5ala9na chan inrid il bait o yousif was gonna drop by 3ashan iygoolina raya 3an Ali

we heard knocks on the door fa ra7at Noor tarki'6 ifta7at il bab o offcoarse welcomed yousif with a warm hug she pulled him from his arms to the living room and made him sit she sat next to him it showed that Yousif was satisfied and he felt comfortable leaving Noor with Ali you should see how relieved she was it showed on her face

Noor: Thank you 5ali

Yousif: bas itha '3ala6 3alaych ib ay shay wila athach bas gooleelee wallah la 5aleeh yindam

Noor: hahahaha shda3wa laa inshallah ako ila il 5air

Yousif: inshalah bas intay il7eeen it3arfeen il 9a7 min il '3ala6 fa mawa9eech ya Noor 3ala 3omrich o 3ala som3at ahalich ileee intay shaylathaa

Noor: inshallah la itwa9ee 7aree9

Yousif: 3afya yallah ana mashee taboon shay

All: salamtik

The End Of The Road (33)

2010-01-28T04:02:00.000-08:00

I'M BACKKK WA A5EEERAN I'M DONE WITH EVERYTHING ;D
ba5alee hal post as long as I can 3ashankom ;*

o ana ga3da a7awil a5ali9 hal story as fast as I can 3ashan I start with the true one

after ma I finished talking to Noor I went to Yousif o ashwa he was being released today so I stayed with him and packed all his stuff. Bader came and helped me pack as well we oredered pizza and ate, then each person did their own thing I was doing my assignements Bader was on his laptop, and Yousif was watching some car race show.

The doctor came in and did some final checks and released him, But he has to come back for chemo in a couple of days.

We left the hospital and took Yousif to his hotel room I organized his stuff and made sure that he was ok

Sindis: Yousif tabee shay gabil ma amshee?

Yousif: tislimeen mabee ila salamat 3omrich

Sindis: ana ba5alee my phone maftoo7 all night just incase you need anything

Yousif: la inshallah mako ila il 3afia

Sindis: ok call me awal ma itgoom 3ashan at6aman

Yousif: inshallah

Bader: haman ana Yousif itha i7tijt ay shay mayridik ila ilsanik

Yousif: tislam ma 8a9art, yallah sindis tara its getting late

Bader: ee yallah I'll drop you off 3ala 6ireejee

Bader left the room ana I was making some final checks o I was about to leave

Yousif: Sindis!

Sindis: hala?

Yousif: mashkoora

Sindis: 3ala shino?

Yousif: 3ala kil shay thank you

Sindis: 3aib 3alayk ya Yousif ana ma sawayt ila ilee gidart 3alay

Yousif: tislimeen

I had to leave the room cuz madreee something's wrong with mee I'm liking Yousif alot,lalalala he's just a friend shfeech sindis thiglay o fakray ib Bader

Sindis: ana lazim aroo7 good night

Yousif: allah wiyach good night

I left the room relieved yet nervous yet scared at the same time, I don't know what will happen next allah kareeem

I pressed on the down button and waited for the elevator to arrive I shifted to a land of thoughts and worries "DING" the sound brought me back to reality, I entered the elevator pressed on G, once the doors opened there he was my prince charming standing in the corner waiting for me

Sindis: sorry 6awalt 3alayk

Bader: la 3adee bas I hope that everything's ok cuz wayhich may6amin

Sindis: la mako shay bas I'm tired

Bader: akeed Sindis?

Sindis: ee akeed

Bader: 5ala9 3ayal awa9lich il bait 3ashan itroo7een o tirta7ayn o bacher la itdawmeen ana I'll pass by ur proffesors o a5ith minhom kilshay ti7tajayna

Sindis: la Bader wallah mala da3ee

Bader: imbala shoofay shloon shaklich ta3baan intay bas irta7ay o malich shi'3il

Sindis: hehehehe ok ok 5ala9 ma ra7 adawin bacher

How could I even think of Yousif shiftay shlown ya Sindis hatha il shai6an ga3id yil3ab ib mo5ich

Sindis: Bader!

I stopped ib the middle of the street, lazim a3arif shino ga3id iyfaker fee

Bader: 3yoon bader

Sindis: bader bas2lik so2al ohwa shwaya sudden bas lazim a3arif il answer

Bader: amray?

Sindis: abee a3arif do you like me ya3nee what am I to you?

Bader: intay min 9ijich ga3da tis2leenee hal so2al

Sindis: ee akeed min 9ijee

Bader: offcoarse I like you, I love you ba3ad

:o :o :o :o chithee kan my face, my heart stopped beating my eyes popped out of their place my stomache started to hurt. That feeling just amazing I never knew that a person could be that happy that relieved

It was mesmerizing just hearing these three words coming out of his mouth...... I ran up to him and Hugged him really tight just like a kid that found something she's lost

Bader: HAHAHAHAHA shway shway

Sindis: I whispered back I love you too

but i dont think he heard me which is better it's too soon for me to say it out loud I let go and we walked hand in hand our fingers interlocked and both of us had a smile plastered on our faces for the first time I was sure that I'm actually in love.

SORRY :(

2010-01-19T10:59:00.001-08:00

okay readers I'm actually really sorry for not posting in a really loooooooooong time bas safart o lama radayt kila kan fee monasabat fa wayed lowya o il7eeeen midterm exams faaa 7owsaaaaa inshallah inshallah awal ma a5ali9 I'll continue hal story 3ashan I start the next one ;D

o to all the bloggers that I usually comment 3ala their posts I'm sorry wallah for not commenting lately bas inshallah sooon

I love u ;*****
o sorry again ;(

New Year ;D

2010-01-01T00:38:00.000-08:00

Loooool the post ileee I wrote about new year didn't get published for some reason ;p

So awalan HAPPY NEW YEAR
O kil 3am o intaw ib alf 5air
Inshallah hal year itkoon kilha 5air 3alaykom o ayamkom itkoon kilha afra7 bafra7 ya rab
O I would like to thank u 3ala ur support wallah I wouldn't have done it without u ;***

Yallah everyone its 2010 enjoy it to the fullest o don't waste it 7abaybeee

love u ;*********

The End Of The Road (32)

2009-12-30T00:44:00.000-08:00

This is a post gabil la asafer as I promised o sorry no colors cuz I'm writing it on my phone ;p

Yousif: wallah hal Ali shakla Dowsh wa7id

Sindis: shlown?

Yousif: digay 3ala nooroo 5al itgoolich manee im5arib 3alayha her excitement wila agoolich ni6ray layn bilayl ihya itgoolich

Sindis: 5ala9 3ayal an6er washoof shino salfat.ha

Yousif: inzain yallah roo7ay il jam3a shmga3dich layl7een

Sindis: ee ok yallah baroo7 tabee shay?

Yousif: la salamtich bas take care

Sindis; inshallah I will o ana awal ma a5ali9 min uni ayeelik

Yousif: 7ayach ana bakoon ga3id

Sindis: hehehehe ok yallah bye

Yousif: bye

I left the room and closed the door behind me o I walked shwaya wila alga bader he was sitting 3ala one of the chairs shakla yan6er a7ad

Sindis: Bader shfeek ga3id ibroo7ik?

Bader: ga3id an6erich

Sindis: inzain laysh ma ni6artnee 3ind yousif

Bader: bas gilt a36eekom shwaya privacy o an6erich 3ashan mabeech itroo7een il jam3a broo7ich

Sindis: ee bas 3adee il jam3a month wayed ib3eeda

Bader: law la sama7 alla o 9ar shay wintay ray7a ibroo7ich mino biysa3dich 3ala il a8al ana akoon wiyach

Sindis: hehehe eee ok mashkoor wallah mala da3ee a9lan tan6irnee

Bader: imbala lah da3eee o yalla 5al namshee

Sindis: yallah

As usual we walked to uni kil wa7id attended their classes o ilyowm I got to see noor bil jam3a

Sindis: Noooooooor iygooloon mit6awra il 3ila8a ma3a ali

Noor: abaiiiih sando law tadreeen bas shino galee

Sindis: hahahahaha yallah goolay 5al nisma3

Noor: galee ina yabeenee o ib ya56ibnee min il yowm itha abee o ina ohwa he's serious o he's not playing around abiiih galee wayed ashya2 bas ana ma istaw3abt l2nee I was shocked

Sindis: ya7layla wallah jaree2 7imday rabich Nooroo ana bader 9arlee cham shahr wiya o ma galee wala shay madree ishsalfita

Noor: eee il7imdillah bas intay ni6ray 3alayh yimkin ohwa he's not good in showing his emotions yisti7ee

Sindis: na6ra youba na6ra 5o ana ishwaray an6er o amree lallah o bashoof shino a5rat.ha ma3ah

Noor: hehehe eee ni6ray a7sanlich

Sindis: waaaaay wallah I wish u all the best tistahlayn ya Noor wa7id nafs ali

ANOTHER POST SOOOOOON INSHALLAH O I'm SO SORRY INA ITS SHORT

True Story ;D

2009-12-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

Ok I'm thinking of writing a True story 3an wa7da I know bas she gave me all the details that I need to know in order to write a story ana I took her permission o she agreed so what do u think ?

P.S: its a Love story bas it's actually very interesting ;D

The End Of The Road (31B)

2009-12-27T13:18:00.000-08:00

Sorry 3ala il Delay ;p
Enjoy everyone ;****

Noor: .......

Ali: Noor shfeech goolay shay

Noor: abaaiih Ali madree shagool inta faja2tnee

Ali: adreee wallah bas ana I just wanted to clear things out 3ashan it3arfeen inee ana ga3id atkalam min 9ijee mo ga3id al3ab

Noor: mashkoor

Ali: 3ala shino ?

Noor: l2nik giltleee thank u wallah I really appreciate it

Ali:ana sawayt ilee gidart 3alayh o il ray bil nihaya rayich

Noor: Ali ana lazim afaker bil maw'6oo3

Ali: fakray bas please fakray 3adil l2nee shareech ya Noor

Noor: Adreee wallah o inshallah 5ayr

Ali: inshallah...inzain yallah mishayna

Noor: wayn?

Ali: il jam3a la we miss our classes

Noor: oh heheheh ee yallah

Wallah o kibart ib 3aynee ya Ali ya3neee ok gilna yimkin you like me bas inik you want me mara wa7da this I didn't expect at all.

SINDIS'S POINT OF VIEW:

I went to check on Yousif gabil la aroo7 il jam3a awal ma I arrived I knocked the door

Yousif: come in

Sindis: HIIIIIII ( I said it in a loud tone)

awal ma I entered the room wila alga Bader o a couple of guys ga3deen o ana dasha ga3da a9ari5

Sindis: oh sorry

6ala3t ibsir3a o 9akayt il bab my face was blood red min kither ma I was embarrised awal ma 9akayt il bab wila Bader yi6la3

Bader: sorry Sindis nisayt la agoolich ina il shabab mawjoodeen

Sindis: abaiih yal fashla Bader il7een ishbiygooloon 3anee

Bader: la shda3wa 3adee intay ma sawaytay shay '3ala6

Sindis: kilish dasha o ga3da a9ari5 chinee 5ibla

Bader: HAHAHAHAHA ishda3wa chinich 5ibla la wallah kan 3adeee inzain 3adee ta3alay a9lan Yousif yabeech

I entered the room with Bader o I was looking at the ground the whole time min kither ma ana miftashla

Sindis: il salam o 3alaykom

All: wa3alaykom il salam

Yousif: hala Sindis shlownich?

Sindis: ahlaiiin hala Yousif inta shlownik 3asa a7san

Yousif: ee il7imdillah wayed a7san

Sindis: il7imdillah

Yousif: agool sindis sha5bar Noor tara ana min ziman 3anha

Sindis: ee 3ala 6aree Noor dig 3alayha tawha ams ga3da tis2al 3anik

Yousif: ka il7een adig

Outgoing call

Noor: alooo

Yousif: hala wallah hala bilee lahya 3ana

Noor: allah iysam7ik ana ileee lahya wila inta ilee matdig

Yousif: la intay lahya wiya Ali o nasyatnee

Noor: hehehehe Yousif waaaaaaaaaay wallah iyanin

Yousif: hahaha ishlown?

Noor: iygool ina yabee ya56ibnee min ilyowm o ina he's not playing around

Yousif: ohwa mashallah iybayin 3alayh ina 5owsh wa7id

Noor: Yousif walaht 3alayk yallah mita ashoofik

Yousif: ana hal cham yowm amer 3alaych o abee ashoof hal Ali ilee itgooleen 3ana

Noor:inshallah ana agoola 3ashan u meet up with him

Yousif: ok 3ayal

Noor: ok bye

Yousif: bye

sorry :(

2009-12-25T13:07:00.000-08:00

Nawariii o to my readers ileee they're waiting for a post sorry adree inee I promised ineee I'm goint to write one bilayl bas wallah I can't inshalla tommorow ;*******

The End Of The Road (31 A)

2009-12-25T04:17:00.000-08:00

Noor: hii

Ali: ahlaaaaan

Noor: sorry 6awalt 3alayk

Ali: la 3adee ana a9lan tawnee wa9il

we sat down and I started looking through the menu, bas I swear I could feel him staring at me the whole time so I ignored his stares at first then I couldn't take it anymore

Noor: hehehe ali ishfeeek?

Ali: ha la mafeenee shay bas umm mashallah shaklich wayed 7ilo ilyowm

Ifff why did I have to ask il7eeen I'm blushing

Ali: ya7ilo ileee yisti7oon wallah

Noor: hehehe ali bas

Ali: shino ana ma gilt ila il 9ij.... inzain shino tabeen takleen?

Noor: la ana I'll just have coffee

Ali: inzain what about dessert

Noor: ok

He called the waitress and she took our orders we stayed quite shwaya ba3dayn we started to talk more about ourselves. After that they brought our coffee and dessert

Noor: haaaay l2

Ali: huh shino ilee l2 abee athoog

Noor: ali inta 6alib nafs my cake ikil min maltik

Ali: l2 maltich '3ayr

Noor: shlown?

Ali: l2nha maltich akeed bit9eer a7la o alath

looooooooooooool china wayed iy'3azil?

Noor: hahahaha Ali bas!!

Ali: shino?

Noor: bas la itgoolee chithee tara ana ma7ib chithee

Ali: Noor ana bakalmich ib 9ara7a

OMG allah yaster

Noor: itfa'6al?

Ali: bidooon ay laf o dawaran intay insana 3ajbatneee o ana mo i9'3eer ya3nee ana wa7id 3arif shino abeee o mabee ila intay... ana shareeech bil 7alal o itha tabeen ra7 akalim omee ta56ibich min ilyowm adree ur shocked o ma tiwa8a3tay inee agoolich kil hatha bas hatha il 9ij ya Noor

:o :o :o that's my facial expression

I know it's waaaaaaaay tooo short bas I wrote as I prommised o expect another one later on tonight ;D

The End Of The Road (30)

2009-12-24T01:08:00.000-08:00

When I first started the blog kint agool 7ag nafsee ina the story will end at the 30'th post cuz i thought ya3neeeee ollaaa shda3wa a9lan I'll be writing 30 posts bas I guess it wont be ending now fa we'll just have to wait and see ;p
O eeee whoever has a Winter break il7een Enjoy ;**

I spent the rest of the night chatting and giggling with the girls, ba3dayn I went took a shower then slept.

I woke up the next morning not by my alarm bas min iz3aj il banat bara so I quickly washed up then went to see what's wrong

Sindis: shfeeekom ish9ayer?

Fajer: HAHAHAHAHAHAH nooroo il 5ibla

Sindis: Noorooo shfeech?

Noor: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay sandooo dazleee msg iygoolee 9aba7 il 5air ya a7la Noor fil dinya

Sindis: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA intay min 9ijich!!!

Noor: eee sindis ya3neee ana bil nisba lah a7la wa7da bil dinya

Sindis: il7imdillah wil shiker o shino ya3neeee

Noor: ya3neee he likes me

Sindis: akeeeed he likes you a9lan ma iy7a9ila wa7da nafsich

Noor: hehehehe sindis tara asti7eee

Reem: waaaay mo layig

Noor: ismillah 3alay laysh mo layig

Reem: madree Noor kilish mo layig it7ibeen

Dalal: eee loooooooool nooorooo madreee a7isich mo now3ich 7ob o '3aram

lulu: 3ad Noorooo ma awa9eech deeray balich mina

Sindis: HAHAHAHA nooorooo allah iy3eenich 3ala lulu mo7a'6arat lay il ras

Lulu: hatha yizay ga3da an9a7ha

Sindis: la 9a7 kalamich ni97eeha o law3ay chabdha mithil ma lawa3tay chabdeeee

Reem: loooooooool lulu wa3alaya 6abaw feech

Lulu: shiftay shlown 5ayran ta3mal sharan tal8a

Fajer: ba3ad shitsaweeen nadree itmooteeen 3alayna

Lulu: yalla yallah thilfaw 3an wayheee kil wa7da habatlee it7ib o madree shino ana aroo7 ajabil dirasteee a7sanleee

Noor: ee wayed a7san

after all this chaos Iwent to my room got dressed and went straight to the hospital to check on Yousif.

NOOR's POINT OF VIEW:

3ogob ma 5ala9na min hal 7owsa I was going to meet Ali for coffee so I went to my room and I had my outfit ready from yesterday, I wore a dark knee length fitted jeans skirt with a colorful shirt and a pair of high heels and to rap it all up I wore a navy knee length coat since it was freezing outside, I also got my hair straightened and I was ready to go .

I left the house and went to selfridiges ako shiftaw il bags section ta7at akko fowgha a cafe iy6il 3ala il bags departement that's were I'll be meeting Ali.

So in 15 minutes I arrived he was already there looking gordgeous as always he was wearing a dark pair of jeans wiya 8amee9 baby blue it looked really good on him.

The End Of The Road (29)

2009-12-17T13:12:00.000-08:00

Ok ana tawnee rada min a Party that I really enjoyed il7imdillah o I'm in a really good mood so I'm writing a post as I promised

Enjoy Everyone ;D

After the 3 hours have passed Bader showed up carrying with him some bags

Bader: il salam o 3alaykom

Sindis: ahlan Bader wa3alaykom il salam

Bader: adree ti2a5art 3alaych bas I got us both some lunch intay ma ta'3adaytay 9a7?

Sindis: la ma ta'3adayt

Bader: yallah 3ayal hach nagay shino tabeen takleen

He brought everything Pastas, sandwiches, salads kilshay ya3neee ayshay that would cross your mind ohwa yayba

Sindis: Bader 7aram mino ib yakil kil hatha?

Bader: intay iklay il7een o ilbajee inwaz3a

We both ate silentley and once we were done I got up and washed my hands o I had to leave cuz as Dalal said I havent seen the girls in such a long time and I've actually missed them

Sindis: Bader ana lazim aroo7 il7een o inshallah bilayl ra7 ayey again

Bader: la latiyeen bilayl ana bag3ad o banadee cham wa7id min il shabab iyoon yig3idoon wiyana 3ashan ham itha gam Yousif iywansoona ishway

Sindis: ok 3ayal I'll see you bacher inshallah

Bader: inshallah

I took a cab and he dropped me Home I was actually so tired o I really wanted to know what's been happinig recently cuz I've been missing alot

Sindis: BANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT WAYNKOOOM??

Fajoor: SINNDDIIIIS yal maleeee8a walaht 3alaych

Reema: waaaaaaay ma a9adig ma ba'3ayna inshoofich

Lulu: eee wallah waynich kil hal moda??

Noor: abaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiih sindisoooooo wallah lazim agoolich 3anah waaaaay wallah 3athaaaaab 5ayaaal hal walad 5ayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal

Sindis: HAHAHAHAHAHA yalah gooleelee

Noor: ee ta3alay bas ta3alay gi3day 3ashan agoolich

So we all gathered up in the living room and Noor started talking about how Ali is such a gentleman o ishlown she really likes him and how excited she was about going on the trip with him

Noor: eee 3ala 6aree il trip wayn yousif wallah walaht 3alayh min ziman he didn't call me wala shifta

Sindis: ha eee ummm Yousif eee eee ohwa ummm tawnee 3ad shayfita

Noor: sindis ishfeech chithee tidowdahtay?

Sindis: la mafeenee shay bas 3ad ana tawnee shayfita

Noor: 9aber 5aleenee adig 3alayh

Sindis: LAAAAA2222

Noor: way bismillah laysh l2

Sindis: l2na Bader galeee ohwa wiya ib yityami3own wiya rabi3hom fa 5aleehom yistansown o bacher iy9eer 5air

Noor: 5ala9 3ayal adig 3alayh bacher... eeee nisayt la as2lich I packed 3 bags 7ag il trip kafee?

Sindis: olaaaaaaaaa intay min 9ijich shino 3 bags 7ag shino?

Fajer: ee il7imdillah wil shiker ma boga shay ma sharita o 7a6ita 7ag hal trip

Reem: eee loool wallah ma siwat 3alaych ya Noor

Noor: ba3ad shino 7a6aytlee 2 outfits 7ag each day 7ag kil day 7a6ayt an extra one 3ashan itha mathalan tidamar wila 9ar shay atleast I have back up

Lulu: il7imdillah wil shiker wallah madree ish9ar feech

Noor: law sama7tay 3an il '3ala6

Dalal: ihya ma i'li6at kil hatha 3ashan Ali

Noor: ee mo 3ajibkom 6igaw raskom bil 6owfa

Sindis: hahahaha haday haday ya mama tara there joking

Noor: ila ga3deen yit6anizown

Sindis: ( i wispered to her) youba 5aleehom mi7tareeen mo 7a9ilihom

Noor: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA il'6aher chitheee!!

Fajer: ya shagoool tara sima3tich ( and she threw the pillow on me)

We started laughing around talking about everthing but during that time I remembered Yousif so I texted Bader saying:

( Hi Bader shlown Yousif? gam wila layl7een?)

1 message recieved
( la kaho gam il7imdillah o mafee ila il 3afya inshallah :) )

1 message sent
(zayn ashwa il7imdillah ma galik il doc mita biy6al3oona?)

1 message recieved
(imbala gal by tommorow bilayl inshallah yi6la3)

1 message sent
(yallah il7imdillah l2na Noor badya it7atee fa please goola 5al iydig 3alayha whenever he can)

1 message recieved
(Inshallah agoola ;D )

1 message sent
( thank u o good night )

1 message recieved
(NP oo Good Night )

The End Of The Road (28)

2009-12-16T09:01:00.000-08:00

I know this is a short post as well bas il7een ba6la3 o I promise another one ya awal ma arid aw tommorow morning ;D
enjoy ;****

Bader: Sindis plz awal ma it5al9een ur classes call me ok?

Sindis: inshallah

Offcoarse Bader wa9alnee to my first class o Dalal had the same class as well

Dalal: SANNNDDOOOOO

Sindis: DALOOOOOOOL

Dalal: yal maleee8a walaht 3alaych waynich ??

Sindis: ana akthar wallah lahya ishway ( and I winked)

Dalal: shfeech?

Sindis: haw ma feenee shay!!

Dalal: tara wayed ga3da tig3ideen ma3a Bader ma gomna inshoofich anymore

Sindis: I know wallah I'm sorry bas 3a6ooney shwaya time o ba3dayn kil shay biyrid nafs awal

Dalal: il moshkila ina fashla min Reema yaya min Paris o you didn't even spend any time wiyaha

Sindis: 5ala9 inshallah I'll try my best inee I don't spend hal kither time wiya

Dalal: ee nisayt la agoolich

Sindis: Shino?

Dalal: waaaaiiiiiihhhhhh il '6aher Nooroo mitwal3a

Sindis: HAHAHAHAHAHA min 9ijich?

Dalal: ee wallah

Sindis: 3ad Ali shakla i7layw

Dalal: ee shakla 5owsh wa7id o ba3ad ma boga shay wiysafroon 7ag il project abaiih la itshoofeen ishkither mishta6a

The professor entered the class so we stayed quite. After that I attended the rest of my classes and once I was done I called Bader.

Outgoing call Bader

Bader: hala Sindis

Sindis: hala Bader tara 5ala9t my calsses

Bader: ok please ni6reenee 3ind il entrance

Sindis: ok

And we ended the call

I waited for a few minutes and there he was aprroaching me looking as handsome as ever, I didn't notice what he was wearing until for now, he was wearing a dark pair of jeans with a black top

Bader: yallah mishayna

Sindis: wayn?

Bader: intay mo bitroo7een 7ag Yousif?

Sindis: ee

Bader: ee ana bayey wiyach

Sindis: la inta roo7 il bait irta7 shway ba3dayn ta3al il 3a9er

Bader: la bayey wiyach min il7een wila agool intay roo7ay il bait ita7ay shway ba3dayn ta3aleelee

Sindis: la bader inta roo7 il bait il7een ba3dayn ta3alee il 3a9er o lama inta tiyey aroo7 ana 3ala il a8al iykoon fee a7ad wiya Yousif

Bader: inzain ana bas bawa9lich il7een o bat6aman 3ala Yousif o amshee

Sindis: ok yallah 3ayal 3ashan ma nit2a5ar

We went back to the hospital Bader stayed for a while then he left me alone with Yousif. I stayed there for 3 hours just reading Quran and I also had some assignments to do so I used that time doing them. Yousif didn't wake up during those 3 hours but the nurses kept coming and going every once in a while.

The End Of The Road (27)

2009-12-12T09:29:00.000-08:00

I know it's short bas hatha ilee gidart 3alayh so enjoy ;****** inshallah I'll be posting more these days ;D

It was Bader he didn't notice me coming in kan mindimij wihwa yigra
ya3nee why would he do such thing ohwa he's not close with yousif lay darajat ina yigra 3alayh o yig3ad wiyah 9ob7 o bilayl hal mawgif 5alah yikbar ib 3ayneee I really didn't expect him to be such a gentleman

Sindis: Bader shlownik?

Bader: oh hala Sindis sorry ma shiftich

Sindis: la 3adee bas min mota inta ihnee?

Bader: wallah ana yeet 3al 5:30

Sindis: ola yay imbacher tara wallah mala da3ee ita3ib 3omrik

Bader: ana gilt ayey at6aman 3alayh shwaya gabil la aroo7 il jam3a

Sindis: mashkoor ma ga9art

Bader: la itshakirayn ana mo ga3id asawee ila il wajib

Yousif was moving a bit and slowly he opened his eyes once he saw us sitting he smiled a weak smile he tried to talk but we couldn't hear him so he removed the mask that was covering his mouth

Yousif: ish9ar

Bader: allah iysalmik inta '3ishayt bil hotel o ta3abt ishway fa yabowk ihnee 3ashan iyti2akidown ina kil shay okay

Yousif: o ana min imota ihnee?

Sindis: min ams inzain yousif rid il mask il doctor galina may9eer itikalam wayed

Yousif: inzain ana mita ra7 iy6al3oonee

Bader: HAHAHAHAHA inta il7een 5al iyshoofik il doctor ba3dayn si2la

Sindis: ee 9a7 5al anadee il doctor iyey iyshoofik

I left the room and told one of the Nurses to inform the Doc that Yousif woke up. A few minutes later The doctor came

Doc: so Yousif how are you feeling now?

Yousif: I'm great so when can I leave?

Doc: HAHAHAHAHA don't rush we'll have to make a few check ups then we'll let you go

Yousif: ok then I'll just have to wait

Doc: please miss sindis can you both leave the room I would like to check up on Yousif

Sindis: oh yes offcoarse

Bader: yeah sure

We left the room and waited for a while until the doctor left he said that everything's going well so I was kind of relieved but I was worrying about the cancer issue ya3nee there's still no improvemet

Sindis: doctor what about the cancer?

Doc: we just had one chemo session so nothing shows yet their might be some improvements later on

Bader: shoofay insallah kil shay iy9eer a7san 3ogob

Sindis: inshallah, thank u doc

Doc: oh don't worry about it

gi3adna ana o Bader shwaya ma3a yousif ba3dain we had to go to Uni so we both excused our selves, I said that I'll be checking on him 3ogob ma a5ali9 my classes. Bader and I grabbed some coffe then headed to Uni we walked the weather was magnificant as usual

The End Of The Road (26)

2009-12-09T10:32:00.000-08:00

I sat on the side of the bed worried of what's gonna happen next, He didn't move a muscle nothing nothing at all my eyes started stinging me and it couldn't handle the tears anymore so slowly the tear drops slid down my face and landed on yousif's hand, suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder

Bader: mako ila il 3afya inshallah kaho ib 5ayr il7imdillah

I couldn't handle myself anymore I cried I sobbed He came closer to me and hugged me and I hugged him back he's there for me I thought to myself he's the shoulder that I want to cry on I want him to be my rock My bader

Sindis: Bader there's no hope in Yousif he's getting worse by the second 7atan il doc ga3id iygool

Bader: la ya sindis la itgooleen chithee hatha il shay beed allah o inshallah rabich ma iyga9er

Sindis: allah yisma3 minik inshallah

Bader: il7een 7atan Noor mara7 itgooleen laha?

Sindis: la bader I cant at least not for now

Bader: ilee iyray7kom sawoo ana manee mida5il ib shay malee shi'3el feeh

Sindis: hatha ilee Yousif yabeeeh o mabee a'6ayig 5ilga

We stayed a few more hours in the Hospital just to be sure that everything's ok Nothing changed Yousif didn't wake up he was still sound asleeep so we Bader dropped me off to the appartement and checked that i was fine then he went to his place.

Fajer: SANDOOOO ISHFEEECH

I broke down again in her arms all the girls gathered around thinking the worst they don't have a clue with what's going on

Lulu: BADER SAWALICH SHAY

Sindis: la wallah ma sawaleee shay

Reem: 3ayal ishfeech??

Sindis: mafeenee shay bas I'm just PMSing

Noor: sindisoo ga3da itchathbeen 3ala mino intay!! goleelina ishfeech yallah 5al9eena

shagoolich ya Noor agoolich ina 5ala9 yousif mako amal mina ina biymoot, wila agoolich ina 6ool hal moda kan fee cancer o ma gal 7ag a7ad '3ayree? a555 ya Noor bas law tadreeen shilee ga3id iy9eer chan ana mo ib hal 7al

Sindis: GILTLIKOM MA FEENEE SHAY BAS TA3BANA

Dalal: Sindis 7abeebtee itha ti7tajayn ay shay tara i7na mawjoodeen

Sindis: adree wallah adree bas sorry inee 9ara5t 3alaykom ana hal ayam im so stressed min everything

Fajer: la 3adee don't worry about it intay bas deeray balich 3ala 3omrich

Sindis: inshallah I will, inzain ana ta3bana banat baroo7 anam good night

I went to my room took a long warm shower to calm my nerves then I got under the covers and slept.. I woke up by the sound of the phone alarm beeping in my ear I switched it off got up went to the bathroom changed then headed to the hospital to check up on Yousif

Once I arrived at the hosptial I went straight to the doctors office knocked the door and entered

Sindis: good morning doctor

Doc: oh good morning miss sindis how are you doing today?

Sindis: I'm fine thank you, what about yourself?

Doc: Im great thanks for asking

Sindis: Doctor I want to ask about Yousif is there any progress or any improvements?

Doc: well yes he's doing rather great he'll be up in a few and everything's going as planned

Sindis: ok great thank u

After talking to the Doc I kind of felt a little better so I went to Yousifs room and once I entered guess who I found sitting in the corner of the room reading some Quran?

Tagged by 7aWoOry and Confessions ;D

2009-12-08T11:06:00.000-08:00

OK this is my first time ilee i get tagged o it's kind of exciting ;D
THANK U 7aWoOry o Confessions ;*

ok i"m gonna tag ALL my followers o commenters so who ever is reading ur tagged o plz do it it's gonna be fun :D

1- Whats ur fav Disney movie of all time?

Cinderella ;p for some reason I love her yimkin because i liked the fact that the fairy god mother came out of nowhere and all of a sudden Cinderella turned into this beautiful princess!!

2-Your favorite Disney song?

How does he know- Enchanted
I love this sond :D

3- Your top 3 favorite things to watch as a kid?

-Marocco
-al mu7a8i8 conan
-teletubies ( i used to think that i was dipsey cuz he's the second oldest ;p)

4- Your funniest badliya?

mara kint bas2al my cuz itha il canteen maftoo7 ihya she used to study ib America o ma abee as2alha in English fa giltlaha il mafta7 ma89oof ya3nee il ma89af maftooo7 ;$

5- The most creative way you can say "salam":

halaaaaaaaaaa o '3aaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

6- If you had to call your baby boy & girl American names, what would you choose?

if it was a baby boy I would call him Jack ( I'm in love with this name)
o if it was a baby girl I would call her Cindy

7- Your favorite teen actor and actress?

hmmm my favorite actor is Jackob Black ( 5ayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal)
o ma 3indee a favorite teen actress ;p

8- Top 4 visited websites

- facebook
-blogspot
-hotmail
-6rb.com

9- The youtube video you recommend the most?

anything that involve bonifa hanifa latifa sharifa jackson ;D

10- Do you say Shakar or Shakir?

I say shakir ;D

11- Do you play a musical instrument & what is it?

Unfortunately No

12- Who is the person you'd want to meet the most?

I would like to meet sayidna yousif because he's the most handsome gut ever fa curiosity is eating me up ;p

13- Your most prized possession:

my baby born o my teddy bears ( chithee gabil a couple of months my mom shaft.hom ina I still have them chan itgoolee ishtabeen feehom tara bagi6hom I cried giltlaha l2 abeeehom '3ashat 3alay min il '6i7ik)

14- The word " scrumptious" makes you feel?

somethings cut like a chubby kid

15- The song that reminds you of summer the most is?

Boom Boom Pow

I hope u enjoy doing this as much as I did ;*

o inshallah there's going to be a post bacher :D

The End Of The Road (25)

2009-12-05T11:10:00.000-08:00

I want to thank evryone who supported me 3ala inee I continue wallah it means alot
This is dedicated to:
M.T, N.A, Emnilia, Zaina, Queen bee*, Nawarii, Darliam, love drunk, o everyone who commented 3ala my previous posts
;****

So as usual I woke up changed and went to Uni, attended my classes then headed out with Bader to have some lunch, I absolutely loved the food and his company as well. Once we were done with lunch we went to the movies during the movie my phone rang disturbing everyone around us but i was shocked from the number that was flashing on my screen

incoming call:
Doctor Thomas

I picked up immediatley

Sindis: Doc is everything alright

Doc: unfortunatley not Sindis you have to come here immediatley

Sindis: you're scaring me what's wrong?

Doc: the hotel reported that yousif was found unconsious in his room so please come right now

Sindis: okay I'm on my way

Doc: ok

and I closed my phone

Sindis: Bader ana lazim amshee

Bader: 3asa mashar ishfeeekom

Sindis: Bader imsh wadnee ba3dayn agoolik

Bader: yallah mishayna

And I explained everthing to Bader and that no one could know anything and he understood I started crying because I was panicking ya3nee this isn't going too well with Yousif we arrived at the hospital after 10 minutes

Sindis: excuse me where can I find Doctor Thomas Jackson

Nurse: he's in the operation room

Sindis: WHAT WHY!!

Nurse: I'm not sure you'lll have to wait till doctor Thomsan gets out of the operation room then you can talk to him

Bader: mako ila il 5air inshallah

Sindis: Bader ay mako ila il 5air Yousif ma5theena 7ag il operation room o itgoolee mako ila il 5air

Bader: ee yimkin shay ba9ee6 allah kareem intay bas id3eela

We waited for 5 hours and there was no sign of the doctor he didnt leave the operation room the girls kept calling me and I kept on making some excuses for why I was late Bader 7araam stayed with me the whole time trying to comfort me

Sindis: ma 9arat 5ams sa3at wi7na nan6er ya3nee lay mota 5al iyey 3al a8al iy6amina

Bader: yimkin ma yigdar yi6la3 min il operation room ila laman iy5ali9

Sindis: excuse me

Nurse: yes maam how may I help you

Sindis: please I would like you to check on the doctor and see if everything's going well I want to know if Yousif's fine

Nurse: Ok I'll go and bring you some updates with what's going on

after 5 minutes she returned

Nurse: the doctor will be out in half an hour and he'll tell you everything

Sindis: but is everything alright

Nurse: I can't say anything the doctor will have to tell you

ni6arna 7ag half an hour chan yi6la3lina il doctor wa a5eeran

Sindis: Doctor how is he? is he fine? what went wrong?

Doctor: thank god everything's under control he fainted in his room and he bumped his head really hard on the floor which caused inner bleeding in his brain so we had to take him to the operation room and stop the bleeding immediatley

Sindis: and how is he now?

Doctor: he's perfectley fine

Sindis: thank u but can I see him?

Doctor: yes offcoarse

The nurse led me to his room wigaft bara bab il gorfa kint 5ayfa adish bil awal bas kan lazim at6aman 3alayh, the room was so quite all u can hear was the sound of the machines and his hard breathing through the mask, he looked so weak he looked so tired shakla kan iy3awer il galb his lips were purple, his hands were so cold, he had black circles under his eyes , his face was so pale he was laying there so still no one was around him he was all alone.

IS ANYONE READING???

2009-12-02T08:36:00.000-08:00

I have a question? is anyone reading my story ya3neee i have no feedback fa please abee a3arif 3ashan i either continue as planned wila i hurry up with the events 3ashan a5ali9 il story o i stop writing !!

fa please tell me what do u think
;**

The End Of The Road (24)

2009-11-30T03:13:00.000-08:00

i hope u enjoyed ur eid vacation because i did ;D
o enjoy everyone;***

Noors Point Of View:

I cant believe ina omee ri'6at ib kil sohola bas yimkin l2na yousif is coming with me hmmm bas ana ma giltlaha ina ra7 iyey wallah madree bas at least im gonna see Ali everyday for 2 weeks

I spent the whole night discussing what we're gonna do once we arrive there and i asked the girls what kinds of clothes should i take with me ya3nee mostly we discussed about the trip

Yousif: Nooroo tara intay ray7a 3ashan tadriseeen mo 3ashan tistansayn

Noor: ee adree bas ham i have to look good

Yousif: il7imdillah wil shiker intaw bas hatha ilee itfakroon fee shino talbisoon

Sindis: oooooh inta ma tadree shilsalfa

Yousif: hah shino ay salfa?

Fajer: Nooroo ma gilteela?

Nooor: weeee youif nisayt la agoolik

Yousif: youba 5al9oone shilsalfa?

Noor: shoof ana bagoolik bas la it3a9ib!!

Yousif: intay 5al9eena bas goolay

Noor: ana i like ali

Yousif: o min omita inshallah wintay it7ibeena?

Noor: ana ma a7iba ana i like him ya3nee yimkin its just a crush witroo7

Yousif: aha

Noor: shino ya3nee aha?

Yousif; ya3nee ana bashoof hal ali itha rayal san3 o zain ba5aleech 3ala ra7tich o itha 6ala3 mo 5owsh wa7id ra7 ab3idich 3ana

Noor: o laysh ma it5aleenee ana a8arir itha ohwa sha59 zain wila l2

Yousif: l2na hatha shi'3l riyayeel o itha tabeen tig3ideen wiya 5aleenee i take care of it

Noor: ok ilee iyray7ik sawa

Yousif: 5ala9 ana mashee tamroonee 3ala shay

All: salamtik

and he left ..

Sindis's point of view:

1 message recieved:
from bader:
( lich wi7sha waynich ma itbayneen wala tis2leeen)

1 message sent
( sorry wallah bas kint shway mash'3oola so goolee shlownik?)

1 message recieved:
from bader:
(tabeen il 9ara7a ana kilish mo zain 7adee ta3ban)

ougoing call bader

Sindis: aloo

Bader: 3ash min sima3 hal 9owt

Sindis: bader 3asa ma shar shfeek?

Bader: wallah law kint adrree ina ta3abee biy5aleech itdigeen chan kilyow ana ta3ban

Sindis: bader ismillah 3alayk mo zain itgool chithee

Bader: it5afeen 3alay

Sindis: mo 3an a5a 3alayk wila l2 bas mo zain il wa7id iyfawil 3ala 3omra

Bader: HAHAHAHAHA ana ra7 agi9 3ala 3omree wagool inich it7ateenee

loool 7aram digarta bas mabeee iy3arif inee i like him its too soon

Bader: ishfeech sikatay

Sindis: ma feenee shay bas mako shay agoola

Bader: gooleelee bacher ish3indich 3ogob uni?

Sindis: mmmmm ma a3ti8id ina 3indee shay

Bader: ishraych nit'3ada ba3dayn inroo7 film

Sindis: ok why not

Bader: 5ala9 3ayal its a deal

Sindis: bas bader 3ala shar6!!

Bader: intay bas amraay

Sindis: ma abee itsawee nafs last time itwadeenee asawee ashya2 it5ari3

Bader: HAHAHAHAHA ok ok bas awadeech 7ag lunch o movie

Sindis: ok 3ayal tamirnee 3ala shay?

Bader: abee minich 6alab

Sindis: tifa'6al?

Bader: la itsideen il telephone abee asowlif ma3ach

Sindis: ok

we stayed talking for 2 hours i swear i enjoyed talking to him it was like i knew him since forever i felt comfortable i wasn't nervous anymore

I slept felling so safe and warm it was a peaceful sleep

عيدكم مبارك

2009-11-25T10:44:00.000-08:00

3eedkom imbarak mo8adaman ;D o 3asakom min il 3aydeeen wil fayzeen inshallah, o inshallah yin3ad 3alayna o 3alaykom ib kil 5air o 9i7a o salama

love u;***

The End Of The Road (23)

2009-11-20T09:35:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry inee gimt a6awil these days but what can i do wallah there's no time
Enjoy ;*

Yousif: tabeen inroo7 nakil l2nee 7adee yow3an

Sindis: ee ok laysh l2

we left the hospital and went to a restaurant we ate and one we were done we headed to the appartement

Yousif: wallah walaht 3ala noor 9arlee sboo3 mo shayifha

Sindis: ihya ba3ad wayed walhana 3alayk

Yousif: bas ana 5ayif itha ri7tlaha chithee it7is o it3arif ina feenee shay Noor 3arfatnee 3adil

Sindis: goolaha inik layl7een imsawey rijeem

Yousif: amree lallah

I opened the appartements door hoping that noor wont sense anything

Noor: YYYYYOOOOOOUUUUSSSSIIIIIIIFFFFFFF(she came running and hugged him)

Yousif: hala hala bil '3alya

Noor: abaaiiih yousif shfeeek 9ayer chitheee shimsawee ib nafsik

Yousif: hahahahahaha la bas imsawee rijeem l2nee wayed simant

Noor: ola yousif 7aram 3alayk mo lay hal daraja 9ayer shakilik iy5ari3 chinik maree'6

Yousif: 5ala9 3ayal awagif rijeemee bas 3ashanich

Noor: Yousif i7lif ina ma feek shay

Shit she knows she deffinately knows that there's something wrong

Yousif: wallah ma feenee shay

Noor: l2na '6i3fik hatha mo nafs ay wa7id thanee hatha '6i3f mara'6

Yousif: la il7imdillah ma feenee shay o law feenee shay intay awal wa7da ib tadreen

Noor: ee ashwa o eee nisayt la agoolik 3indee a project bas lazem asafir 3ashana o my partner is a guy

Yousif: 8awiya shlown ib ti8ni3een omich

Noor: madreee 7awalt bil proff bas mo ra'6ee iy'3ayer my partner

Yousif: intay si2lay omich o shoofay bas mino ur partner

Noor: Ali Al -X

Yousif: kwaitiii ba3ad!! ana agool '3islay eedich

Fajer: HAHAHAHA eee 3adee ihya tis2al ish5asrana

Reema: eee 5al tis2al inshallah tir'6a l2na hatha her grade o ra7 itroo7 feeha itha 5altee ma ri'6at

Yousif: ana ayey wiyach ma 3indee ay moshkila bas ham lazem tis2leenha bas 3ad wayn?

Noor: florida

Yousif: olaaaaaaaaaa

Noor: eee 6a3 wayn imwadeena

Sindis: allllllllaaaaaaaaaaaah wanasa abeeee ayey

Reema: haman ana ma 3indeee wala shay

Fajer: laaaa may9eer ana ba3ad abey ayey bas ma agdar 3indeee a midterm

Noor: weeeeeeee 7asafa

Lulu: haman ana 3indee a test o a quiz ma itiraga3 7asafa

Dalal: ana ba3ad ifffffff may9eeer

Noor: WANASAAA BAROOO7 AS2AL MAMA

calling mama

mama: alooo

Noor: mamaaaaaaaaaaa

Mama: hala mama shlownich yowma

Noor: il7imdillah shlownich wallah i missed u wayed

Mama: ana akthar 7abeebtee

Noor: mama shlown baba o i5waneee

Mama: ib 5ayr il7idillah is2loon 3anich yoma shlown il dirasa wiyach

Noor: kil shay zain il7imdillah mama ana il7een 3indee a project o lazem insafer Florida 3ashan insawee my partner kwaiti isma Ali Al-X o madree mama itha tir'6ayn wila l2

Mama: la yoma roo7ay aham shay 3indee dirastich o itha ti7tajayn ay shay digay 3alay o ham 3indich 5alich ma ra7 iyga9er wiyach

Noor: THANK u MAMA WALLAH THANK U WAYED WAYED

Mama: il 3afo 7abeebtee bas ma wa9eech 3ala 3omrich o la it5aleen ay a7ad iy8i9 3alaych intee il7een mara o it3arfeen il 9a7 min il '3ala6

Noor: inshallah la itwa9een good night

Mama: good night 7abeebtee

and we closed the phone

Noor: MAMMMAAA RI"6AAT

Yousif: la zaayyn inzain mota il safra 3ashan nitjahaz

Noor: next weeek

Noor was so excited about the trip not because she's going to Florida but because she's gonna spend alot of time with Ali

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2009-11-15T09:50:00.000-08:00

Enjoy ;**

while we were talking i got a phone call from yousif so i excused myself to answer it

Sindis: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii yousif

Yousif: ahlaan sindis sha5barich?

Sindis: il7imdillah inta shlownik?

Yousif: ana b5air damich ib5air... agool sindis tara bacher maw3id il chemo

Sindis: ok inshallah bas il sa3a cham?

Yousif: il doc gal lazzem akoon 3inda at 3

Sindis: ok ana a5ali9 my class at 12 tabeee inroo7 mokan wila u pik me up min il appartement

Yousif: la a7san ni6la3 seeda min ur uni 3ashan noor ma itshoofna

Sindis: ee ok ana ma 3indeee ay moshkila

Yousif: 5ala9 3ayal amirich min il jam3a o nitmasha

Sindis: ok see you 3ayal tommorow

Yousif: inshallah bye

Sindis: bye

Bader had to leave cuz it was getting a bit late o mo 7ilwa ina there's a guy ib appartment kilha banat i walked him to the door

Sindis: wallah thank u bader ma ga9art

Bader: il 3afo o inshallah in3eedha mara thanya

Sindis: hehehe inshallah bas 3ad il mara il yaya shay mo lay hal daraja iy5ari3

Bader: 5ala9 ok yallah 3ayal ti9bi7een 3ala 5air

Sindis: winta min ahl il 5air..bye

I closed the door feeling so good about Bader and how much of a gentleman he was I went straight to my room l2nee kint wayed ta3bana I showered, brushed my teeth and prayed, and as soon as I layed down on bed i fell fast asleep

I woke up early cuz i had an early class ri7t seeda il bathroom tiwa'9ayt o 9alayt il fayer I prayed for the best I was actually nervous about what's going to happen with yousif then i got ready for uni i took my books and my purse ligayt fajoor na6ratnee bil living room with the breakfast ready

Sindis: alllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah reeeema intay imsawya il pancakes?

Reem: eeee

Sindis: waaay 3ad 9ij walhana 3alayhom

Reem: ee istaw3abt sawaytlich iyahom min kither ma 7anaytay 3alay hehehe

Fajer: Sindisoo yallah iklay la nit2a5ar

Sindis: ok intay kalaytay?

Fajer: ee il7imdillah tara 5ayaaaal il pancakes ana kalayt 2

Sindis: adree feehom malowt rayooom iyhabloon ma7ad iysaweehom nafsha

I ate, washed o ri7na ana o fajoor il uni 5ala9t my classes at 12 fajoor still had classes giltlaha ina lazem aroo7 ashtiree ashya2 7ag il appartement 3ashan ma itshik ib shay awal ma 6ala3t i got a phone call

incoming call Yousif

Yousif: hala sindis 5ala9tay

Sindis: hala feeek ee ana 5al9a

Yousif: ok l2nee ana bara

Sindis: eee ka shiftik yallah kanee yayatlik

Yousif: ok 3ayal

and i closed the phone and headed towards him I swear he scared me shwaya he's loosing a lot of a weight at a short amount of time

Sindis: hii Yousif shlownik

Yousif: hala wallah sindis ana tamam il7imdillah intay shlownich

Sindis: ana zaina il7imdilah.. Yousif tara u lost alot of weight!!

Yousif: adree lazem as2al il doc shilsalfa a5af Noor it7is

Sindis: ee goola 5al ya36eek vitamins wila shay

Yousif: yallah mishayna?

Sindis: yallah

first of all he took me to london eye
the view was spectacular the ride took us for about an hour and the next hour and a half we roamed around the city he took me to these new places that i never knew existed at about 2:30 we headed to the hospital i started to get nervous m hands were sweating my heart was beating i didnt know what to expect

Doc: hi yousif how are you feeling

Yousif: good I'm feeling good

Doc: so are you ready

Yousif: yeah i think so

Doc: so will you be companying him during chemo

Sindis: yes i am

Doc: is she the ur girlfriend cuz i have seen her coming with u before

Sindis: hehehehehe no i'm just a family friend

Doc: oh ok, come on lets get going now

he took us to this room where there was a medical chair that had some plugs attached and there were a couple of chairs filling the empty cold room after a few minutes the nurses came in and the attached some stuff on yousif and they started doing their own business I stayed with yousif the whole time it was difficult seeing him go through this but i stayed strong for him I kept talking non stop so that he wont get bored he told me some stories about him and Noor we laughed every now and then

Doc: ok yousif we're done

Yousif: at last

Doc: hahaha i'll see when ur next appointment will be and i'll inform u

Yousif: okay no problem thank u doc

Doc: umm miss sindis may I please talk to u

Sindis: yeah offcoarse ( shit )

we went to the docs office and a million thoughts were going through my head what might possibly go wron i thought

Doc: loook i have to tell u this and i'm not going to tell Yousif yet but u have to inform his family ok?

Sindis: ok doc please ur making me nervous

Doc: Yousif dosn't have enough time it would be a miracle if he lived for a year

Sindis: WHAT!!!!

Doc: please i've called u here so that he would spend the rest of the time he has with his family and friends

I couldn't take it anymore i ran from the doctors office into the nearest bathroom and I cried once again I cried for Yousif, I cried for the man who dosn't deserve any of this, the man who has always been there for his loved ones , the man that would give his life in order to make u happy, this is it for him in less than a year there wont be anymore Yousif no more him teasing Noor all the time No more silly jokes during the afternoon there's just no more YOUSIF

(gadar allah wa ma sha2 fa3al) i thought to myself

i stayed in the bathroom for half an hour crying my heart out he kept calling me but i didnt answer i just sent him a message informing him that i will be out in a second i looked at myself in the mirror thinking that one day that might be me in his shoes not knowing that i would die so soon I washed my face and left the bathroom my eyes were puffy my nose was red i looked misserable

Yousif: SINDIS SHFEECH ISHGALICH IL DICTOOR

Sindis: la yousif ma feenee shay il doc ma galee shay bas iksiraw 5a6ree il yahal i faked a smile

I felt so sad he came near me and hugged me and I hugged him back i really neaded it

Yousif: 5ara3teenee 3abalee feech shay... o i7na inshallah kil mara ib niyey ib tig3ideen tabcheen 3alay

Sindis: la bas a5er mara

i wanted to tell him so bad but i knew that it would make him devistated so I kept my mouth shut and prayed (3asallah iyshafeek )

The End Of The Road (21)

2009-11-13T02:02:00.000-08:00

This is a long post i think ;p
enjoy ;****
o thank u Darliam ,Dazzlin ,Nawarii,shushu,Queen bee*,glittery-butterfliez, for wishing me a happy birthday it meant alot wallah ;**

Sindis: hehehehe bader aaaaay tara infi8a9t

Bader: HAHAHHA ok 9aber 5aleenee afich kil hal asha2 3anich

Sindis: ok

he took all these stuff from me after a few minutes i was free

Bader: 3asa istanastay?

Sindis: wayed bader mo ishwaya ya3nee ma tit9awar ishlown i'm happy inee i did this

Bader: il7imdillah inzain yallah lets go change

Sindis: yallah

we went to the locker rooms i changed then i took out my mobile to check if i had anything wila there was 24 miscalls and 31 pings 6ab3an all from Lulu so i decided to call her

Calling Lulu

Lulu:ALOOOOOOOO

Sindis: aloo ishfeeech it9ar5een

Lulu: SHINOO ISHFEENEE A9ARI5 KINT GA3DA A7ATEEECH DO U KNOW CHAM MARA I CALLED O INTAY MA ITRIDEEEN???

Sindis: ana mo giltlich ineee ba6awil laysh it7ateen

Lulu: INTAY GILTAY BIT6AWLEEN BAS MO INA U WONT ANSWER MY CALLS

Sindis: lulu haday please kanee il7een ana ga3da akalmich o ma feenee ila il 3afya

Lulu: tadreen inee i called the police o giltlohom ina u were kidnapped

Sindis: CHAATHHAABBAA

Lulu: wallah !!!bas galowlee ina u have to be missing for 24 hours

Sindis: ee 24 hours mo 3 hours ya shagoool

Lulu: itloomeenee

Sindis: eee ya3nee ni6ray o showfay

Lulu: inzayn gooleelee ishsawaytaw

Sindis: lama ayey i'll tell u

Lulu: ok take care o please next time i call riday 3alay

Sindis: inshallah

Lulu: 5ala9 3ayal take care bye

Sindis: bye

i ended the phone call o ri7t ashoof if bader was done

Bader: 5ala9tay

Sindis: eee

Bader: yallah 3ayal mishayna

Sindis: ok , thank u john i really enjoyed it

John: oh no problem it was my pleasure

Bader: yeah thanks john i'll see u around

John: ur welcome and yeah offcoarse

Bader: tara ana mayit min il yow3 inroo7 inti'3ada?

Sindis: ee ok cuz haman ana yow3ana

he took me to this nearby italian restaurant that was stunning it was small yet so elegant the classical crystal chandeliers the traditional italian waiters

Waiter: how may i help u?

Bader: we'd like a table for 2 please

Waiter: this way please

the waiter pulled the chair for me in order for me to sit and i did and bader also sat down then the waiter came and lid the candles and handed us our menus, the lights of the restaurant were dimmed it was quite romatic

Sindis: allah the place is amazing

Bader: ee wayed 7ilo

Sindis: shlown dalaytah?

Bader: john galee 3anah

Sindis: aah ok

Waiter: are u ready to order?

Bader: sindis shino tabeen takleen

Sindis: madree shno 7ilo

Bader: their pizzas and pastas 7ilweeen

Sindis: ok i'll have margarita pizza (M this is for u ;p)

Bader: min 9ijjich cheese pizza!!

Sindis: eee a7ibha

Bader: la la i5thay shay thaneee

Sindis: 5ala9 i'll have cheese sticks

Bader: ya3nee il7een imsan3at.ha

Sindis: 3ayal shino a5ith

Bader: 5ala9 ana i'll order 7agich

Sindis: ok bas please la yi6la3 iylawi3 il chabd

Bader: we'll both take the lobster in cream sauce and for appetizers we'll have mozzorella cheese stiks a caesar salad and we'll also have the arrancheenee and we'll have a small size margarita pizza

Sindis: and fries please

Bader: HAHAHA and fries i'll have coke for drinks and she'll have a diet coke

Waiter: that's it

Bader: yes that will be it thank u

Sindis: bader mino ib yakil kil hatha

Bader: i7na

Sindis: Qa9dik inta

Bader: l2 i7na l2na intay min il 9ib7 ma kalaytay shay o ibtakleen kil ilee 6alabta

Sindis: ok inshoof

Bader: ok

they served the food and bader made me eat from everyhting

Bader: yallah hatha ba3ad 7ada latheeth ra7 ya3jibich

Sindis: bader bas banfijer

Bader: bas hathee a5er shay yallah tara ana mad iydee

i took the fork from his hand and forced myself into eating the lobster

Sindis: bas tara hathee a5er shay

Bader: ok 5ala9 bas kisartay 5a6reee

Sindis: eee allah iysam7ik gilt inee akil wayed bas 3ad mo lay hal daraja

Bader: HAHAHAHAHAHA 3awafeee yoba 3awafee

Sindis: alllah iy3afeeek

Bader: 5ala9tay tabeen namshee

Sindis: ee please l2nee wayed ti2a5art

bader waved his hand to infrom the waiter that he wanted the check, he paid the bill and off we went the ride back home was amazing bader joked around and I saw a different side of him he was actually white hearted he cares alot and i liked that about him

Bader: ka wi9alna

Sindis: thank u bader wayed ma 8a9art

Bader: il 3afo ma sawayt shay ana

Sindis: la wallah wanastneee min ziman ma istanasat hal kither

Bader: inshallah doom mo yowm

Sindis: tislam, bader tabee tiyey itsamlim 3al banat

Bader: la china mala da3ee a7rijhom

Sindis: la ma feeha i7raj ta3al wallah ib yistansown lama ingoolohom 3an il yowm

Bader: yallah 3ayal laysh l2

we went to our appartement wila all the girls started shouting and screaming awal ma dashayt

Fajer: SIIIIIIIIINNNNNNDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIS wallah walahna 3alaych

Noor: waaaaaaaaaaaay wallah lich wi7sha

lulu: mara thanya yawaylich in ri7tay mokan bidoona

Dalal: eeeeee mokanich imbayin

Reem: hatha wana walhana 3alaych itroo7eeen ti6li3een il yowm kila

Sindis: ola ola ola kil hatha l2nee 6awalt

Bader: il kil i7ibich ba3ad shinsawee

was that a hint wila shino

Sindis: hehehehe

Noor: sooo goloolee ishsawaytaw ilyowm

Sindis: bader agoolohom?

Fajer: eeee yalllah goolay 5al9eena

Bader: gooleelohm

Sindis: RIII7NAAA SKKY DIVIIINNNNNGGGG

Reem: CHATHABAAA!!!

Sindis: wallah

Lulu: waaaaaaaay ma 5iftay

Sindis: imbala ishwaya

Noor: alllllllllllaaaaaaaah wanasaaaaaa

sindis: eee 7ada

Dalal: tin9i7eeen?

Sindis: offff 7ada

Bader: banat shlownkom

All: il7imdillah

bader and I told the girls about today and they were more excited about it than me and Noor was introduced to Ali since she went to uni today with Dalal and who knows what might happen next

MY BIRTHDAY :D

2009-11-11T11:43:00.000-08:00

Today was my birthday ;D o i was planning on writing a post bas i got very busy o ma gidart so I'm so sorry l2nee 6awalt o inshallah i'll be posting tommorow
;***

The End Of The Road (20)

2009-11-07T09:04:00.000-08:00

I didn't think i will make it to the 20th post bas i DID to all my friends who supported me and to all my followers and commenters THANK U ;** this is DEDICATED TO ALL MY READERS

ENJOY ;** o who ever is reading plz comment 3ashan abee a3arif itha I actually have an audience wila l2

Sindis: la bader i swear a5af

Bader: it5afeen wana wiyach?

Sindis: eeee ya3nee hatha mo li3ib if anything goes wrong we'll die ya3nee what if the parachute doesn't open wila it gets stuck?

Bader: i7na we'll make sure ina everything's going to be fine

Sindis: bas bader wallah a5af

Bader: 3adeee it5afeen bil bidaya ba3dayn ib tistansayn

Sindis: inzain ana ma3arif wala shay

Bader: mo ila!

Sindis: shlown ya3nee amoot???

Bader: HAHAHAHAHA laysh itmooteen intay u'll be attached to me

Sindis: shino ya3nee?

Bader: ya3nee intay ib tit3aligayn feenee when we jump fa u don't have to do anything ana i'll take care of u

Sindis: oh!

John: okay now let's get changed

Bader: ok

so we went to change we wore the suite that covered ur whole body ilee china balasowt bas it had lots of things attached to it they gave us goggles i tied my hair up into a bun and i was ready to go.

Bader: yallah jahza?

Sindis: eee

John: u guys ready?

Bader: yup

John took us to the small plane i was so nervous i was actually freaking out we went and sat down on the planes floor there were 2 guys with us that knew what they're actually doing

Bader: I swear ur gonna like it

Sindis: I hope so

John: OK GUYS GET READY

bader attached some stuff on my suite and tightened them and he made sure that it wasn't lose we were really close to each other we were actually stuck to each other i could feel his breaths on my hair i could hear his heartbeats on my back and his hands brushing my hands once he moves them his smell was heart melting OH GOD his smell was i dont actually know what it was it was just simply amazing

the doors opened DA DA DA DAAAAA

Bader: awal ma u see the green light goes on it means ina lazem we jump

one of the guys ilee kan ma3ana jumped before us

we walked shwaya and stopped right infront of the opened door the wind kept pulling us but Bader was standing still and he was holding on to the pole near the door the view was breathtaking the ground was in different shades of green and beidge and in the far end there were tall brown remarcable mountains but the distance was FREAAKY

Sindis: bader please 5ala9 ma abeee hawant

and i tried to pull away bas ma gidart i was stuck

Bader: shino ya3nee hawantay !!5ala9 mafee rada

Sindis: inta u can jump alone ana ma abee please bader mabeee

Bader: wallah ib tistansayn

Sindis: mabee astanis bas please 5alna inrid il bait

Bader: la wallah 3ogob kil hatha!

Sindis: ee 3adee

and the green light went on

John: COME ON JUMP

and bader pushed me out of the door

Sindis: AAAAAAAAAAAAArAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

i had my eyes closed and the only thing that i could feel was the cold wind hitting my face and i could feel my hair slowly get lose then it was all over the place from the hard wind

Bader: open ur eyes

Sindis: mabee a5aaf

Bader: intay fit7eehom o shoofay

and i did I was glad that i opened them cuz the feeling was priceless

Sindis: thank u

Bader: 3ala shino

Sindis: for forcing me to do this

Bader: ur welcome

we did a few spins and turns while we were still in the air then he pulled the rope so that the parachute would open and it did and we were pulled slightly upward from the wind

Bader: WOOOOHHHHOOOOO

Sindis: WOW

Bader: ee wallah wooow, ma it9adgeen ishkither ana mistanis

Sindis: ishkither?

Bader: shiftay hal mountain ilee ihnak

Sindis: eee

Bader: shiftay ishkither il distance wayed hatha wala robi3 wanastee

i was embaressed

Sindis: tadreee ina this is the first time ilee a9eer physically close to any guy

Bader: 9ij?

Sindis: wallah

John: GUYYYSSS LOOK AT ME

we turned around and he was holding a camera and took some pics of us

I then realized that there was a guy near us who had a video camera the tiny one that the sky divers usually have stuck on their sleeve

Sindis: abaaaaiih bader!!

Bader: shino ishfeech???

Sindis: hatha il guy is recording us o ana kan shaklee iyfashil awal ma we jumped

Bader: HAHAHAHA hatha ilee hamich shaklich!! o ba3ad fee hatha ilee fowgna ga3id iy9awer ib his video camera inzaiiin intay bas relax o enjoy

and i did it was one of the best days in my life i never thought i would sky dive and here i am sky diving with the hottest guy ever o he's even attached to me

Bader: shoofay il7een we're gonna land intay rif3ay reelich 3ashan ma it7oosh il ar'6 o ana bawagaf ok?

Sindis: Ok

we were getting closer to the ground and i did as i was told and he took put his legs out o he bent lay wara shwaya 3ashan he stops us from moving and a few seconds later we fell min 8owat il wind bas our fall was funny he tripped from a rock o ana nazalt reelee bil '3ala6 o suddenley we were laying there on the bright green grass laughing our heads off

if could just stop time and enjoy every moment of this day

The End Of The Road (19)

2009-11-02T10:51:00.000-08:00

Nawarii I'm so sorry ur comment got erased bidoon 8a9d bas il comment thingee 3ala8 3alay o 9arat 7owsa :(

I hope inee ma 6awalt 3alaykom bacher 3indee relegion midterm o ana I'm writing a post ;p so enjoy

Bader: just wait and see

Sindis: give me a hint ya3nee il mokan iywanis,7ilo shino bil'6ab6

Bader: ana giltlich just wait and see

Sindis: ok

we went to the unis parking because we're taking Baders car he came to my side opened the door for me i sat in the passengers seat and he closed the door after me and went and sat at the drivers seat he started the engine and off we went

we passed by malls then highways then came the farms which u can see some lambs wonderings around and the cows eating the hay and the horses running in their stables the ride was amazing with bader he atually had good taste in songs I got to know about his family he has 2 brothers one older and one younger than him he also had 2 younger sisters

I didn't think about where we were going because i enjoyed his company but the ride was a bit long so i texted the girls

Ive sent a bbm to the girls we had a convo wich included all 6 of us

Sindis;* says:
banaat i'll be late ok?

then my phone vibrated indicating a call

incoming call Lulu

Sindis: aloo

Lulu: shffech laysh ur gonna be late?

Sindis: bas l2na ray7een mokan b3eed

Lulu: o hatha wayn imwadeech ba3ad!!!

Sindis: madree layl7een

Lulu: shino ya3nee madree sindisooo deeray balich laysawee feech shay

Sindis: hahahahahahaha ishda3wa i7na ib film wana madree?

Lulu: la 7abeebtee ma tadreen tara il riyayeel iy5ar3oon

Sindis: laaa laaa mo lay hal daraja agool lulu akalmich ba3dayn ok?

Lulu: ok bas itha 9ar ay shay wila tabeen ay shay call me

Sindis: ok i will thank u yallah bye

Lulu: byeee

once i closed the phone wila i see it flashing indicating a new bbm

Fajoora says:
laaayysh ur gonna be late ?

Dalooola says:
ee laysh?

Sindis;* says:
l2na bader biywadeenee mokan madree wayn o its a bit far fa i think i'm gonna be a bit late

Reema :***says:
shlon ya3nee!! he didn't tell u where ur going

Sindis;*says:
no :s

Noor;p says:
eee yoba stansay ga3da ma3a il 7abeeeb

Sindis: haaaaaaaaay intay ishga3da it5arbi6eeen la 7abeeb wala shay

Noor;p says:
ok ok 5ala9

Sindis;* says:
inzayn yallah i gtg ttyl girls ;***

7asayt nafsee inee ma9a5t.ha bil bbms fa gilt fashla

Bader: wayed indimajtay bil bb

Sindis: hehehehe eee il banat kanaw ga3deen iysowlfoon ma3ay

Bader: ya7laylhom il banat wallah iywansoon

Sindis: ee i know magdar a3eesh bidoonhom

Bader: 3asallah iy5leehom lich inshallah

Sindis: tislam ma ga9art

Bader: ka wi9alna

and he parked in an empty place in the middle of no where there was just a huge place where they put the small airplanes in them

Sindis: shino hatha bader???

Bader: nizlay wana agoolich

so i got out of the car and he walked in front me and i followed

Guy: ohhhh Bader how are u?

Bader: haaay john i'm fine how are you

John: I'm great so are u for that jump

Bader: HELL YEAH oh yeah john this is sindis or cindy she's the girl i've told u about

awww he called me cindy

John: that's her wow she really is pretty

I was so emabrissed ya3nee kint ib maw8if mo7rich o he's been talking about me?

Sindis: so what are we doing here?

John: u didn't tell her?

Bader: No i was gonna make it surprise

Sindis: u didn't tell me what?

Bader: we're gonna sky dive( he said that with a wide smile drawn on his face)

Sindis:hehehehehehe that's a good one

John: a good what?

Sindis: a good joke

John: no he's bloody serious you know

I panicked

Sindis: No I'm not going to sky dive u are

Bader: we both are

OMG i've never done that before

The End Of The Road (18)

2009-10-30T15:26:00.002-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN :D

This post is dedicated to all my commenter and followers I really appreciate ur comments and support ;* o eee there's a new character ;D this is a loooong post ;p

I woke up hearing some noises outside my room so I went to the bathroom washed my face and brushed my teeth and decided to see what's going on wila all the girls are argueing about some guy i think

Fajer: wallah iyhabel

Lulu: waiiiiiiiiiii3 shino iyhabel hatha ilee china hindee madree shlown 9ayer iyhabel?

Fajer: siktay siktay allah iy5aleech roo7ay shoofay tho8ich awal ba3dayn ta3alay kalmeenee

Dalal: ana agool ina 3adeee ya3nee he's just ok mo HOT!!

Noor: la wallah he is HOT ishtaboon akthar min hal jamal

Reem: 9ij ohwa wayed 7ilo

Fajer: eeeee 3ashat Nooroo o reeem 7ada iyanin ana ma shift wa7ed mithla

Lulu: tara wallah ga3deeen itbal'3oon shino iyanin o iyhabel iylawi3 il chabd o sheefa

Dalal:HAHAHAHAHAHAHA luluwooo shda3wa 3alaych

Sindis: banat shilsalfa?

(6ab3an they all ignored me cuz kil wa7da ga3da it9ari5 min 9owb)

Fajer: haaaaaaay intay 7adich 3ad shino sheeefa intay 3amya ma itshoofeeeen

Sindis: banaat!!( and they ignored me once again)

Lulu: la wallah mo 3amya bas il nas athwa8 o intay thow8ij il7imdillah wil shiker madree shlown 9ayer

Noor: lulu ana bawareech iya 3adel o ba3dayn goolay itha thow8ha 7ilo wila l2

Sinidis: BAAAAAAANNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT

Fajer: way bismillah ishfeech

Sindis: 9arlee sina wana anadeekom ishfeeekom it9ar5oon u actually woke me up

Lulu: ta3alay shoofay il 5awat Fajooor o noooroo o reemoo im6al3eenlee wa7id madree min wayn o iygooloonlee " waaay iyahbil iyanin ma shift wa7ed mithla" (mimicking their voice)

Fajer: lulu shut up okay!!

Lulu: shino shut up intay ilee shut up mooo ana

Sindis: haay haay hadaw balkom inzain mino hatha?

Fajer: sindisooo wa7ed ma3ana bil jam3a awal mara ashoofa 5ayaaal 3athaaaab naaaaaarr

Sindis: wana waynee ma shifta?

Noor: intay lahya ma3a il 7abeeb ma itfakreen ila feeee

Sindis: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ay lahya ma3a ila madreee 3ana

Noor: ee ee gi9ay 3alayna

Sindis: wallah il 3a'6eem madree 3ana

Lulu: inzain intay when is ur lunch wiya?

Sindis: he'll meet me after class at around 2:45

Lulu: mmmm ok

Sindis: weeeeeee lazem I go shower yallah yamdeenee

so i went to the bathroom took a long warm shower and then did my hair into big natural waves and applied some simple make up then changed into my new outfit I wasn't confident I dont know if Bader would like it or not

Once I was done with everything I grabbed my bag and books and went to the living room to wait for Dalal so we could go to uni together

Noor: yah yah yah yah ish hal zaiiiiiiiin

Sindis: heheheheheh 9ij 3ad shaklee 7ilo

Reem: ityanineeeeen

Sindis: aww thank u

Dalal came out of her rooom

Dalal: ALLLLAAAH SHAKLICH 7ADA IYSHAWIG

Sindis: waaaaaayyyyyyh madree laysh a7is ina shaklee iylawi3 il chabd ifff!!

Noor: wallah ityanineen

Sindis: mashkoora 7abeebtee inzaiin dalool 5ala9tay lazem namshee we're late

Dalal: ee yallah lets go

we went to uni walking cuz it was just across the street and we enjoyed our walk i love londons weather each day is a surprise you never know what to expect one day its sunny the other is cold and that's what i love about it

Dalal: SINDISSOOO

Sindis: na3am ishfeech?

Dalal: hatha ileee il banat ga3deeen yithawishown 3alayh ilyowm

And boy he was HOOOOTTTT what can i say about him he was tall like tall tall maybe 190cm and his hair was a bit long but it looked good on him and he had a straight nose wide brown eyes he was PERFECT he was walking our way chan ana owgaf o atani7 ib wayha madree ish9ar feeneee

Dalal: sindisoooo fashalteena 3asallah iyfashlich yallah 5aleena inroo7 class!!

he stopped right infront of and faced us

Guy: oh mar7aba shlownkom ana asif bas sima3tkom titkalamoom ma3a ba3'6 o fakart akeed into 3arab

Dalal: eee we are

o ana still imtan7a ib wayha ya waylha Lulu mineee

Guy: ana tawnee yideed bil campus o manee 3arif wayn 9af il finance

Dalal: 5ala9 ta3al ma3ay ana i have finance il7een

Guy: 9ij wallah 5ala9 3ayal ayey ma3ach a7san umm nisayt la a3arifkom 3ala nafsee ana Ali alX

Dalal: tisharafna o ana dalal alX

Ali: ahhhhh wil ni3im waaallah madre bas it3arfeeen khalid alX

Dalal: ay khalid feehom?

Ali: khaled salman alX

Dalal: hehe hatha my cousin

Ali: la wallah

Dalal: eee wallah wild 3amitee

Ali: hathee rifeej 3omreeee

Dalal: sindisoo ya shagool tikalimay (whispering)

Sindis: uhhh umm hii ana sindis al flani

KILL ME NOW

Ali: wil ni3im sindis

Sindis: allah yin3am ib 7alik OMG ti2a5art 3ala my class I'm sorry Ali bas talk to u soon

Ali: ee inshallah bye

classes were so boring i swear i couldnt wait until it was 2:45 and there he was my prince charming or is it too soon to call him MY prince charming

Sindis: hiii bader shlownik?

Bader: hala sindis ana tamam intay shlownich

Sindis: il7imdillah

Bader: ha jahza mishayna?

Sindis: ee yallah

while we were walking I saw ali so i decided to say hi

Sindis: oh hii ali shlownik

Ali: hiii sindis il7imdillah

Sindis: ha dalayt il class

Ali:ee wallah wa a5eeran dalayta ishda3wa chithee mad3oos

Sindis: hehehehehe eee ohwa wayed ib3eed so how was it?

Ali: wallah not bad at all

Sindis: oh ali this is bader alX, bader this is ali alX

Ali: hala wallah bader shlownik?

Bader: ahlayn hala inta shlownik?

Ali: il7imdillah

Bader: sindis mishayna

Sindis: ee yallah ok yallah bye ali

Ali: bye

Bader: mino hatha?

Sindis: he's a new student o ma kan iydil his classes fa Dala showed him

Bader: ahh ok o Sindis laysh kash5a?

SHIT am i overdressed?

Sindis: ana mo kash5a ( acting stupid)

Bader: ee l2na gilt abee awadeech mokan ma yabeela talbiseen tanoora wila agoolich imshay 5an roo7 nishtireelich a training suite

Sindis: uuuum ok?

we went to the first shop that we saw and i picked out a cute training so i tried it on

Sindis: what do u think?

Bader: shaklich wayed 7ilo

I blushed 3ishtaw i never i mean NEVER blush infront of a guy

Sindis: mashkoor

i kept it on but took the labels off so that i would pay for them and once I reached the register

Bader: intay shitsaween?

Sindis: ana shino ishsawayt?

Bader: la wayn ray7a?

Sindis: ray7a badfa3!!

Bader: min 9ijch tidfi3een wana mawjood

awwwwwwwww isnt he the sweetest

Sindis: ee l2na ana ileee imnageeta

Bader: sindis ma ra7 tidfi3een wala shay

Sindis: bas bader ma iy9eer

Bader: ana ma ar'6aha 3ala 3omree

Sindis: bas wallah mo 7ilwa ina inta ilee tidfa3

Bader: sindis please gi3day o ma ra7 tidfi3een madam ana wiyach

so i went and sat down and he actually paid for the training and I thanked him for like a million times o he kept on telling me that mala da3ee i thank him

Sindis: so where are we eating lunch?

Bader: we're not gonna eat lunch

Sindis: ha 3ayal!!!!!

Bader: bawadeech mokan ma a3ti8id ri7teela min 8abel

SIndis: wayn?

Bader: just wait and see

The End Of The Road (17)

2009-10-24T12:33:00.000-07:00

I'm so sorry i was sick last week o i couldnt write anything bas now i feel much better
so this is a long post for u guys
enjoy;*** o hope u like it

Everyone went to their rooms either to get their purses or to add some final touches once everyone was ready we went to the garage and took my car for change and we headed to nights bridge I found a parking right besides the main door and parked my car switched the engine off and entered Harvey nichols

Door man: good afternoon maam

Sindis: hello good afternoon

Jannete: aaaaah miss Sindis welcome it's so nice to see you oh hii girls how are you all doing

Sindis: Hi jannete please I want you to show me the latest collection

Noor: yeah jannete and we need it to be sexy

Jannete: oooooh is it for a special someone

Noor: yeah it is

Jannete: okay i've got just the right thing for you

we went and sat on the couches while Jannete has went to the stock room where all the clothings were

Jannete: now these stuff arent even on display

Fajer: that's even better

Sindis: okay let me see them

then came two other women who were carrying different kinds of dresses and clothes and they layed them on the empty couch so that I could see them, the first thing I saw was a black beaded short dress that had long sleeves it was beautiful so I decided to try it on I got into the dressing room and put it on but i thought that it was too revealing and the girls thought too so I put on another dress which didnt look good and so on until I setteled for a bit puffy black chanel skirt with a white chanel shirt tthat had pearls on the neckline and had I decided to wear electric blue high heals with a matching clutch I looked classy yet modern the girls were head over heals for my outfit I felt sexy myself and I loved the feeling so I took off the outfit I was ready

Sindis: I'll take it jannete

Jannete: ok miss sindis I'll take it to the register for you would you like to pay it in cash or k-net

Sindis: cash

I paid and everything and now it was time for the girls to shop they were all around the place kil wa7da itnadee il thanya min 9owb o jannete yabay kil il new collection ilee kanaw bil stock room o nagaw and I swear it's so much fun when u shop with the girls cuz all of them have style but each has her special touch in the end which makes her a bit different from all the others we finished everyone paid and then we headed to the salon so we could get our nails done

Suzy: oh hi girls we've got everything ready for you ohh and reem it's been a long time how've you been

Reem: hi suzzy yeah ive missed this place and i'm fine how are u?

Suzy: I'm great so are u guys ready?

All: yes

we sat down and got our nails done i've painted my nails blood red wich looked amazing and reem got a french manicure,lulu's nails were the natural pink color, Noor had the bright pink nails going on, dalal's nails were maroon, fajer painted her nails white we enjoyed our manni's and paddi's we didn't have anything to do so we decided to go eat some dinner we called yousif to join us I hope everythings going well with him because im really worried about him

we all sat around the table and then yousif joined us

Yousif: al salam 3alaykom

All: wa3alaykom al salam

Noor: hala 5alee shlownik?

Yousif: halla Noor tamam intay shlownich

Noor: ana ib 5air il7imdillah 5aleee ishfeeek chithee '6a3if o wayhik 7ada ta3ban

Yousif: eee imsawee rijeem o kint shway maree'6 bas il7een il7imdillah 9ir a7san

Noor: akeed ma feek shay itha feek nigdar inwadeek il doctor

Yousif: la la ma yo7taj ana ri7t o galee ma feenee shay

Noor: mmm ok

he came and sat right besides me

Sindis: shlownik yousif?

Yousif: ahlaain sindis il 7imdilla

Sindis: (whispering) when's ur appointement

Yousif: on friday laysh intay bitiyeen?

Sindis: ee akeed!!

Yousif: tara wallah mala da3ee

Sindis: l2 ana bayey ma 3indee shay asawee fa bayey wiyak

Yousif: kayfich ilee ray7ich

Noor: intaw ish3indikom ga3deen itisasirown

Sindis: ga3deeen in7ish feech

Noor: aha (giving us a weird look)yousif min 9ijkom

Yousif: la 3ad kilish wala noor bas fee salfa baynee o bayn sindis

we finished dinner and then we went home I was so tired i took a shower changed and layed on bed thinking about tommorow when my mobile beeped

1 message recieved
from: Bader
( bacher 3ala wa3adna?)

1 message sent
(eee inshallah)

1 message recieved
(manee gader a9ber layn iy9eer bacher)

ya3nee what do u repy 3ala such thing

1 message sent
(shda3wa!!!)

1 message recieved
(wallah il 3a'6eem law bas tadreen)

1 message sent
(inshallah badree bacher)

1 message received
(inzain ma gilteelee mota ur classes iy5al9oon?)

1 message sent
(at 2:45)

1 message recieved
(ok 5ala9 3ayal i'll meet u then)

1 message sent
(ok good night)

1 message recieved
(good night ;*)

by now I'm freaked out about tommorow it's actually my first time going out with a guy except for my cousins and yousif ya3nee ,what will he think of me? what will we talk about? is he boring or is he fun to be with? wallah madree i'll have to wait and see until tommorow and with all those thoughts going through my head I drifted to sleep

The End Of The Road (16)

2009-10-16T14:22:00.000-07:00

I was listining to this song while writing madree ish6ara 3alay loool http://www.6rb.com/songs/37581.html
i wrote it gabil la a6la3 o i posted it awal ma radayt cuz ma gidart
so enjoy ;D

He took me to the appartement o ti6aman inee di5alt da5el and then he left. I headed straight to my bedroom ri7t tiyadadt o 9alayt and I prayed like there's no tommorow "ya rab itshafee wit3afeee" i kept repeating that phrase over and over again i finished from praying took of my thowb and folded it neatley then layd it on my praying mat and also folded it and left it at the same spot. I remebered that Reema was here to visit us o unfortunateley I didn't spend alot of time wiyaha so ri7t ashoofha.

I left the room wila mako a7ad bil living room so i decided to go check in Reema's room

Sindis: hiiii reeemaaa

wila all the girls mityam3een 3indaha

Sindis: oh hi banat ish3indikom mityam3een 3ind Reema

Noor: ta3alay shoofay shino wi9alich ilyowm

Sindis: oh shino???

Fajer: eeee ta3alay

Sindis: inzayn inzayn

di5alt her room o gi3adt on her bed o gamaw Reema o Dalal o they came in pushing a wrapped box that had a ribbon on top it looked so cute but it was big so I rushed o I opened it wila kil anwa3 il kitchen supplies I laughed so hard I knew who it was from and there was a card placed on top of the ribbon wich said

"this is so that next time you'll cook you can use them
Bader"

I swear I don't know what's up with him and gifts he keeps sending me these stuff but it's kind of cute that he actually did that

compose message:
To:Bader
thank you 3ala kil hatha I swear a7rajtnee

Incoming Call
Bader

I answered 3ala 6ool

Sindis: alooo

Bader: alooo

Sindis: umm hala bader shlownik?

Bader: ana ib5ayr dam inee sima3t 9ootich

Sindis: .........

Bader: intay shlownich?

Sindis: zaina il7imdillah umm bader mashkoor wayed 3ala il kitchen supplies

Bader: hahahaha i3jibooch?

Sindis: eee wayed 7ad.hom iyshawgoon 9ij thank u

Bader: il 3afo hatha 3ashan kil ma ishtahayt machboos ti6bi5een feehom

Sindis: hehehehehe ya3nee inta wathi8 ina kil mara ib tishtihee machboos basaweelik

Bader: eee ha 3ayal

Sindis: 5ala9 okay tistahil

Bader: 9ij 3ad astahel?

Sindis: haa ee ya3nee umm eeee

Bader: hahahahahahaha ishfeech tidowdahtay

Sindis: ana!!! ma tidowdaht wala shay bas l2na noor ga3da it2theenee

Bader: eee ok inzayn can I see u bacher 3ogob ma it5al9een ur classes

Sindis: ee i guess bacher ma 3indee shay Bader: okay 3ayal see u then

Sindis: inshallah bye

and we both hung up awal ma I closed the phone wila il banat ya'3shoon min il '6i7ik

Sindis: ABAAAIIIIIHHHH INTAW IHNEEE NISAYYT !!!!O BAS LA TI'67IKOOON!!

Noor: hahahaha ishfeech chitheee tidowdahtay wintay itkalmeena

Sindis: ma tidowdaht wala shay

Reema: sindisooo mo 3alayna yallah goolay ishgal

Sindis: wallah ma gal ana ilee '3ala6t

Reema: hahahahaha laysh ishgiltay

Sindis: ohwa gal kil ma ibyishtihee machboos yabeenee a6ba5la chan agoola bil '3ala6 3ad inta tistahel

Noor: 3ad wallah laygeen 3ala ba3a'6

Sindis: haaaaaaaaaay shino laygeen 3ala ba3a'6 tara ma 9ar shay

Noor: 3ayal laysh ur gonna meet him bacher??

Sindis: abaaaaiiiih it5ar3een ishdarach

Noor: ya3nee ga3da itgooleenla bacher ma 3indee shay akeed ur gonna meet him wila at least see him

Sindis: eee I am

Lulu: inzaiin 3ad deeray balich Sindis mo iygi9 3alaych

Sindis: waaaaaiiiiiiihhhhhh Lulu radayna

Lulu: l2 ana bas ga3da agoolich

Sindis: inshallah I will take care ag9a lunch

Lulu: ee awal shay lunch ba3dayn movie ba3dayn lunch o movie ba3dayn 3ad Romantic dinners o iygi9 3alaych bil 7achee ilee mala da3eee o iygoolich ina ur the one while he said to a bunch of other girls '3ayrich which he has definately broke their hearts

Dalal: ola ola ola Lulu ishfeech sawayteeha gi9a bas ibtakil lunch wiya il rayal

Lulu: la ana bas ga3da agoolaha

Sindis: thank you Lulu wallah i appreciate it bas why not give him a try

Dalal: 7abeebtee ma 3alaych minha il 7ayat 7ilwa enjoy o ma 3alaych bas awal ma it7iseen ina ur not comfortable around him hidee u don't want to go through what i've been through

Sindis: inshallah thank u 7abeebtee.. inzayn ma 3indee shay albisa !!!! ishraykom inroo7 harvey nichols?

Fajer: eeeeee yallah I never say no to shopping

Reema: haman ana tara ana ma 6ala3t ila awal yowm yeet

SO HARVEY NICHOLS HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!

The End Of The Road (15)

2009-10-12T12:57:00.000-07:00

I know inee gilt i'll be posting regularly o i'm so sorry inee i didn't :(
fa it's a school night o ana ga3da i'm writing a post
so enjoy ;D

I didn't tell anyone about yousif and neither did he I kept reminding him everyday to take his medication and he did he felt week and useless his face was turning pale he was loosing weight he has black circles under his eyes and whenever anyone asks him what's wrong he would say he has a flue or he'll just make up something he told me that today he has an appointment to see if the medication is kicking off or not and I insisted on going with him while he refused.

He picked me up from uni and we headed to the hospital

We entered through the huge hospital doors and there were posters and banners everywere there was this specific one that caught my attention which said "always have hope never lose faith "

There were people from all ages and sizes young kids that were bold and hairless a women in her mid thirties that had wires all over her body and old man that looked misserable but had a smile plastered on his faces and acted happy how could they survive such thing why would young inoccent children live this way I felt sad I told Yousif that I neaded to go to the bathroom and I did I went there to cry I cried my heart out I thanked god for everything that I have and for the perfect health that I'm in 3asa allah la iy'3ayer 3alayna inshallah

I was standing in front of the sink while I was crying when a young girl came in with her mother and she just stood there and watched me crying I looked her way and she smiled to me I smiled back and she said

Girl: Don't cry your going to be fine and u will heal that's what mommy keeps telling me

( the girl was so adorable she had a scarf around her head and she had 2 dimples that showed when she smiled)

Sindis: you think so

Girl: yes look at me I feel better already the doctor keeps telling me that I'm healing

And just like that I started crying one more time How could a five year old kid handle such thing and I cant I stayed for a few minutes until I felt better then I washed my face and left the bathroom

I found Yousif sitting in the receptions chairs waiting for me so I went to him

Sindis: ha ma ri7t 7ag il doctor

Yousif: la gilt an6irich 5ift ma itdileen

Sindis: ee okay yallah mishayna

Yousif: ee yallah

We headed to the elevator and pressed on the button that indicated the 3rd floor and Ding the elevator women "3rd floor" and the elevator doors opened

The whole place was white everything the walls the chairs everything I walked behind Yousif to a long narrow empty hallway then he stood behind a door that said "DR. Thomas Jackson" he knocked on the door twice then entered I followed him inside

DR: oh Yousif how are you feeling today please have a seat

Yousif: I'm feeling worse doctor I'm always tired and sleepy but the problem is i cant sleep the pain is horrible

Dr.: well let me see about that

He called the nurse to bring in Yousif's file and she did he read the papers and the lab reports silentley

Dr: I'm so sorry Yousif but this dosn't seem to be working for you

Sindis: Doctor what do you mean it doesn't seem to be working for him he's taking his medication everyday and I am sure that he takes his meds regullarly

Dr: it doesn't matter if he takes them regullarly or not but his body doesn't seem to be interacting with the meds

Yousif: so what do we do now doc?

Dr: there's only one more thing left!!!

Yousif: okay when do we start?

Dr: we'll start net week because there are some tests that i would like to make before we start

Yousif: okay doc thanks

And that's when i crashed again I started crying one more time and Yousif was actually shocked ma yadree shino iysawee he tried calming me down he hugged me gently it was a brotherly hug the one that u know that everything's gonna be fine and that nothing bad is gonna happen the hug where u know that he'll never leave ur side when u need him It was so soothing so comforting I felt like a kid hugging her elder brother

We left the hospital without saying a word I was actually sad that yousif was going through this difficult phase but what can I do except for pray

The End Of The Road (14)

2009-10-07T11:31:00.000-07:00

Enjoy got the chance ;D

I actuallay couldn't wait so I called him instantley

calling Yousif:

Yousif: aloooo

Sindis: Yousif waynik?

Yousif: ana bil hotel shfeekom feekom shay?

Sindis: la ma feena shay bas I need to talk to u , when can I see u

Yousif: il7een ana ayeech 3a6eenee robi3 sa3a o ana 3indich

Sindis: ok

I waited for him in the living room o i've put the package in my bag so that no one would see it and after exactley 15 minutes my phone rang

Incoming call Yousif

Sindis: hala Yousif

Yousif: ana ta7at ib tanzileen wila ana a93adlich

Sindis: la ana banzil

Yousif: ok yallah bye

Sindis: bye

I ran down the stairs not wanting him to wait for long and I saw him chatting with Mike and once I approached him

Yousif: wayn tabeen itroo7een

Sindis: 5alna inroo7 Costa in'3ayer hal mara

Yousif: Sindis shfeeech wayhich ma iy6amin

Sindis: laman now9al agoolik

Yousif: yallah 3ayal imshay 5anroo7

We arrived at Costa and the smell of the fresh coffee was so delightful u could actually taste it we sat down and made our selfs comfortable

Yousif: shino ibtishribeen?

Sindis: Mocha flake please

Yousif: ma tabeen takleen shay?

Sindis: la malee nafs mashkoor

He went and got us our drinks and he bought me a turkey sandwich

Yousif: just incase ityoo3eeen

Sindis: mashkoor

Yousif: momkin please itgooleenlee ishfeech l2nee bas manee gader a9ber

I reached for my bag and got out the package

he was beyond shocked

Yousif: ooooooooooooooooooooo ana nisayt il '6aher 7a6ayta 3ala ur adresss

Sindis: ya3nee il package 7agik

Yousif: eeeee ana bagoolich kil shay bas please Noor la tadreee

Sindis: laysh inta shfeek hathee mo ay clinic Yousif it's a cancer clinic Yousif

Yousif: i have Waldenström's Disease

Sindis: shino hatha Yousif i've never heard of it

Yousif: it's one kind of blood cancer Sindis it's kind of rare it usually comes to old people that are over the age of 65 and no one knows the cause it happens when there is overproduction of cells from the bone marrow o hatha i5alee il blood gets thick o iysabib wayed mashakel

Sindis: inzayn o shino bil package

Yousif: I'm supposed to get a bone marrow transplantation bas they told me ina its too dangerous 7agee fa now I'm taking Melphalan o if there's no use I have to go through chemotherapy

Sindis: abaaaaiii Yousif laysh ma giltlina this is serious mo '3ashmara

Yousif : wallah adreee bas mabee a'6ayig 5ilg Noor mo il7eeen awal shay lets see what will happen with the treatement ba3dayn iy9eer 5air

Sindis: bas inta u'll tell me everything whether it's good or bad

Yousif: inshallah I will bas u have to promise me inich ma itgooleen shay 7ag Noor

Sindis: 5ala9 I promise

I knew it I knew that something wrong the Dream o Noor o everything I could feeeel it. Once i left the cafe I felt so bad for Noor how could she handle such news It's not easy to slowly loose someone u love la la ista'3farallah he's gonna heal o ib yirja3 mithel il awal bas what if ya3nee what if something happens what will happen how he just leave her so easily !!!!!!!!!

The End Of The Road (13)

2009-10-03T13:28:00.000-07:00

enjoy;D

We had our afternoon tea with Bader and chatted for a while then he excused himself cause he had to meet a friend the instance he set foot out of the appartement I recieved a message

1 message recieved:
(a7la akel thigta ib 7ayatee ya36eech il 3afia o tislam eedich)

Isn't that just sweet wallah madree shino arid 3alayh

1 message sent:
(3alayk ib alf 3afia o allah iysalmik whenever ur craving machboos I'm a phone call away)

1 message recieved:
(shaklee kilyowm ba6ayi7 3idikom 3ayal

1 message sent:
(7ayak allah ib ay wagt ur always welcome)

1 message recieved:
(allah iy7eech thank you wayed o ee I forgot to mention you looked good in orange)

I was wearing an orange top with dark blue jeans ya3neee kan shaklee 3adee

1 message sent:
(thank u )

1 message recieved:
(any time ;) )

was he flirting or was he just complementing me maybe kan bas ga3ed yimda7 madree wallah madreee ishsalfita bas wallah I didnt expect him to be like this ya3neee sowalfa o 7achya il wa7ed iy7is ina 9ij rayal

the sun has set and the moon has rised it was night time we stayed at home and enjoyed reema's company she told us all about the hot guys she found with her at AUP and how she was adjusting in Paris and everything I was really tired from all the cooking I wasnt actually used to it so I excused myself early and left the girls

I changed into my pjs and layed down on my bed with the cold cosy cover that was surrounding my body and warming it slowly I drifted to sleep in a matter of minutes I slept safeley dreaming of birds and cloudy skies

I woke up at around 9 am cuz my class starts at 10:30 did the usual changed and everything I was done at about 9:30 so I went to the living room the curtains were fully open the sunshine has reflected the colors of the couches into the marble grounds it was so peaceful the place was quite everyone was sleeping no one had class at this time except for me the phone house for rang and i answered it

Sindis: hello

Mike: o good morning miss Sindy I'm sorry that I called u this early but u've got a package should I send it up

Mike was the concierge he is so sweet he helped us alot when we first moved in

Sindis: yes please i would love that thank you

Mike: your welcome do u need anything else miss Sindy

Sindis: No thanks alot bye

Mike: ok bye

After a few minutes the door bell rang and i went to get it I was so eager to see who was the package from

Mike: this is it miss Sindy

Sindis: thank you but do you know who is it from?

Mike: No I actually dont but I think it's written on the back

I flipped the package and It's from a clinic
To: Mr. Yousif al -
from: x clinic

okay why does Yousif get medication he is in full health is it for him? what is wrong with him ? I'll just have to wait and see

The End Of The Road (12)

2009-10-01T13:40:00.000-07:00

So I'm really embarresed ina ma fee any comments bas I will continue posting o inshallah i'll be seeing more comments ;D
enjoy ;***

I went to class o kan mazajee zift min Bader ya3nee at the begining i thought that he was sweet bas now ya3nee what the hell he has no right to judge me the class went by well I really didn't pay any attention to what the proffesor was saying I was actually chatting with the girl ilee yamee she's so sweet ya7laylha

once the professor dismissed us I left the class and I saw bader sitting on the chairs near by awal ma he saw me he stood up and headed towards me

Bader: ha how was ur class

Sindis: not bad u?

Bader: wallah ana il professor malee ma yinbili3 fa kan il class 7ada sa5eef

Sindis: shisim ur professor?

Bader: Dr.Paul

Sindis: waaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii33333333333333

Bader: it3arfeena?

Sindis: shlown ma a3arfa he kicked me out of his class the first day

Bader: hahahaha laysh shimsawya?

Sindis: bas l2nee I asked daloool for a pen

Bader: ya3nee ma anlam

Sindis: la la I dont blame u

we kept talking for a while and then he suddenley said

Bader: tadreen shino mishtihee min il kuwait?

Sindis: shino?

Bader: machboos diyay min yeet min il summer ma kalayta

Sindis: ma 6alabt shay bacher il '3ada 3indina machboos diyay and ur welcome to join

Bader: la la la o shlown mino biysawee

Sindis: ma yabeela shay ana asawee

Bader: AYABAAAA MACHBOOS DIYAY

Sindis: tadreee ana shino 9ij mishtahya?

Bader: l2 shino?

Sindis: mishtahya rice crispies o m&m brownies o kinder cupcakes malowt Muffy Cake

Bader: 3ad hathee 9a3ba shlown asaweelich iyahom

Sindis: hehehehe mino ilee galik abeek itsaweelee iyahom ana bas ga3da agoolik inee mishtahyathom

Bader: aha ok

Sindis: abaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiih I'm late to class yallah I'll see you tommorow for lunh inshallah

Bader: inshallah o thank u 3al 3azeema

Sindis: any time

The Next Day:

I got to make machboos diyay from scratch it wasn't that hard actually well it looks good and it smells good but I don't know about the taste we'll have to wait and see lunch was ready so I put in the oven to make sure that It wont get cold and I went to take a shower cause kanat ree7tee 6oba5

Once I finished I went to the living room and stayed with the girls and Yousif we were waiting for Bader to come and DING DONG our door bell rang

There he was Bader holding 5 Muffy Cake boxes

Sindis: OMG MO MIN 9IJIK 9A7

Bader: I had a friend that was coming to london in the afternoon flight so I asked him yesterday to bring me some

Sindis: tara kan 9ij mala da3ee itkalif 3ala 3omrik

Bader: la wallah ma feeha kalafa wala shay

We ate our lunch and the food was amazing I was really proud of myself

Bader: akramkom allah

All: 7ayak allah

Bader: tislam eedich sindis

Sindis: allah iysalmik

Now it was time for dessert the rice crispies were spectacular the crunchiness and the smoothness of the caramel were just breathtaking, ooooh and the soft brownies that were mouth watering and now for the kinder cupcakes the taste of the chocolate melting in your mouth made me feel like I was in heaven

Sindis: Bader wallah thank u alot 3ala kil hatha 9ij u made our day

Bader: wallah ma sawayt ila il wajeb o 3alaykom bil 3afya

I guess I started to like Bader again ma adree I think he's sweet but sometimes annoying Its too soon to judge we'll have to wait and see

The End Of The Road (11)

2009-09-29T11:41:00.000-07:00

inshallah I'll be posting more frequenteley ;D
enjoy ;****

The girls joined us again and as soon as they joined us Yousif closed the subject o i didnt mention anything to Noor cause i didn't want to scare her because it was so random of 't kknowYousif he never mentioned anything before about leaving, I'm not sure maybe he's in some kind of trouble and needs help I really dont know

We went to the appartement talked for a bit and then decided to sleep because we had uni the next day

so i was sitting facing the mirror the room was dark only the table lamp was switched on I was watching my reflection and observing my smile while suddenley my tooth suddenley fell OUCH that actually hurt there wasnt any blood nothing then all my teeth started to fall out what is wrong with i saw myself in the mirror and all I saw was a scary reflection

I jumped up from my bed running straight to the mirror fearing what i just saw "ista'3forallah ista'3forallah bismillah bismillah" thank god it was just a dream,

I was terrified i knew that something bad was gonna happen earlier today I felt it,and now the dream ya rab mako ila il 3afya the room was dark I couldn't see a thing the only thing that was showing was the light beeming from under the door

I stayed in bed not knowing what to do my head was gonna explode from thinking I was literally shaking fearing of whats gonna happen next I cant handle it anymore so I decided to go sit in the living room wila alga Noor ga3da

Sindis: Noor shfeech laysh layl7een ga3da?

Noor: ma feenee il nowm kint ga3da afaker

Sindis: ishfeech feech shay?

Noor: madree kint ga3da afaker ib Yousif

that was what i was feared of I knew that something was wrong with him

Sindis: laysh shfee Yousif

Noor: 9ar insan thanee wayed he cares o wayed yig3as ma3ay o he spends alot of time talking to me o telling me everything

Sindis: bas laysh ur thinking about it, it's a good thing ur building up a great relationship with ur uncle

Noor: I know it's a good thing bas what made him change!! 9ij ina i7na close bas il7een he's been here for 3 months o shakla ba3ad im6awil

Sindis: don't even think about it il mohim it's for the best 9a7 ur both enjoying each others company

Noor: I guess ur right yimkin im just exageratting a bit

Sindis: yalah shrayich ingoom inam

Noor: ee yallah cuz ta3abt

each one of us headed to her room lost in her own thoughts i was thinking of the dream and Noor was thinking of her uncle.

We slept for a few more hours then Fajoor knocked the door

Fajer: Sindis gimtay wila not yet

Sindis: la gimt kanee

I went to the bathroom showered brushed my teeth and did my hair and guess who popped in my mind BADER!!!!!!! ya3nee shako min wayn 6ala3lee hatha so i decided to look good today and forget about the dream and everything applied some make up not to muh but just the morning make up very light and natural then went to change I had a dress in mind it was a short blue flew dress that looked so good and it was comfy

Once we all finished we headed to uni together Reema was sleeping so we prepared her some breakfast and left

I finished my first class and had an Hour break so i decided to get me some starbucks coffee while i was getting my order i saw Bader entering he saw me and had a Huge smile on his face i smiled back and went and sat in the nearest table that i can find he took his order and decided to join me without even asking

Bader: Sindis shlownich

Sindis: uuuum il7imdillah (with a shocked look)

Bader:3adee ag3ad 9a7!!

Sindis: inta a9lan ga3adt o ee 3adee

Bader: shlown il dirasa wiyach?

Sindis: wallah zaina il 7imdillah inta shlownha wiyak

Bader: wallah ana mashee il 7al abee as2lich so2al momkin?

Sindis:ee tfa'6al

Bader: itnay shlown it3arfeen yousif?

WHAT THE HELL INTA SHAKOOO

Sindis: yousif 5al Noor

wayha iy'6a7ik 7ada tifashal

Bader: haa eeee eeee 9a7 9a7 ok

Sindis: laysh tis2al? ( 7adee 3a9abt o tinarfazt)

Bader: ummm laaa bas l2na a3arfa o ummm chitheee

Sindis: it was nice talking to u bader bas ana lazem aroo7 my class ib yabdee il7een

Bader: iy9eer awa9lich!!!

Sindis: ummm ee kayfik

so we went to uni hand in hand enjoying each others presense..................................................................................................
la la shda3wa tawnee mitnarfiza mina i was just day dreaming shwaya
wa9alnee layn my class and off he went I dont know if I still like him china shway malee8!!

The End Of The Road (10)

2009-09-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

I'm so sorry inee gimt a6awel 3alaykom :(
I hope inkom istanastaw bil 3eed o enjoy ;**

Sindis: BANAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT

Dalal:ha shfeech

Noor: shino ish9ayer!!

Sindis: reeeemaaa ib tiyey next week

Lulu: 7ILFAY

Sindis: walllah wallah tawa dagat 3alay galatleee

Fajer: alllllaah wanasa biy9eer nafs ayam high school

Sindis: inzayn shraykom bacher inroo7 nishtiree a'3ra'6 7ag her room

we actually have an extra room for reema because she has promised us that she's gonna visit every now and then

Fajer: okay bacher saturday fa we have all day to enjoy

Sindis: ee ok il mohem we get everything ready because her room is empty

Dalal: ee ee 5ala9 bacher we start shopping

we decided to head home so yousif walked us to our appartement to make sure that we were fine and then went to the hotel

that week was hectic we got everything ready we furnished her room with the bed cabnits curtains some paintings do decorate the room everything was ready the room looked so good the walls were purple because it was her favorite color and there was a medium sized pink chandelier hanging the room was perfect for reema

It was the day that reema was arriving so we decided to go pick her up from the airport so kina kilina ga3deen nan6erha ti6la3 o yowm i6la3at abay 9ar il ma6ar 3aza kilina we were crying o hugging her o sawayna mana7a everyone around us were looking at us in a funny way, l2na we were always together 7atan bil summer we would all decide 3ala the same country so that we would beg our parents to spend the summer there never did we leave each other for more than 2 weeks and we havent seen reema for 3 months fa it was kind of hard

Reema: 7adeee walaht 3alaykom

Fajer: i7na akthar

Noor: kila minich intay il wa7eeda ilee tabeen tadriseen ib AUP

Reema: 7aram 3alaych ya3nee shasawee il major ilee abee mo mawjood ib ur university

Lulu: nooroo shfeech kalayteeha tara tawha il bint wa9la

Noor: ok 5ala9 sorry

Sindis: Reema ta3bana wila tabeen troo7een titmashayn

Reema: la mo ta3bana yallah imshaw intimasha 7adee i missed london o their food i7na ib paris china 6areena minhom il plate ishkobra o kila 5alee ma tilgayn ila bil no9 7a6eenlich a9'3ar akla bil 3alam

Sindis:HAHAHAHA hathee faydat london a7san shay feeha il akil

Reema: eeee wallah yallah 7adee yow3ana

so we took her to wugamama o kan shway za7ma bas mo nafs il summer shlown l2 shway a5af yousif has joined us offcoarse and he already knew reema min il kuwait they met once we finished dinner and were going for a walk all the girls went with reema for a bit of shopping and i walked with yousif cuz kan malee 5ilg shopping

Yousif: Sindis please i want you to take care of Noor

Sindis: haw Yousif ish hal kalam offcoarse I'll take of her bas why are you saying this!!

Yousif: ma tadreen what life has hidden for us fa if im not here please ma awa9eech 3alayha

Sindis: inshallah mako ila il 5ayr o la it7ateee noor i5tee

Yousif: mashkoora inich 6amanteenee

He kind of scared me i felt that something was wrong my stomache started to hurt and my heart started to ache i know that something bad was gonna happen bas madree shino ohwa allah yaster

3eedkom imbarak ;***

2009-09-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

3eedkom imbarak o 3asakom min 3awadah omg i cant believe how ramadan 6af ibsir3a hal sina inshallah yin3ad 3alaynah o 3alykom next year o kil year
;********

The End Of The Road (9)

2009-09-11T15:58:00.000-07:00

got the chance so enjoy ;* o i hope it's long enough

"Okay dont panic it's fine " i kept telling myself

OMG OMG he saw me waaaaaaay shasawee 6ala3t my mirror min my bag to check if i looked good wila l2 taboon il9ara7a i5tara3t mn shakleee ya3nee shino hatha fa 6ala3t my make up bag in5ashayt wara dalal o applied anything i could get out

a9lan il movie mo mal guys ya3nee what has brought him here

Bader: ha yousif ishlownik?

Yousif: hala bader wallah tamam int ishlownik?

Bader: ib 5ayr allah iysalmik, gowa sindis shlownich?

abaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay yal fashla ishbiygool 3anee yousif

Sindis: aaa amm zain ammmm inta shlownik?

Bader: il 7imdillah yallah 3ayal ana asta2then faman ilah

Yousif: famanin kireem

7adeee iftishalt o yousif in9idam ina ana i know bader imbayin cuz 3a6ana na'6rat

dalal: hahahahaha shiftay shaklich??

Sindis: siktay siktay allah iy5aleech bas ta3alay lay hal daraja shaklee i5ari3???

Dalal: tabeen il 9ara7a? eee

Sindis? laaaaaaaaaaaaaa la itgooleeen way3 way3 hatha min wayn 6ala3leee ya3nee ma liga il hal movie 3ashan iyeela?

a9lan yousif gashee 3alayna min il '9i7ik cuz ashkalna itfashil

Yousif: hahahahahaha min 9ijkom bichaytaw hahahaha

Noor: 5alee plz tara mo wagtik ana broo7ee il girl kasra 5a6ree

Yousif: tara mo 9ij film wallah film intaw 3ala ay shay tabchooon

Noor: eeeee ba3ad shino wallah its sad

Yousif: Sindis intay it3arfeen bader?

I was actually shocked by his question

Sindis: ha ee ya3nee ohwa ma3ay bil jam3a o chithee

7adee tiwahagt madree shagool ya3nee itha giltla ina he used to send me stuff everyday o i have his number what would he actually think of me

Yousif: mmm ok

1 message recieved
from: Bader
" la tabcheen tara il dinya ma tiswa :p"

awwwwwwww isn't he the sweetest

1 message sent
to:Bader
"loooooooool inshallah i'll try not to cry again ib sad movies"

1 message recieved
from:Bader
"7atan when u cry u look cute"

OK WHAT THE HELL THAT WAS SO RANDOM

1 message sent
to:Bader
" thank u i guess"

1 message recieved
from:Bader
" ur welcome ;D"

Sindis: Nooroo noorooo ta3alay

Noor: ha shtabeen

Sindis: tawa bader galee ina shaklee 7ilo 7atan wana abchee hehehehe

Noor: hatha ishfee yan!!

Sindis: madree madree thak il yowm mo ma36eenee wayh o il yowm iysalim il 7imdillah wil shiker inzayn yal fashla shiftay shlown yousif 5azna

Noor: la tara ohwa kila chithee he dosn't mean it

Sindis: akeed???

Noor: ee wallah

my mobile started flashing

"Reema calling"

i answered the phone

Sindis: REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Reema: SINDDDIIIISSSS I MISSED U WAYED

Sindis: ANA AKTHAR waynich min ziman u didn't call wala shay

Reema: I know bas wallah i had a summer coarse fa kint 7adee lowya ba3dayn my family came to vist shasaweee I'm so sorry

Sindis: oh allah iy3eenich inzayn mita ra7 tiyeen london itzooreena

Reema: that's why I actually called bayeekom next week 3ashan ma 3indee any classes for the next couple of months

Sindis: 7ILFAAAYYY!!!!!

Reema: wallah

Sindis: i cant wait

Reema: me too wallah inzain ana il7een i got to go talk to u soon

Sindis: Ok yallah bye

7ada wanasa Reema was also one of are close friends min high schoool she studies abroad ib AUP o we really missed her since she's the only one who wanted to study ib Paris i guess il shila ib tiktimil next weeek

The End Of The Road (8)

2009-09-05T14:57:00.000-07:00

Il yowm 9irt fa'6ya fa gilt why not write a post its a long one so enjoy ;D

I told fajer that dalal saw fawaz she freaked out as well so we took the first cab we could find and went to dalal's appartement she was expecting us so she oppened the door from the first couple of knocks...

she looked so sadher face was pale, she looked exactley the same way as the day she left him, I hugged her the instant i entered the appartement she didn't shed a tear, she didn't cry nothing she was calm and quiet she has always been the strongest one of us.

I felt sorry for her, that wasn't supposed to happen she wasn't supposed to see him, she told us that he was with his wife and kid.

The girls and I have actually heard of his marriage, he got married about a year ago, but we didn't mention anything to dalal we knew it will break her so we kept it as a secret that is now revealed

Sindis: dalal I'm so sorry

Dalal: don't be law mo shayfita il yowm chan shift ib ay yowm thanee

Fajer: 7abeebtee 5ala9 3adee mako ila il 3afya

Dalal: adree ina 3adee il7imdillah 3ala everything

Sindis: ee wallah il 7imdillah

Dalal: I never knew that I was this strog ma tiwaga3at inee I'd react this way, he has a baby boy he named him ahmad 3ala his father o his wife's name is Lamya

Fajer: intay ishdarach????

Dalal: ohwa galee when i saw him today

Sindis: YOU TALKED TO HIM!!!

Dalal: ee it9adgeen madree laysh o shlown i just did I actually missed him, His oice was the same he looked the same, He did't change a bit, his baby was so adorable he had his fathers eyes they were brown and wide the exact same as fawaz's eyes they were just amazing

Fajer: intay shlown ba3ad shiftay il yahel tara dowdahteena

Dalal: I held him i held the baby that was suppossed to be mine that was supposed to be ours me and his not him and Lamya

Sindis: hatha ilee allah katba likom o la iti7asifay cuz everything happens for a reason ma tadreen yimkin 5eera

Fajer: 9a7 kalam sindis ma tadreen o il7een its been over 2 years life goes on

Dalal: 9a7 kalamkom life does go on

Sindis: inzain ishrayich inroo7 we get some selfridges brownies

Fajer: eeeeeeeeeee ana 7adee mishtahyathom

Dalal: la la ana malee 5ilg aroo7 mokan intaw roo7aw o ana ban6irkom

Sindis: 3an il dala3 o yallah imshay intay itmooteen 3alayhom

Dalal: a9lan ishda3wa il maw'6oo3 beedee il salfa '3a9bin 3alay

Fajer: madam tadreeen laysh you reject min il first place

Dalal: madree gilt yimkin akser 5a6erkum bas shakla ma minkom fayda

we all laughed and headed to selfridges to get the most amazing brownies ever we went to the bakeries corner they were in a basket we bought them then left

we decided to walk on the way back to the appartement because it wasn't far away from selfridges 15-20 minutes walking the weather was so encouraging it was amazing as usual cloudy but a bit sunny with a cool breeze hitting us every now and then we saw Noor and Yousif on the way back she's actually spending alot of time with him ya3nee they are close bas mo lay darajat ina ti6la3 ma3a 24/7 il mohem ina she's having fun wallah i like Yousif he's so funny kila iynakit o yit'3ashmar he doesn't take life so seriously and that's what makes him great

Yousif: ana abee a3arif kil mayeetkom london ashoofkom tishtiroon min hal brownies ya3nee shino feehom '3ayr? lay hal daraja 7ilween??

Sindis: I7LIF INIK YOU NEVER TRIED THEM?

Yousif: wallah laysh?

Fajer: ako a7ad iyey london o ma yakel min hal brownies

Yousif: NOOROO laysh wala mara gilteelee ajaribhom

Noor: wana ishdaranee ma tiwa8a3t inik mo imjaribhom

Yousif: 3ala il agal s2lay act as if you care

Sindis: ana i've bought 6 bags ra7 i give u 1

Yousif: ola yal bala3a shino 6 bags

Sindis: shino??? inta shift ish9i'3er il bag awal

Yousif: ee il wa7ed fee 4 madree 6 pieces ishda3wa 3alaykom kilikom takloon hal kither

Fajer: ee ba3ad shino they're good ma nishba3 minhom

Noor: 5aleee inta thooghom awal ba3dayn gool

Yousif: ok ok yallah ka il7een athoog

Noor: ha ishrayik (before he puts it in his mouth)

Yousif: bismillah wallah 7atan ma 7a6ayt.ha ib 7aljee

Noor: ee yallah ibsir3a nabee in3arif rayik

Yousif: WAAYY3 shino hatha shlown taklooon mina 6 bags

Sindis: ma3jibak??????

Yousif: l2

Dalal: 9ij?

Yousif: la at'3ashmar wallah 3ajeeb hatha wayna min ziman chan il7een im6ay7eeen feeh kil hal moda

Noor: ashwa wallah law mo 3ajbik yi6la3 ma 3indik thoo8 bil akel

Yousif: ishda3wa ishda3wa they're just brownies wallah intaw you make a big deal 3ala ashya2 malha da3ee

Noor: ee ok ok 3adal intaw kil ur conversations 3an cars o soccer

Sindis: Inzain who's up for shopping?

Noor,Dalal and Fajer agreed so Yousif came along we had some major shopping to do cuz winter was on its way we called Lulu 3ashan 7aram she was all alone ma tadree ina kishatna feeha so yatna later on we went to the shops at oxford street awal we entered each and every store all the girls shopped maskeen Yousif he was our bag holder for the day shal kil our bags ba3dayn kisar 5a6erna so whenever we bought anything else we asked the shop to send our stuff straight to our appartement

I found out that Yousif actually has good taste in clothing he helped us alot during shopping It was actually fun having a guy that has the same taste as you do ya ba5t ilee ib ta5tha

Sindis: yousif I have this question that i wanted to ask you min awal ma bidayna shopping bas a5af la ta5ith a wrong empression!!

Yousif: si2lay bas wallah bidaytay it5ar3eenee

Sindis: are you gay?

Yousif: HAHAHAHAHAHA what made you think that i'm gay?

Sindis: l2na thow8ik iy3agid

Yousif: o shino only gay people thow8hom 7ilo ya3nee?

Sindis: ee ya3nee awal mara ashoof rayal 3inda thow8

Yousif: la youba I'm not gay bas allah iy3afee noor kila ma5thatnee ma3aha il soog fa yimkin 3ashan cithee

Lulu: Sindisooo ma tisti7een intay a7ad yis2l hal so2al

Yousif: la 3adee 5al ta5eth ra7at.ha ma galat shay bas tabee tit2akad

Lulu: ee ma gilna l2 bas mo lay hal daraja hathee

Sindis: ohwa ra'6ee 9a7 Yousif?

Yousif: ee ee 9a7

we finished shopping and decided to go watch a movie fa ri7na odione cinema o nagayna my sisters keepers cuz kan shakla 7ada 3ajeeb di5alna o ana wil banat 9ij indimajna it was really good we actually cried throughout the movie I was a mess my nose was red my eyes were puffy from all the crying I looked like hell kan shaklee iy5ari3 yan3nee It was really sad so o 9ij mo mal a7ad iyshoofnee il7een when the movie finished the lights opened and guess who was sitting a couple of rows infront of us????

Bader!!!!!!!!!

Do You Love Me?????

2009-08-31T15:18:00.000-07:00

This is a conversation that went on between two lovers
Does such thing exist?

Galat: abee as2lik ti7ibneee??? abee as2lik ana bil nisba lik min akooon?????????

gilt: bajawbich o ti5ayelay bajawbich ib kil 9ara7a!!!!!!!!

ana mo bas a7ibich

ana mo bas a3shigich

ana feech majnooon

tadreeen!!!

law beedee ma it3eesheen ib hatha il kown

law beedee a7i6ich wi96 il 3iyown

law beedee ma ti6i2 agdamich hal 2rth

law beedee asheelich ib ra7at iydaynee

wawa9lich mishaweerich wayn ma itkoon

wabneelich bayt min il 7anan wi'6loo3

washeel 3anich hal ham wamsa7 3an 5adich

hal idmoo3

wa5alee 7ayatich kilha fara7 o sa3ada o shijoon

tadreeen?????

inee a7sid ilee ma3ach yajlisooon

wa7sid i5wanich wahalich

wa7sid il malabis ilee ti'6imich

wa7sid il '6a7ka ilee tirtisim foog famich

7ata ib wagt il 7izin!!!!

a7sid il dam3a lay 6a7at fowg 5adich

tadreeeeeen?????

lazem kil il nas yadrooooon

min tikooneen o min akoooon!!! lazem yadroon

inich ajmal mafeee il kown

la2nhom limostawach ma yow9loon 7ata law

yi7awloon...o law yijtam3own..ma yigdiroon

laysh???????

l2nhom ma yiswon ish3ara min il 3iyonnn

intay!!!!

gomar.... intay malak...intay lo2lo2 maknoon

intay ameera ta2mer wagool ya 3own

intay il wa7eeda ilee 3alay timoon

6ilbay il galb minee wil roo7 wil 3iyoon

kileee fidach....kilshay lich yihoon

AMA ANA!!!!

fa ana insan ma ya3shag ib 3agil

yi3shag bijnooon

insan yimooot feech

o yaw3idich ma iy5ooon

insan yi7ibich 7ob il a6fal

shiftay il a6fal lay 7abaw shino iysawooon??

lay farigaw ileee iy7iboonhom

yabchooon!!

o lay ligaw ilee yi7ibooonhom

yifri7ooon

o law tiwali3aw ib shay

ma yitnazilown

lazim tadreen!!!!

inich 7ayateee o 7obeee o 3alameee

wil kown

intay bil nisba lee na'6r il 3iyoon

wana min doonich aysh akooon

bas ba6libich 6alab?

min insan feeech maftoon.. inich ma tis2leen mara thanya

sow2al izeedneee fowg jinoonee jinooon

The End Of The Road (7)

2009-08-30T12:52:00.000-07:00

I know that i said i wont be posting bas i got the chance to write so enjoy ;D

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from: dalal
( I just saw Fawaz)
OMG she has'nt seen him since the day they decided to end things.. dalal and Fawaz were the perfect couple the great match i never thought that they would end up like this

1 message sent
(ni6reenee i'm coming to ur appartment)

Dalal point's of view

I just left the restaurant and was getting a taxi to head home when i saw fawaz he was with a girl which I suspect is his wife because he was holding a babey and he had both his hands wrapped around the babey, the babey looked so tiny compared to fawaz

I was shocked when i saw him because it's been over 2 years since I've seen him, Since i left him..

2 years 1 month and 5 days ago

I was at Lulu's house I was sitting in the living room with Lulu when Abdullah (Lulu's brother) decided to join us, he was older than me in 4 years so he was like my older brother I just loved being around abdullah because I can talk to him about anything and everything he's just like Lulu sweet, caring, and adorable so abdullah told us that he has a friend coming over it's not like i cared he usually meets up with his friends at the duwaniya....

but this time was different Abdullah brought his friend inside the house they past us and went to the other living room, I took a glimpse of them while they passed , his friend was so handsome he had wide eyes a thin long nose he was tall with the an amazing body he was perfect.

that's when i knew that was him that was the guy i've been waiting for my whole life that's the guy I've been dreaming of , I've found him I've actually found him I've found my other half and i was right.

I kept goig to Lulu's house more frequentley and so did fawaz , I've got the chance to sit with him i even got to talk to him he was amazing I was sure of him I was sure that he was the one that would make me happy the one that will brighten my day .

Things started to get more serious between us we took things step my step we got to know each other, he was mine and I was his , i got to know every detail in his life I even knew what kind of shampoo he uses and what kind of cigarrete he smokes I knew him very well.

He liked it when i put my hair up because It shows my face more clearley , we were meant to be he filled me

he treated me like a diamond that he doesnt want to scratch or break and he didnt scratch me or break me he kept me safe in a loveley velvet box that no one can touch.

He took care of me like no one did he knew when i was sad or happy OH GOD HE KNEW ME VERY WELL. the most happiest days of my life were when i was around Fawaz and he had that feeling too He truely loved me he wanted me he wasnt fooling around

Until the day came when he went to my dad and proposed and asked for my hand in marriage my dad has REFUSED and i was SHOCKED my dad said that he wasn't right for me that he wont provide me with what i want and that he wouldn't take care of me.

I couldn't take it anymore so I went to my dad and told him that Fawaz is perfect for me that fawaz is my other half and that he provided me with everything he provided me the love that Fawaz 3a6anee shay ma7ad yigdar ya36eenee iya which is his heart I told my dad that no one has taken care of me in a way that fawaz did

Bas lil2sf who would listen to me I was thinking emotionally and my dad was thinking about the money and wealth "Fawaz mo min mostawana" my father would repeat "obooh ma 3inda sharikat o 3imarat o floos mithilna ohma 3ala gad 7alhom" he would tell me and I didn't care if Fawaz was driving a Bentley or a Honda or if his house was a mansion or a cottage the only thing that mattered was that i would be with him and only him.

I cried, I cried thinking that there's no more late night texts that I wont be able to see him smile when I told him I loved him , I cried remembering that i wont be able to call him whenever I'm sad or depressed, I cried remembering that whenever I had good news he's the first person I would tell. I cried remembering that there's NO MORE FAWAZ that HE'S NOT MINE ANYMORE.

I gave Fawaz my heart and it was too late to get it back society has split us apart but I've never stopped loving him he's my first love, my only love, no one replaced him and no one will but unfortunateley he found his replacement and got married, but by the way he looked at me I knew that he still loves me I saw it in his eyes and that I own a special place in his heart that will never be removed

I'm So Sorry

2009-08-21T15:03:00.001-07:00

I'm So Sorry bas i might not post during ramadan i know inee ma9a5t.ha bas shasaweee it's RAMADAN o there's no time tadroon shlown lowya o 7owsa so I'll try my best ;****

IMBARAK 3ALAYKOM IL SHAHAR ;D

2009-08-21T15:03:00.000-07:00

Imbarak 3alaykom il shahar o 3asakom min 3awadah ;**

wallah manee im9adga ina its ramadan it was too soon bas inshallah yin3ad 3alayna o 3alaykom ib kil 5ayr

The End Of The Road (6)

2009-08-15T12:15:00.000-07:00

adree inee 6awalt 3alaykom I'm so sorry
love u guys ;D

TI5AYILAW MINO SHIFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

il i5t Nooor wiya this guy that i havent seen min gabil he had his arms around her shoulders o they were laughing wala k2na imsaween shay.. ya3nee taboon il 9ara7a kilish ma tiwaga3t.ha min Noor 9ij ina she is open minded o free bas 3omerha ma sawat.ha

6ab3an ana la itshoofooon my reaction ya3neee 9ij in9damt

Sindis: Hi Nooooor ( sawayt ro7ee 3adee wala k2na shay 9ayer)

Noor: oh hiiiiiiiiii sindis ta3alay ta3alay I would like u to meet my uncle he came to visit me

Sindis: ur uncle is this young?

Noor: eee ohwa akbar minee ib 2 years bas... 5aleee yousef this is sindis my friend

yousif: wa2a5eeran i met u sindis

haw shino 8a9da wa a5eeran

Sindis: Hi

Yousif: Hi shlownich?

Sindis: il 7imdillah

Yousif: wallah Nooroo tig3ad itsowlif 3anich 6oool il yowm

abaay shitgoool 3aneee Norooooo 3ind her uncle 3asa bas ma fashilatneeeee

Yousif: la it7ateen ma galat ila kil 5ayr

Sindis:hehehe (ya3neee mista7ya 3ishtaw)

the proffesor entered the class so her uncle had to leave and she came and sat right besides me

Sindis: bagoolich shay bas moo it3a9beeen!!!

Noor: golay yallah manee im3a9ba

Sindis: your uncle is HOOOTTTTT

Noor: haay intay ishfeech min wa7ed lay wa7ed tawich bitmooteen 3ala bader

Sindis:wayn 5alich 3ana min ziman

The class went by so slow kan 7ada malee8 il lesson o kilish ma kan lah da3eee all this confusion ya3nee they make stuff look so hard when actually there's nothing as simple after all we were dismissed a bit early so we decided to go get lunch

we sent the girls messages to tell them that we were going to josephs just incase they wanted to join us.. so when we were there the waiter took us to our table and we sat down he asked us about our drinks and left.. a few minutes later Yousif joined us

Yousif: il salam o 3alaykom

Noor: hi yousif tifa'6al

Sindis: wa 3alaykom il salam (not knowing what the hell is he doing here)

he took a seat right beside me ya3neee it was a bit awkward he coul've sat besides noor for insatance

Noor: tara ana giltla iyeee 3adee 9a7?

Sindis: ee ee akeed 3adee

after half an hour the girls joined us we really had fun ya3nee i didnt expect her uncle would be this nice and sweet 6ab3an Noor tells him everything about us cuz she's really close to her uncle he's more of a friend to her so there was no need to pretend we acted all normal it was like he knew us really well as if we have been with him for years.

you all know how josephs is it's always crowded and the tables are so close to each other that you could actually hear kil sowalef il other tables.. to my luck bader showed up with a couple of his friends i didnt notice him at the begining until he was approaching our table he looked amazing he was wearing a navy shirt with a pair of jeans he just looked gordgeous

Bader: il salam o 3alaykom

Everyone : wa 3alaykom il salam

Bader: Halaaaaa bo jasim shlownik

Yousif: hala feeek yal 7abeeb ish hal 9idfa il 7ilwa

Bader: shift ishlown

they hugged not the cheesy hug but hug il riyayeeel loool they talked for a bit and bader went to his table

So after all he approached the table to say hi to yousif... ya3neee i kind of thought he liked me in some kind of way he could've at least asked how i was or if i was fine, but nothing he didn't even look at me for gods sakes..

I did'nt think about it for too long i just sat at the restaurant and enjoyed my time we finished eating so we decided to order the check but fashla yousif has already taken care of it how sweet.

once we left the restaurant my mobile vibrated

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